I'm afraid of everyone.

They pose a threat

They pose a threat to me and Reiner

And when they stare at me for being

So

So

T a l l

I shiver and blush and look down and hunch over

And tell Reiner to

"Hurry up, they're staring."

And he looks around

Smiles

And then we leave.

It's so hard not to hurt myself

It's so so so hard

Not to cry into Reiner's shoulder

Because I'm such a bad person.

I feel this in my legs

Like I want to run around camp until

I die

[i tried once, actually.

I ran right when curfew blew,

And the instructor allowed it because I was one of the best in class

And I ran and ran and ran and ran

And I had labored breath

And my heart was erratic and I couldn't stop.

Reiner had woken and yelled at me to stop

But my hazy eyes and dulled hearing

Told him that I couldn't

And I was on the verge of death.

I could feel it

I was slipping away.

Away from my guilt and from the people.

I hadn't realized that Reiner

Had pulled me over his shoulder until I was

Fully upside down

And my arms hung limp above me.

I rest the entire day to tired to even sleep.]

And I want to kill myself

Everything is so sour looking and

Smelling and

Sounding.

Reiner is the only sweet thing in my would.

- Bertolt