When will I be able
To not think in terms of
Before and after
Not to mention
All the time in between

Almost every conversation
Consists of
Before the illness
And
After the illness

I'm tired of thinking that way
Somehow the two
Must have a
Reconciliation

But how?
Inevitably 2 years
Of my life
I can't ever get back
Just do the best I can
Because of what happened

I will never be
100% cured
Brain affected
Every organ
Blood
Functionality

The only way
To understand
Is to know
Myalgic Encephalomyelitis
Didn't make me
A bad person

One cannot predict
When one will become ill
But with my second chance at life
I must come to peace

With the before
The during
And live properly
Through the blessed after