(Told from Izuku's pov)

I looked around at everyone's faces. Everyone seemed so happy at the party. Not me. My best friend stood by me laughing at something. I wasn't paying attention. I was too busy thinking. Remembering.

I couldn't keep my childhood off my mind. Everything was coming to me like my life was flashing before my eyes.

Memories of me and Kacchan when we were the bestest of friends seemed to stick around the most

I couldn't tell why

I wrapped my arms around my stomach trying to conceal myself. It didn't help much. I sighed and looked around again. I couldn't help but watch as my classmates were having the best time of their lives. Everyone seemed so happy. As if they didn't have a care in the world. Lucky.

I didn't realize it but when I zoned back I was walking to the doors with my name being called from behind me.

"Izuku!" Uraraka yelled

I ignored her and let my legs keep walking.

"Izuku!" She yelled again

I once again ignored her

That's when the music stopped and so did the cheering. I felt a million stares pierce through me like needles.

Whispered emerged

"Midoriya where are you going?" Iida called with no response

I pushed open the doors and the cold air immediately whipped at my face. My mind was clouded. I couldn't think myself. It was as if my brain was taking over.

What's the point of being here?
It's not like you should be at this school
You cheated to get here
Besides, why do you even try to have friends?
It's not like they actually like you
They're your friends out of pity

I didn't realize it but tears were streaming down my face leaving trails of saltiness. My hands were going numb from the bitter bites of the frosty air. Did I care? Not one bit.

I didn't know where I was going. It was as if my mind was off but my body wasn't. My legs kept walking despite them hurting so badly. I had left campus and had no idea how to get back. Great. I'm going to get in trouble for leaving campus at this hour.

I sighed and stopped walking. I was able to clear my mind just enough to where I could take control. I saw a branch and decided to sit down. The pressure on my legs had been released. I let out a heavy sigh.

What am I doing? Why did I leave the party? Why did I leave campus? Did my subconscious mind have a plan?

The orange street lamp above my head flickered. The night was still. Not a single car passed the big road. I didn't know where I was. Near some corner store thingy. It was the only building around. It was small and not a single light was in beside the light from the mini-fridge inside. The road curved and down a little bit was a lake.

My feet felt like they'd just walked across nails. My whole body was achingly numb. I didn't want to move. My head hung off the back of the small green bench. My breath turning into fog.

The night was still. Everything was quiet except for the occasional chirp from a cricket.

I bet the party has resumed by now. No one probably cares I left.

I tried to shake the thoughts from my head but it was impossible. They kept coming in like a steady stream. Thought after though. It felt like a punishment. I felt trapped in my own bubble of a mind. Trapped in the bubble of the teenage mind. This was torture. Why did it have to be like this?! Why did this have to happen to me?! WHY ME?!

I let out a loud scream. A cry for help? A cry of despair?

It pierced my ears and echoed along the lake. I felt alone. So alone. Like no one could save me. No one.

In that moment I felt more alone that I ever had before. Never in my life had I felt this pain. My chest was heavy, eyes blurry, I gasped for air as I let out another uncontrollable scream.

My hands flew to my hair stressfully pulling it. It was the only way I could stop myself from doing anything else. My body was trembling with so much force it hurt. I was trapped. Clouded.

I slid down the bench feeling a headache approach. My sobs were not so eloquent nor quiet. I was sure my eyes had been beat red and puffy as if I had just been punched.

That's when I heard it.

Footsteps.

I couldn't control my actions so when I heard the footsteps I didn't stop crying.

"Deku!?" A deep voice yelled

The light footsteps turned into a run. A blurry body came into my vision.

"Oh my god I can't believe I found you," the same deep voice said

I tried to make out the figure in front of me but I could only make out the blonde spiked hair.

"K-Kacchan?" I managed to mumble out

"Get up you nerd," he bellowed "we have to get back to campus before we get in trouble

"I-I can't move" I barley made out

"You know we had everyone in our class out looking for you? Literally everyone. In fact I think that friend of yours even contacted the teachers already. Maybe even the police."

I tried to sit up but all that got my was a head rush

"You know you had everyone worried sick when you Dan off like that" he scoffed "we literally ended the party to run after you but by time we managed to comprehend you were already so far away"

"C-can we Uh. Can we not t-talk about that anymore?" I asked

"Huh?" He shot me a confused glance

"Can we change the subject and talk about anything else? Please." I begged

"Whatever loser," he rolled his eyes starting to walk away

"Why did you even come for me?" I said without realizing it

And when I did... I regretted it

I slapped my hand over my mouth to prevent me from speaking more

"Excuse me?" His brows furrowed

"Whpy div vou cvm aphter me?" I mumbled through my hands

"Speak up Ya Damn nerd!" He yelled

"Why did you come after me!" I yelled back Starting to cry again

"Why wouldn't we?!" He yelled back

"It's not like you cared about me before so why now?! Because I left campus and can get us in trouble?!"

