I was now sitting on a couch in the living room with guards around me and Ash on the couch across from me. "You have to say something," Ash spoke as he passed me a drink. I shrugged, "What do you want me to say?" I asked as I drank the whiskey.

"Why don't you want to call Lucifer?" he asked with his eyebrow raised.

"We kind of had a disagreement about something and on top of that, he doesn't know I planned all of this. Sure he'll find out eventually but for the meantime, no thanks. Now that I have answered your question, it's my turn. Why haven't you killed me yet?" I asked.

Ash chuckled as if he found it amusing, "Well I just wanted to get to know you more a bit. I was just lying about Lucifer being able to come here. I've never even spoken to him before but I can assure you, I hate him. I don't even know if he could come here. Anyways, you have a choice since you're eternally stuck here. You can either be my wife or be stuck in the torture chamber," he informed me.

My mouth dropped in shock, "That's not cool! You lied to me!! I thought we had something special," I pouted which only caused him to smirked. "We do have something special," he winked.

From the corner of my eyes, I saw Qwin was only a few inches behind me. Within a swift move, I jumped behind the couch and tackled him to the ground before disarming him and firing the gun at Ash. I watched as Ash quickly caught the bullet in mid-air casually before sending a glare at me.

"I'll take torture chamber for 500 please," I smiled as I slammed the gun against Qwin's chest before he took it from me. Ash nodded to Qwin and I have then shoved out the room.

We walked down the stairs and into the room I came out of. "Why is everything so black and cold?" I asked as Qwin shoved me into the room before walking in himself and shutting the door behind him.

"Did you expect rainbows and glitter everywhere in a prison realm?" he sarcastically asked. I shook my head, "No but some posters would have been cool. Anyways, how are you planning to torture me?"

A smirk rose to his face, "Don't worry about it." I just shrugged as he walked up to me and tapped the center of my forehead.

Within a blink, I found myself in a memory. It was the memory of my parents' death. I was sitting in the back of the church and next to me was Qwin. I turned to look to see him with amusement across his face. "We're going to relive your darkest memory over and over again until you break," he replied.

I tried to get up but I couldn't. I tried to talk but I couldn't. I watched as the men came in and started shooting up the church then my parents. I felt a gush of sadness and pain run over me. I watched as my mother pushed me to hide under a bench before she was killed.

Everything then froze and reversed from the start. I was now standing in a different angle and much closer to my parents. I felt as if I reliving the pain I had felt when I little. The pain I was so desperate to cover. Qwin then tapped the center of my head again and this time I was in the warehouse where Sean had held a gun to Gabe's back. I watched in slow motion as Sean shot him. A gush of fear and sadness took over me. It was the same way I felt when this happened.

"As we hop into each memory, you will feel the same way you felt at that moment. You will vividly relive the moment and feel the pain," Qwin smirked before tapping my forehead again.

The memory was with Lucifer and I in the ballroom. This was our first ball together and also the moment where he broke the necklace my parents gave me. I felt anger take over me but then quickly shifted to sadness. We then jumped into another memory to which I was entering Mel's room to see her fucking Lucifer. Another memory then showed me walking into Lucifer's room to where he was fucking some other chick. It then jumped to another memory where Lucifer had just got up and left me without saying goodbye.

"Seems like this guy fucked you over a lot," Qwin laughed before tapping into another memory. I was now reliving the moment I had gotten kidnapped and drugged by Valentin's son. Reliving the moment I was drugged then him forcing himself upon me. I was then in a memory of my parents' death again.

I felt so overwhelmed. I couldn't scream or beg him to stop. This isn't what I want to feel. This isn't what I had expected or wanted. I wasn't immune to feelings anymore. I tried to look away but Qwin would just turn my face back forcing me to look. I don't want to feel this inhumane pain. It then hit me. I didn't have to feel. I could turn my humanity off but if I do that, it can be hard to turn it back on.

"Look at it!" Qwin shouted as he slapped me across the face forcing me to look at my parents' death.

Tears were now rolling down my face as I was feeling scared as I was when I was small. My parent being shot over and over in front of me.

Trying to block out the emotions, I focused and reached to the depths of my soul searching for the humanity switch. With everything in me, I flipped it and felt a huge load lifted off me. Tears were no longer streaming down my face and I no longer felt scared or sad.

"What did you do?" Qwin growled at me. I shrugged, "I flipped the switch now can we do something else? I'm a bit bored and starting to get hungry," I admitted.

Qwin ignored my replied and went on for the next hour trying to make me feel my memories. He then gave up and went to physical pain. He punches me a couple times, broke my nose which I fixed back, injured both of my legs and might have broken a rib or a two. I felt pain but it doesn't bother me as it should. Having enough, Qwin dragged me out the room, up the stairs, and into the throne room.

Looking up from the ground, I saw Ash was no longer sitting in his throne. I heard footsteps coming from behind me before making its way in front me to the throne. It was Ash and he looked to be a bit pissed off. "What happened?" he asked Qwin.

"We were reliving her memories and after a while, she managed to flip off her humanity. I then inflicted physical pain on her but she doesn't seem to care," he hissed.

Ash then looked over to someone besides Qwin before swallowing the forming lump in his throat. "Sorry, I didn't know -"

"You're lucky I don't kill you and asswipe over here," a familiar voice came behind me.

"Shit!" I muttered as I knew who it was. He walked out from behind me and kneeled down to my level. I watched as he was pissed off at me.

"How did you find me?" I asked. "Sean told me. Now turn your humanity back on," he spoke in a stern tone. I shook my head, "No thanks," I replied.

"Who's this fucker?" I saw him in her memories but -"

"Her husband now shut the fuck up before I snap your neck," Lucifer hissed as he had his hand clutched around Qwin's neck. Qwin's eyes widened as he realized who he was.

Lucifer then cupped my face, "Please turn your humanity back on."

"But I'm starting to like it off again. I remember how much fun I had with it," I pouted.

He nodded, "Sweetheart, I understand but you can have fun with your humanity on too and besides you don't want to have that type of fun again. You ended up killing a lot of people and not to mention, you hurt a lot of people as well," he reminded me.

"Fine," I sighed. Focusing, I flipped my humanity back on and felt the pain run through my body. "Oh you mother fucker, I should kill you," I shouted as I looked up at Qwin.

Lucifer then chuckled, "There's my Princessa. Let's go home," he kissed my cheek before picking me up bridal style. "You've got a lot of questions to answer," I informed him to which he nodded, "So do you," he smiled.

"Oh and fuck you Ash! We could have been best friends! And Qwin, get yourself some pussy and stop being such a bitch," I shouted as I stuck my middle finger at both of them to which the other guards chuckled. Lucifer shook his head and within a blink, we were in my bathroom.

Lucifer sat me on the counter and started to undress me. "I'm going to give you a bath. You'll take some time to get better since the realm took a toll on you. You'll need to rest a lot and take it slow," he spoke as he turned the water on and placed me inside the tub.

"I'm not tired," I replied.

"You will be. You've been gone for 2 days. After I bathe you, we'll go downstairs to feed you then get you to bed," he replied as he soaked my whole body and scrubbed me.

"Are you mad I save Sean?" I asked.

He stopped scrubbing me and looked directly at me. "No, but I am mad you did this without me. Supposing I wasn't able to get you out and you were stuck there forever?" I questioned.

"But I'm not. Everything turned out fine," I replied.

He let out a laugh, "Fine? You can't walk, you're all bruised up and your ribs look broken," he gestured. "I'm still here with you though," I commented to which he rolled his eyes and smiled before continuing to scrub me