Bertolt is very beautiful.

Enough of this though

I want him to be ugly.

I want him to scream

And tell me that I'm a monster

I want pain

But the only thing he gives his tender kisses

And loving glances.

'Please don't look at me like that,'

I mutter into his shoulder.

He gives a confused sound.

'I'm not human. I'm not nice. I'm a killer. I'm a bad person-'

'Reiner,'

I look up.

'Don't forget that I was there. I am also a bad person.'

I am silent

Still.

And then he cups my cheeks

And kisses me

Really kisses me

With force and tenderness

And everything that I didn't and did know I wanted.

I love his ugly side and his beautiful side.

- Reiner