Namjoon POV 

'Things should be left alone if they are lost, Namjoon-shi'

Her words and those enraged eyes ......that's all .... been over my mind over this past week 

I never intended to be that obvious with my feelings towards her .... but she took a hint and I know she got an idea of .... what I am trying to do 

Trying to get her back?

Those words sound awkwardly foreign to my tongue and even my insight ....

Was she ever mine?

Because all I remember I never treated her more than a batchmate, a batchmate which was my tough competition ...

I seriously mock my previous dumb-self that failed to recognize her tiny-whiny crush .... during college ...

I never saw her that way .... seven years ago .... she was more like a seatmate to me ...just a pretty seatmate 

I was way too obsessed over my studies and career that time, I never thought of getting in to relationship

still, I humiliated her....and that's what makes my situation worse 

I had no hard feelings towards her then who gave me rights to humiliate and judge her?

When I entered my twenties after finishing college, that loneliness started to affect me.

I used to watch my fellow friends meeting their supposed soulmates ...then getting married 

I made every effort to find one for myself as well, but no other girl captured my attention the way she did. 

She was everything I ever wanted 

And this is what I realized all these years 

During college when she was interested in me, I felt no emotion, but finally after she left, I began to feel the loss. 

I unintentionally lost her 

All these nights I have been thinking about her, and fell for her everyday 

I've liked her for seven years now.

Her rage is totally justified towards me ...I never complained ....

What did I want her to do after I humiliated her in front of the entire college—worship me?

She is way more intelligent than I thought, she read my eyes right away ...

'Things should be left alone if they are lost'

I know I have dumbly made my route more complicated, the route which maybe led me to her....

But can I back away now? 

No

Do I want to back away?

Hell No

I don't want my lost person to stay lost .... I want her back ...

I am willing to try my best .... until I get completely beaten up by her brother ...

That's sound weird, but yeah, that's my motive for now....

Now that she got a hint about me, about my real intentions ......should I court her directly?

I slammed my head on my work table, the paperweight on my table took a dramatic turn and fell off the table ...

I don't know what to do ....

Whenever I think about her and about...us? ...this is what happened I overthink, then take stress then overwork, then take stress again

I should really work now...

Upon thinking about work my mind wandered along the name Park Jimin 

A week ago, when I was still in that convenience store ......grieving .... I got a call from him ...... he asked me to meet him, which I did actually 

All I asked him to bring me those papers, that's all 

But Park Jimin was not doing a shit

every time I ask that man about those papers, he changes the topic or avoids it completely 

If I hadn't been made to rely on that person, I never would have done so.

I can't get those papers myself ....and looks like he was enjoying making me wait since ...ages

I rested my right cheek on those warm printing papers which my printer was throwing out printing them just recently....

I let out an exhausted sigh, I was tired .... physically and mentally both 

closing my eyes, I tried to seek some relief .......but, I think that was not planned today

 My office door opened and the almighty presence of Park Jimin entered 

I nearly forgot I had called him ...for some answers 

"Hi Namjoon!" He smiled like he is my best friend since years 

My frustration and anger jumped off the cliff 

"Stop with your nonsense, Park Jimin! Just tell me when you'll bring those papers to me!"

Taken by surprise Jimin just stood there with his mouth half-opened 

"At least let me sit, Joonie" he huffed and sat dramatically wiped his forehead 

"We are running late park Jimin, I want this case to be finished in next hearing" 

"How many time do I have to tell you those papers are not easy to get well, I'm trying okay-" 

"WHEN!?" I stood up furiously from my chairs and slammed my palms over the table 

The whole table shivered with my assault, Jimin was suddenly glaring right through my soul

"You want me to fucking steal those confidential records papers from Ju-Kyung's office ...DO YOU THINK ITS THAT EASY?!"

Jimin matched my eye level and slammed his hands on the table too 

"How much more time do you need?" I muttered coldly and kept that staring contest on 

"3 days"

"given" 

"Thank you" Jimin sarcastically retorted and sat back 

"And if I don't get those papers in 3 days park Jimin, get ready to kiss your job goodbye"

I wanted this case to finish already, and I knew exactly what I had to do ....

"How is he?" you asked silently, sitting across your brother 

"He's fine" Yoongi muttered coldly and continued tapping on laptop 

"His chest had some cigarette marks, are they still burning, did you apply that cream brother-" You knew you were rambling, your fingers were nervously fiddling with each other 

"He's okay, but could you please explain to me what exactly happened to him?" Your brother voice was strained with frustration, he slammed his laptop on the coffee table

It's been one week since the day Jackson came home all bruised up 

Later that night when Yoongi came back home, he got the shock of his life 

Jackson was being treated by you on that damn couch after you sent Mark home ....

Somehow, both the Min siblings spent the whole night treating him ....

That was the day and today is the day, He is asking for the cause what happened to Jackson 

Only you knew how did you managed to avoid this question for six days, today's the seventh day ....and looks like his patience has finally run out

"I can't" 

You whispered, looking down at your lap .... you didn't want to tell him, because you fear consequences ....

