Embarrassment .... 

A huge embarrassment and a sting of hurt ....you felt when Namjoon refused to recognize you Infront of his friends ...

you stood there looking down with red cheeks and pained expression 

laughter of his friends roamed around you ....

you keenly watched facial expression of Namjoon .... his eyes were fiddling nervously 

he was looking around like he was having a battle within his mind ...

you slowly took some steps behind and dissolved yourself within the swarm of other students who were walking by ......

"Where did she go?"

Namjoon just shrugged carelessly and continued talking to them as usual 

God never drop's a crisis over human .... without a sign 

he always gives us a sign .... but we humans choose to ignore them 

this was your sign ...... that...this Namjoon was not suitable for you 

god tried to give a sign of his personality .... of how he was in personal 

but what you did?

you ignored it...

ignored it with your own theories and conclusions 

'Maybe he didn't want me to meet his friends ...... Afterall they are all dangerous type of people .... was he protecting me from them ?!'

you can imagine how naive an emotionally innocent mind is .... instead of feeling anger and humiliation, you were feeling excited and hopeful

excited to see Namjoon again, hopeful .... that maybe Namjoon has also caught feelings for you 

'He was defiantly trying to protect me ....'

Jackson never got to know about this incident because you never told him 

you knew he will warn you or worse, tell you to stay away from Namjoon 

somewhere in your heart you did feel something heavy after what Namjoon did .... but your conclusion and theories .... overburdened that feeling 

"seokjin oppa , if I am not wrong .... he was defiantly trying to keep me away from them ..." you talked casually to the man Infront of you .... who was your friend other than Jackson

He owned a cafe on the opposite side of college, it was one of your favorite cafes ....

The chef was hot, and so was the food ......

you befriended him during your initial days of college ...... as friendly personality seokjin had ...... you both ended up becoming cafe buddies 

you never told him the name of your 'crush' just named Namjoon as 'crush' whenever you talked about him to seokjin 

seokjin said he also had a brother in the same college as yours, but never bothered to tell you his name 

seokjin was your main adviser in such topics .... he was way older than you .... and had experience with his girlfriend 

"Hmmm....  I also think he was doing the same...... as you described me "

"Maybe he really didn't want a good girl like you to be in bad company "

"I Know right!" you chirped and clapped 

when a person lives in a delusional world ...... they lie to themselves 

like you lied to yourself ...... that Namjoon had feelings for you 

This was your delusional world 

You were so swept away in your delusional world .... that anything .... literally anything Namjoon did ... even the smallest gesture ....

It convinced you ... more and more that Namjoon has 'feelings' for you 

when he stood for you .... because Teacher was scolding you for your wrong answer 

you were convinced 

when he caught you by your waist because you were about to fall 

you were convinced 

when he ate lunch with you .... because none of his 'friends ' were present that day 

You were convinced!

you were so convinced that Namjoon had feelings for you that ...... confessing him seem easier to you 

Then what?

that day also came ...... when you decided to confess ...

"Y/n .... are you sure about this?" Jackson had a wearily expression

It was the night of prom .... when you finally collected courage to make the first move ...

To You .... Namjoon is a very shy person .... he has feelings for you .... maybe he is shying away ....

you saw him laugh when you talked 

you saw him smiling, when you diverted your eyes from him...

he is just a reserve person .... who needs a light push to express himself 

"Yes... Jax ...... I'm very sure ... about this ... today I am confessing to Namjoon ..." you smiled and adjusted your earrings .... which were reflecting the light ...

you swirled prettily and smiled widely admiring your dress

It had a combination of black and purple .... favorite colors of Namjoon 

"Fine ... I'm happy if you are happy ...."  Jackson smiled and hugged you tightly 

you entered the prom hall with nervousness coating your features ....

 heavy music was blasting in your ears .... You saw various groups of students dancing and having chats around the hall ...

Jackson held your hand and smiled assuring ....

"Go... my princess ... get your prince ..." he whispered in your ears and left your hand joining the group of boys ......

you meddled between the students to talk and chat ....

with every second passing your heart was beating faster and faster ....... it was like ...The heart beating inside your head ......

you stuttered while talking with your fellow classmates .... the nervousness was getting best of you ....

you tried to calm your senses ...... because you didn't want to stutter Infront of Namjoon 

Then the moment came ......

when you finally ...... got the confidence to approach him ....

your eyes wander around the hall .........and in the end ...... you saw him 

Kim Namjoon ....

A leather jacket ...... with a white shirt and tie messily tucked inside his jeans... his outfit was complimenting his physique

his hands were handling a wine glass... and he was laughing along with his friends 

you slowly approached him ...... your fist was clutched your dress tightly...

with every step you moved towards him ...... his voice and his carefree laugh were more and more audible

"N-Namjoon?" you called for him and tapped your fingers on his shoulder for attention but because of the background music ......  he didn't hear you 

you suddenly thought to drop the idea and run back ....

