It's funny.

Yeah, it's funny how simple things can calm me down. In my case right now it's the ceramic of the mug I'm holding, warming up my cold fingers. It's also the envoutant smells of the coffee that's inside of the mug... Smells like something have been burned, but without that suffocating pungent smell, and somehow it still fruity. That's how I want my life to be, seems destroyed but somehow still perfect.
Obviously it's not and it would never be.

I sigh, looking at my drink. I'm not that type of monsters that take the coffee black and strong.

Call me weak if you want, I, sadly, know it's not true...

"Here, I got the milk... Do you want me to pour it on your coffee ?"
"Heh... Nah thanks Pap's, I'll do it"

Taking the carton of milk of his hands, I pour it myself in the mug.

"Fine but I will add the sugar !"
"As you want..."

I'm letting him put a spoonful in the coffee while I stir it.

The tall skeleton seat next to me, passing his hand on my shoulder.

"So... You still haven't told me what woke you up so early"
"Oh... huh well... Obviously a bad dream heh..."
"Well I guess but what happened for you to get that scared ? You are someone strong... Is there something you need us to fight against ?"

This brave Papyrus... Always seeing the best in me, when even I only see darkness.

"No dear... It's... Not exactly something you can or want to fight..."
"What is it then ?"

I sigh... Caveat isn't awake yet... I would have preferred to talk about this with Sans... But I guess Papyrus I strong enough to take all the horror that surround myself. At least, I hope.

"You... Well you remember what I told you about my past... That I kinda drew a blank on that part of my life because it was shity...?"
"I do remember that, but watch your language please X."
"Yeah whatever... I... I think i dreamed ab-... about my past..."
"Oh... And what happened in this dream ?"
"...A nightmare."

I sum up to him the terror of the war, the terrible conditions of monsterkind and all that crap.

And also the fact that I think it's my past for three reasons.
First, I lived this bad dream at the first plan, it was my eyes, everything was happening to me.
Second, it was way to real to be just my imagination. It felt so real, I can almost still feel the pain behind my head.
And last, all the faces and names are fuzzy, I can't help it, i just don't remember. It's due, I think, to all the effort I put into forgetting peoples that were related to me.

Once I've finish explaining my bad dream I wait for Papyrus' reactions.

"I... Well that's surely a lot..."
"I can only agree to that..."
"Were you always on skeleton ?"
"Wh-what's that ?"
"Just noticing... That fussy name you were sorry to, 7øß$1ęr or something like that... It make me think of a name, Lobster... I mean, since it's common for a skeleton to have a font for name, like for Caveat, Sans or me."
"Oh, yeah. I see your point... But... Well I just  can't tell, too blurry"

I hear something, footsteps. Discreet, as if it does not want to be noticed. But the little tired whines can't fool me, I turn around to see Caveat, the younger sister of Sans and Papyrus.

"Oh, sweetie... We woke you up ?"
"Why are you already awake ? Uncle Sans isn't up yet..."

I smile. I love how she just built her own family on our relationships. For her, the skelebros are her uncles, can't blame her tho, she's way younger than them. Young enough to pretend that Sans and Papyrus are her uncles.

"Caveat, you know that Sans always wake up super duper late unlike you and us" answered Pap's while picking her up.

The little one only yawn in response and then nuzzle into Papyrus scarf.

"Do you want me to make you hot chocolate ?" he asked.

She nodded. Pap's then give her to me while going to the kitchen.

"Have you slept well my little dragon ?"
"Yeah..."

I smiled. We then shared our breakfast together... I got to admit... With them, my life became somehow perfect.