He would deport your ass back to Daegu if you tell him that your best buddy was beaten up by a maniac; you can't afford that ......not after this case was finally meeting an end 

"Why Y/N!?...what the point of keeping things from me?" 

"I-I can't ...right now Brother, please understand-"

"Then when?! HUH?! WHEN WILL YOU BE IN GOOD HEADSPACE TO TELL ME? ...what is happening Y/N .... what if it was you.... I'm your older brother, I NEED TO PROTECT YOU!"

" I managed all these years by myself, didn't I?" you whispered 

"What- what did you just said?" Yoongi raised his eyebrows 

taking a deep breath, "I said I did it all by myself all these years, Brother, and I think I can do it this time too, I don't fucking need your protection-"

Realization crashed upon you harder than you thought 

"Brother I'm S-Sorry-"

He sighed heavily and went outside without glancing back to you 

It's disheartening.... When you're aware of your mistake, deeply regret it, and actively striving to improve, yet someone fails to acknowledge your sincere efforts....

This is what you did to your brother right now. You knew he was trying his best to be a good brother, and yet your mouth had to open to spit fire.

You can't imagine how your words deeply jabbed your brother's heart; you made him realize what kind of brother he was earlier...who ignored his sister all his life?

He was trying, wasn't he? ....and what did you do instead of appreciating his efforts?

"Fuck!" you kicked the coffee table and went to follow him 

The time you were out, his car was already running off the streets 

'I'm sorry'

The night was ascending, you were in your room ......overworking yourself 

You were tried of thinking over things, about Your brother, about this case, about that Psycho ........about Namjoon

You couldn't stay free with your thoughts in that living room, the more you thought over things the more you felt yourself getting angry over you ....

That's why you were locked in this room with your laptop and heap of papers

All kinds of newspapers, magazine articles were around your bed, you were trying find something useful about Ju-Kyung or his son 

Newspaper businesses normally perform private investigations before publishing them in their paper......but after 5 hours of reading only newspapers.... you still haven't found anything valuable...

This past week was not only about Jackson, it was about Jung Hoseok too ...

You have been trying to find that man, to get some answers

He knew about Jay-B, and yet he didn't tell you ......you just wanted to know why?

Trying to find him was like, finding a man who was never born on this earth 

He never gave you any phone number, any address .... he just appeared and disappeared out of nowhere ...you just realized how weird is that thing 

All the time you were trusting a ...stranger?

Was even Hoseok his real name? 

What if he was sent by someone to mislead you? .... but, then again, he never actually did that .... He always gave you genuine information....

Suspicion has a strange feature in that once it becomes comfortable in your mind, it takes a long time to get out...

You were getting oddly suspicious over Jung Hoseok 

You admit he was a great help, but still...his mysterious self was now knocking your mind up 

You were determined to find him, you searched up all kinds of Hoseok's on Instagram, snapchat, and even Facebook 

But still he was nowhere ....

A promotional mail popped up on your screen, you were already frustrated enough .... you deleted it right away...

Then ...you feezed 

You mind was suddenly took you back to a memory lane 

There was a time when Hoseok sent you an email right?

The time when he forwards you Mingyu's (Baekho's best friend) Number?

That email should be working right now...

You scrolled through the thousands of E-mails....you don't remember what the exact date was but still had an idea ...

Thirty minutes later your eyes were burning with the excess screen time .... but it was worth it ....

You clicked on the 'sent' email section and found it 

'AngelHoseok.124' 

This was the email ID he used to send you Mingyu's number 

You copied the sender's name and composed a new email 

______________________________________

From: MinY/N1994

To: AngelHoseok.124

If this email ID belongs to the person 'JUNG HOSEOK' .... please read further 

Jung Hoseok, where the fuck are you?! .... you can't just disappear like that?! .... Contact me right now!

______________________________________

Now that you got a lead, you can breathe finally 

You had some hopes that maybe this email would help you find him 

You placed the laptop away from you lap and stretched your sore muscle 

Upon stretching your feet met the un-ending sea of newspaper and magazines ......you were suddenly disgusted with your bed 

You stood up to clean, even though you didn't want to .... else, where would you sleep? ...

You collected the Newpapers and took them outside in the living room to dump them  

You placed them on the coffee table which was still, kicked away from your powerful thrash ...

The house was awfully silent, Jackson would be sleeping right now ......and you don't think Yoongi would be at home ...after all that...

The door upstairs creaked making your ears perking up in alert 

If your older brother were home, at least he would make some noise, right?

Carefully stepping up on the staircase, you held that ceramic vase in your hand for defense 

The disturbance was audibly from your room, Jackson's room was adjacent to yours .....you got more alerted when you sensed some danger towards your best friends 

'Was that psycho back for him?' 

You climbed the stairs more hurriedly and opened your door harshly 

"Whoever the fuck you are-" your words got buried in your throat when you saw the most unexpected person sitting on your bed 

'Jung Hoseok? ...what in the world-'

"You called me Baby?"

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TBC

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