I know it sounds weird, a little too hard
I know it is easy, yet the darkest of them all

I cry thinking, and looking back at them
The footprints falling behind like lost as a shadow

A total failure, to all the winners
And a complete disaster to all the trainers

It starts slowly but ends swiftly
I know I'm stupid but I know life

Its a little complicated, full of stuff
Yet the confusion is its key that leads to the end

I'm more than alive, but dead at the same time
I'm more than sad, yet annoyingly happy

Nothing makes sense, because i'm aware its senseless
Yet this senseless situation is the only thing I seem to grasp

Can you feel the pain, a pain without a reason?
Do you know the answer to many senseless questions?

Can you imagine the darkness and the void emotions?
Do you understand the reality of every day and night?

It is blinding, painful and bittersweet
It is peaceful, sacred and something I can't quite understand

I have never met death, but I know what it's like
I've yet to experience the darkness but I know it all

Maybe I'm wrong, maybe I'm too scared
Maybe its all an illusion, a veil to all the truths

I wish i'd know the reality of my situation
But I don't want to think, the regret after I find out

Lets wait till I die, to know what it's like
Let's face death, to see If I die.....