I am not on top
I am scattered
Nothing is fitting
It isn't a whole
But many jagged little
Pieces

Flung around the room
Trying to understand one
Sets off a cascade
Of others
Breaking free

Falling down
Apart
Away
Far away
Not understanding
How to stop

Pieces
Of health
School
Too much confusion
Ping-ponging
Irregularly

Depression
Then
Anxiety
Then back again
Together
Separate

Very sleepy
Mornings becoming
Afternoons again
Synthroid confusion

Is it supposed to help
Right away
Or
Build up in the body
Different doctors
Different answers

But I only need the right one
What should I do
To collect
The pieces
Put them together
To reform
The proper puzzle

School
Classroom not working
Lowest grade in over a decade
Made me even more depressed

Trying to resubmit
Slow professor
Can't manage to help
Why the procrastinating?

If you are aware something
Doesn't work
Fix immediately
Ask for help
Don't wait till class is over

Is it just me or
When it rains
It pours

It's pouring
Incomprehensible confusing
Uncomfortably wrong-sided
Pieces

And I'm just along for the ride
Waiting for the sun