'it's now or never Y/N '

with mental motivation....

you called him ...... loudly 

"Namjoon...." he turned his head and his eyes met with you ....

his eyes wander along your body .... making you more nervous ....

"Can I talk to you ...... alone?" he raised his eyebrows .... then sighed 

he turned around to face his friends 

"Guys I'm coming in a minute ...." he excused himself 

you grabbed his wrist and took him outside ....

"Y/n ... where are you taking me?" 

"Y/n where--" he paused when you suddenly halted outside the prom hall 

you palmed your face and sighed heavily ....

"It should be important Y/n..." he frowned ... and rank his last sip of his wine

you closed your eyes and composed yourself 

"N-Namjoon I never thought we would be this way but ........ I couldn't help it ...." a sudden boat of confidence rushed inside you 

"I Can't keep this with myself anymore .... Kim Namjoon .... I Admire you .... I-I like you ..." you felt like a huge rock lifted off your chest ... 

you hesitantly looked over Namjoon and saw ........... rage?

the glass that was in his hand .... suddenly slammed on the ground ...... the pieces spread all around your feet....

you flinched and backed off ....

his jaw was clenched .... he crushed those pieces with his foot and grabbed your wrist tightly ....

panic rose in your lungs when he started dragging you to the prom hall again ......

His long legs gave him the advantage of walking fast .... whereas you were struggling ...to even walk ...

He yanked your wrist harshly when he arrived at the music station of the prom party ....

he climbed the small stage where the music system was placed ...... and tore the music system of prom party ...

the sudden halt in music ...... resulted in some loud groans and shouting from the students ...

your feet were glued on the ground with nervousness

Namjoon Tapped the Mic two times before speaking 

"May I have the attention my friends......" 

The shouting .... lowered down when they heard him

"I Hope everyone is enjoying the night ...." Namjoon eyes held a dangerous glint ...

"But... my night got ruined already ...." shock rushed in your veins ........ tears started boiling in your eyes ......

"You see .... Today I got proposed...... and it was from none other than this girl.... " He pointed figure in your direction ....

disgust and venom laced in his speech...

"Yeah .... this girl, one wearing glasses ...... one of the university's elite students ...... a pathetic Nerd..." 

loud sob threatened to escape your throat ... 

"If you thought I will accept you ....... then wake up little bug.... My standards aren't that low that I'll date a nerd like you"

your utopian world crashed down ...... like a bird with wounded wings 

Whispers were emerging in the hall

he climbed down the stage and came Infront of your teared red face 

"You're no match to me MIN Y/N you were a pathetic nerd and will always be "

his friends hooted from behind .... and cheered ...

you sniffed silently and looked down 

humiliation washed over you ...... when you felt hundreds of stares across the hall ....

"I laughed with you a little...... and you got impressed?! .... what did you think huh?!-- " he was shouting on you when suddenly 

Namjoon was pushed back from his chest and his cheeks met with a stinging pain 

He stumbled backwards and held his cheeks which were slapped ....

your vision was blurry ....... you were hyperventilating

the echoes of Laughters and whispers were making you suffocated 

"SHUT THE FUCK UP!" Jackson's enraged voice .... sent shiverers around the hall

"I Never knew ....... you were this pathetic Namjoon ...." Jackson grabbed Namjoon's collars and looked straight in his eyes ...

"What?...... are you jealous Jacksy?" Namjoon chuckled and released himself 

"Do YOU like her Jackson wang?" Jackson's face was red with anger 

he punched Namjoon

"I TOLD YOU TO SHUT THE FUCK UP!" he was about to punch him again 

when Namjoon stood up and returned him his punch 

"You can have her Jacksy .... after all I rejected Her......" 

your knees gave up with his venomous words 

you didn't know Namjoon had this poison filled inside him

a realization came back to you ...... this was all fake 

Namjoon's laughter, his smile, his kindness .... was just his outer facade 

a facade to take advantage of your intelligence 

you looked at the scene unfolding Infront of you 

Jackson and Namjoon were punching each other without any mercy 

you stood up with dead eyes .... approached them 

"Jax..." you whispered and they stopped fighting 

"let's go ...." you extended your hand for him to grab .... Jackson eyes were full of fury and sadness 

Jackson pushed Namjoon off his chest and Namjoon fell on his back

he hesitantly grabbed your hand and stood up 

you walked over Namjoon and extended your hand for him too....

Namjoon was in pure shock 

you helped him stand up and left his hand immediately 

you looked in his confused and shocked orbs with your teary eyes and whispered

"Thank You..."

and with that you left .... the hall with Jackson ....

That night of 2016 ....it was the last day ....... Namjoon saw you ........

Until Namjoon and you met again ......

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TBC

hmm .... Namjoon's a jerk ...... right? 

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