The sea, it's deep inside. There's a lot of things you didn't know existing. At first, you can see it as beautiful since all you can see is the blue water.

You can say it's safe when you can still see the rocks, those little fish, and even the seaweeds lying in the seashore.

Human mind is also like that. Our mind is also like that. We have a lot of secrets deep inside that some will be afraid to discover and few who will willingly dive deeper.

I was silently looking at him cooking in my kitchen. My mind is still wandering somewhere-- or should I say thinking about my dream again? I can't clearly remember it but I'm trying my best.

My head is throbbing in pain because of pushing myself to remember it. It's like an ocean that if I go deeper, I will just kill myself because of drowning.

"Don't push yourself," Hayden suddenly spoke while putting down the cooked rice in the table.

Tumingin ako sa kanya pagkatapos ay bumuntong hininga ng malalim. I just can't help it. Hindi ko na nga alam kung alin ba ang totoo sa mga naaalala ko.

"Instead of thinking about it, why don't you try to unwind even just for a day?" He then said softly while looking at me.

"I actually have plans today. I'm going to buy some things here in my house, especially here in my kitchen," he smiled after finding out my plan today.

It's Saturday and tomorrow, I'm going to the company. Maybe I should make myself busy.

We silently eat and I'm thankful for it. My mind is still lost and I can't think properly. Parang gusto ko nalang manatili dito sa bahay pero kakainin lamang ako ng mga iniisip ko kapag ginawa ko iyon.

"Can you accompany me?" I suddenly blurted out. Tapos na kaming kumain at ako na ang nagprisintang maghugas dahil siya naman ang nagluto ng kinain namin. Halata sa mukha nito ang gulat pero pagkaraan ay tumango din pagtapos tipid na ngumiti.

Nasa tabi ko kasi siya na hindi ko alam kung bakit.

"Sure. Anong oras ba tayo aalis?"

"Maybe ten?"

It's just eight in the morning. Since it's Saturday, I need to do some laundry. Mabilis lang naman siguro dahil mga damit ko lang ang ilalaba ko.

He was about to answer me when his phone rang. He immediately answered it and excused himself.

I actually don't know what I am feeling right now. I want to be alone, like as always, but there is also a small part of me that I need someone's company.

Muli akong napabuntunghininga habang nagpupunas ng kamay. What should I do?

"I'm sorry," I startled when he spoke beside me.

"I need to go home now. May kailangan lang akong asikasuhin pero sasamahan pa rin kita mamaya. I'll be here at ten," tanging tango na lang ang nagawa ko bago siya umalis.

Now I am feeling guilty. I shouldn't asked him to accompany me later. He needs to do something but I just-- oh no, I feel bad.

I unconsciously scratches my neck again while thinking what should I do.

"Argh, this is my fault. Kung ano-ano pa kasi ang sinasabi mo Aingeal!" Pagalit kong sabi sa sarili ko.

"Bahala na." The last thing I've said before I started what I planned to do today.

I began to wash the clothes one by one. Medyo marami ang nilabhan ko ngayon kaya natagalan ako. Siguro ay mahigit isang oras na ako dito sa likod bahay dahil dito ako nagbabanlaw.

Ilang minuto pa ay natapos na rin ako sa wakas. I immediately look at the clock hanging on the wall to see that its already nine twenty seven. Oh no, I need to get ready already. Mabuti nalang at tapos na ako sa mga labahin.

Nagmadali akong umakyat sa kwarto ko at nagtungo sa banyo pagkatapos kong madampot ang tuwalya ko na nakasabit sa likod ng pinto ng kwarto ko.

Sa tingin ko nga'y sampung minuto lamang ang nilagi ko sa banyo dahil sa pagmamadali. Kung ano ang unang nadampot ko na damit ay iyon na lamang ang isinuot ko. Ayos naman.

It's a sage green colored top paired with a warm greige colored wide leg pants. I choose to wear my white snickers and lastly, my sling bag. I put some perfume to my neck and wrist. Sa huling pagkakataon ay tinignan ko ang repleksyon ko sa salamin. I blower my hair and didn't put anything on it.

Tinignan ko ang oras at sakto na bago mag alas diez kaya bumaba na ako. I don't like it when I make people wait for me.

I finally used my car. Napag-usapan kasi namin ni Hayden na convoy nalang kami. Baka kasi maparami ako ng bibilhin ay nakakahiya naman kung ilalagay lahat iyon sa sasakyan niya kaya naisipan ko nalang na dalhin ang sarili kong sasakyan.

"Let's stop here first," sabi ko pagkababa namin sa kanya-kanya naming sasakyan. We stopped here at Namgi Shop. It's a shop where you can find anything related to your kitchen.

Kumuha ako ng cart and I personally like it. It's cute and I love their new theme, it's purple.

I pushed the cart and Hayden is just beside me, looking around the shop too.

"I didn't know this shop exist." He said while roaming his eyes around. He even got his own cart which I choose to shrug off. Maybe he wants to buy some too.

"Hindi naman kasi gaanong kilala ang shop na 'to. Honestly, I just found this by accident." I smiled at him before we continued. Tumigil ako sa tapat ng mga baso na may iba't-ibang disenyo at hulma.

Napansin ko ang isang baso na ang disenyo ay paw ng pusa. I immediately grab five of it and put it on my cart. Napansin ko rin ang isang mug na kulay green kaya kumuha ako ng tatlo niyon.

Marami pa akong kinuha tulad ng mga pinggan at gamit sa pagbi-bake. Tulad ko ay may nabili rin si Hayden pero mas marami nga lang sa akin.

"Where should we go next?" He asks as we are paying the things we bought.

"Let's eat in the restaurant near here?" Patanong na sagot ko. Hindi kasi ako sigurado pero malapit na rin naman na kasi ang alas-dose ng tanghali.

He nodded his head so we headed to the restaurant to eat.

I can say that this day made me forget my worries about my life for a second. Hayden is a great company. We spent the rest of our time in the bay, doing beach volleyball and even petting those little crabs.

I can say that Hayden helps me so much today. He may not know it but he really did. I silently thanked him when he helped me put my groceries and the things i've bought a while ago inside my house.

"Are you sure you will not be home at seven?" I asked him when I sent him outside.

"Yes. My friend called me and said that he has something important to tell me in person."

"Oh, okay. Ingat ka nalang sa biyahe, pagabi na rin kasi. And uh..." I scratches my neck hesitating if I should tell him about it or not.

"What is it?" He asks as I can see how his lips stretch to form a smile.

"Thank you."

Nahihiyang tumakbo ako pabalik sa loob ng bahay.