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From My Hired Girlfriend

Written by: CrestfallenMoon

CHACE RODRIGUEZ

"Am I enough?"

Those words poured from my lips before I even know it.

Nakita ko ang pagkunot ng noo ni Hayca sa tanong ko. Seems like she did not get what I am saying. I couldn't blame her though; I probably look like an idiot blurting out words like that.

Looking at how wide her eyes are waiting for me to answer, I starred at her face.

If only had I known that I would fall like this, I would've done things a little bit different. I would have looked for you earlier. I would have told you about how I feel sooner. You would have been happier with me.

If only I could...I would have never let you met him. That way, it would only be me.

But I guess things don't work that way. We could never look far into the future to know what's ahead of us. The best thing that we can do is live in the present, and wish that the future will be fair enough for us.

"Am I enough to replace him?" I spoke quietly.

She blinked but did not spoke. Alam kong hindi na rin naman siya masyadong nagulat sa sinabi ko. She knew about my feelings even before we got here, and she knew that my feelings never changed.

But I wish her feelings changed...even just one bit.

The song we were listening to a while ago is still playing faintly on our background. I held her hands gently.

"Am I enough to catch you?"

"Chace..." her voiced echoed through my brain. Parang gustong bumigay ng tuhod ko when I heard the way she said my name. It was so gentle and sweet...it almost made me want to put her in my pocket so I could take her home.

This wasn't the first time I confessed my feelings to her. Though the first time did not work, I still want to take a shot with her.

At this.

At us.

Chances are, she may reject me again. But I'd still take my chances, because I would never forgive myself if I did not try again. If I let this moment behind us, I would regret it. And I'd rather have rejections than regrets.

"Am I enough for you?"

Because it's Hayca.

Because with her, every chance are worth it.

Because of her, I am willing to risk it.

Because of Hayca, I am willing to lay my cards on the table...until I've got no cards to lay.

My head is spinning and my heart is pounding. Hinanda ko na ang sarili ko para dito, for whatever she might say but I just can't shake the feeling of getting nervous.

Because it's Hayca.

Hindi pa rin siya kumibo. Hindi pa rin siya kumilos. She was just staring at me with wide unblinking eyes. I can't quite read her reaction but her eyes say something that made me a little hopeful.

"Baby, please answer me. I'm getting so damn nervous," I pleaded.

Slowly, her smile peeked from the scarf that was covering half her lower chin. "You look cute when you're nervous."

I broke out in a nervous laughter. Hindi pa man din ako nakakabawi mula sa pagngiti niya when she did the next thing that brought me weak on my knees.

Hayca tiptoed so we were face to face, then gently cupped my cheeks.

I did not move. I gave her the choice to back away in case she changes her mind. But she never budged...and neither did I.

My senses went numb. Suddenly, the weather felt warmer. All I hear is the loud thumping of my chest and her slow breathing. All I could picture was her soft lips on mine. All I could feel was her.

She pulled away after a moment and her soft chuckles were like music to my ears.

"I love you," I whispered.

She was about to open her mouth when a drop of snow touched her left cheek. Napatigil si Hayca at hinawakan ito. I saw how she gleamed with joy upon realizing what touched her cheek.

It was snowing and it was supposed to be cold. But all I felt was warmth, and it was because of her.