"No!"

"Just leave!" I yelped "I'm better rotting away here anyways!"

"What the hell are you talking about Deku?!"

"I said I'm better of dying here then!" My strained voice managed to choke out

"Why the hell would you say that?!" He screamed at me almost seeming hurt

No.
Kacchan doesn't care about me

"Why do you care?!" I screamed at the top of my lungs at him

"Why wouldn't I care deku?! You're my friend!"

"If you were my friend maybe you would've checked on me when I needed someone!"

He went silent. So did everything else. The crickets stopped chirping and the leaves stopped

"What are you talking about?" He asked without yelling

"Oh i dunno. Maybe I'm talking about the entire span of last year. When I felt scared and alone. When I hated myself more than any villain out there. Or maybe it was when I cried myself to sleep every night because I felt like no one loved me!" I closed my eyes screaming

My tears flowing down as heavy as ever. I couldn't believe I was confessing everything to Kacchan right now.

"I-Izuku what are you talking about?"

He called me by my first name for once....

"Can you not see Katsuki?!" I accidentally used his real name instead, he seemed hurt by it. "I hate myself! I'm so alone" I whimpered while falling to the ground and on my knees

"You're not alone though,"

"Yes I am! Kacchan! I'm broken beyond repair,"

"Izu-"

"KACCHAN YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND OKAY! I WISH I COULD LOOK IN THE MIRROR WITHOUT FROWNING. I HATE MYSELF MORE THEN ANYONE ON THUS PLANET. I HATE THE WAY I LOOK. THE WAY I AM. IM INSECURE KACCHAN. SOMETHING YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT BECAUSE YOU'RE PERFECT. I WISH I WAS STRONG. I WISH I WAS NORMAL. IM SO FAR BROKEN INTO THIS METAPHORICAL HOLE THAT NOT EVEN THE WORLDS LONGEST ROPE COULD SAVE ME! I WISH I WAS NUMB. NO EMOTIONS. NOTHING!"

That's when I felt it. Two arms wrap around me. I opened my eyes and through my tears I could clearly see Bakugo engulfing me in a hug.

A sniffle came from someone... but not me...

"Izuku I'm so sorry," he cried "I should've paid more attention to you. Maybe you wouldn't of had to go through all of this alone. If only I wasn't so blind,"

His grip around me tightened. I was frozen. I didn't know what to do. The all mighty angered Katsuki Bakugo was hugging me while crying. I lowered my head slowly and onto his shoulder as I kept crying. I never stopped in the first place. I can't believe I had this many tears.

"Please Midoriya. Come back to campus. Everyone is worried sick about you," he pouted

"Alright, I'll go back," I replied

"Y-you will?" He asked

"Yes, but you better stop crying Kacchan," I laughed through my sobs "or else everyone will think you're a big wimp,"

"Oh shut up ya damn nerd," he laughed back wiping the tears off his face

***

When Kacchan and I got to the front gate we noticed quite a few police cars parked.

Great.

We walked through the door and to the the lounge where a abundance of people were.

"I found him!" Kacchan yelled

Everyone turned their heads and ran up to us. They either tackled me in a hug or we're trying to talk to me. It didn't really work out.

That's when someone called everyone off me. Everyone obeyed and backed up.

Uraraka was the first to approach me. She walked up to me, looked me dead in the eye, and slapped me across the face with so much force.

Everyone gasped at her sudden action

"I deserved that" I laughed nervously holding my stinging cheek

"Don't you ever do that to me again you hear me?!" She yelled with her eyes closed and hands clenched in a ball

Knowing what she would've wanted I pulled her into a hug

"I'm sorry. I promise I won't," I whispered

"Good" she replied "you had me worried sick when you didn't reply to me at all."

"I know. I know,"

She pulled away and and I looked at everyone else.

"Midorya, I hope you realize you caused everyone a great panic," All Might said walking up to me

"I know. And I apologize sir," I said bowing

"You should call your mom Midoriya.  We just got off the phone with her around five minutes ago," an officer said

"I will,"

I looked at the class. Everyone seemed so worried and concerned.

"I'll take him up to his room," Kacchan said to everyone "come on ya nerd,"

He started walking for the elevator to take me up to my dorm. I started to follow but stopped, turned around, and gave everyone a reassuring smile with a wave before running after Kacchan.