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WARNING:

The following scenario may be sensitive and might trigger other readers. This is solely for the explanation of the characters. I don't encourage or glorify any of the said events! If you still wish to continue, read it at your own risk. Don't say I didn't warn you!

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Sweats were in her forehead as her head moved to and fro, her hands were stroking his balls while he held her hair from her face.

She was still in her clothes and so was he. But with the sweat that was leaving her body, she was sure after this she would be in her normal self again, and it was all his fault.

Once his dick throbbed and tensed, he spilled his cum all over her mouth while leaving a few grunts.

After licking him clean, Y/N stood up and went to his bathroom to fix herself and spit his cum. She exhaled as she finished, "Fuck this shit! Now I'm sober! You should have told me-, "

But her rants were cut short once she saw him holding a foil and gesturing her to sit beside him.

"What is this?" She asked as he lit it up.

"This? Your refund." He spoke as he grinned at her.

"Ohhh... That's great." She answered as she took the pipe from his hands while he served her.

After their session, and once he was sure she was satisfied, their little pep talk started.

"So... What is it this time?" Ramon asked he knew Ice only comes when something is troubling her.

She deeply exhaled before looking at him. "Do you still love her?" She asked out of the blue.

He was taken aback. He thought this was gonna be about her, but it seems that this time, it is much bigger.

"Yeah, I still do. That's why I'm fine with you. I'm not entertaining the idea of replacing her." He told her as they both looked at nothing in particular.

"But why don't you get her back?" She asked again as she took the water by the bedside table.

Ramon shook his head and explained, "It's not that easy Ice, she hates me, so much. I don't think I can face her yet."

"When will you face her then?" She asked as she looked at him with wide eyes.

He gave her a sad smile as he put a strand of hair away from her face. "I honestly don't know."

Ice furrowed her eyebrows and said, "But your kids are growing up, they need their father beside them."

"I know, but it's too complicated. Her hatred towards me is indescribable. And I know I have so much to make up to her. I'm honestly scared if that's what you're asking." He finished as he let out a nervous laugh.

"I'm scared too, I lost my boyfriend and a week hasn't passed when we became an official couple, I lost my best friend because I guess he misunderstood when he saw me and my client which is now my supposed to be boyfriend. My boyfriend saw me sleeping with my ex whose father of my son and coincidentally, is his roommate." She explained as she saw his mouth drop.

He burst into a laughing fit as he looked at her humorously. Ice can't help but glare at him as she smacked his head, "This isn't funny asshole! I'll tell Momma X about this." She pouted.

At this, his whole demeanor changed and looked at her dangerously.

Shit!

"You wouldn't do that Y/N, right?" He asked her sweetly, which didn't turn out to be sweet because he was looking at her ferociously.

Ice let out an exasperated sigh before answering, "I was just joking stupid!"

At this, he grinned and ruffled her hair. "I know! I'm just messing with you. On another note, I suggest you talk to them. Fix a day and don't avoid them. Talk to them honestly." He told her as he gave Ice a sympathetic look.

"But I'm scared, Jimin also came back and now I came from his house before coming here. He also had this friend which accidentally became my client and wants to be my sugar daddy. I don't know what to do with Jimin and now his friend adds up to the mess." She whined as she took a sip from the water.

"Jimin? As in SexyMochi? Wow! He's really one tough cookie." He then laughed.

"Y/N do you like any of them or do you see yourself with any of them?" He asked all of a sudden.

"I-I actually don't know? All I know is I enjoy their company and I'd be happy if they stayed by my side." She explained as she looked at him confused, while he looked at her perplexed.

"You're really messed up Y/N!" He told her as he let out a sigh and took his phone.

"I know, " She answered as she laughed bitterly at herself.

"A piece of advice though, enjoy your life, and if ever you fall in love with any of them or all of them, if that's possible? Don't be coward, express how you feel before it's too late. And you better get going now before he wakes up and you're nowhere to be found." He suggested as he stood up the bed.

"Yeah, you're right. Until next time Elijah." She smiled cheekily, once she spoke his real name. As they walked by the door.

"Better not be a next time like this Y/N, take care of Scarlett and my family for me." He smiled as they exchanged a few things. Ice gave him a white envelope while he gave her a brown and blue envelope.

"What is this?" She asked waving the envelopes.

"The blue one is yours while the brown is Scarlett's. Wire it in her account for me, please?" He asked her as he clasped his hands together.

Ice just smiled and nodded, "Sure, no problem dad." She spoke as she winked and held the doorknob.

But before she could leave he held her arm and turned her to him.

"Also this one," Then he leaned in and kissed her. His hands made it's way to her waist as he hugged her.

Once they detached from the kiss Ice giggled, "I'm not sure how I could give the last one though?"

"That's for you to find out..." He then chuckled, but his face turned serious as he spoke again, "...but I'm serious Y/N take care of yourself and your family before anything else."

"Yes Elijah, I'll keep that in mind, Goodbye." She told him as she opened the door.

"Bye Y/N," He whispered as he looked at her back.

Don't make the same mistakes that I did.

Ramon was one of her first clients. They met a few times before he told her everything. Since then she helped him, the way he helped her when she almost lost it in Jimin's constant pressure.

He told her about this and she tried it. He was hesitant at first but gave in with her persistence. He gave her a warning to not overdo it or else she might lose herself.

She obliged, and it has only been a few times that she did this. Ice only went to him when she really can't take it anymore.

Ramon, on the other hand, did this business once. He was a gambler before and lost money to loan sharks. He pushed himself on a cliff and left his family, for them not to be involved because he almost died because of his mistakes.

His wife thought he left for another woman, but it wasn't really the case. He left them for their own safety. But it broke his heart once he found out that she worked as a PSP before.

But since then he never went back to them. He kept tabs on her anonymously while operating his business.

A source saw him and offered him a higher position. Now he's one of the largest operators here and overseas, with dealers everywhere.

He became known underground with his legal and illegal businesses. But his identity was unknown, only his doings.

Ramon met Jimin once when they had a legal business transaction. Since then he teased Ice with Jimin whenever he got the chance. Until she decided to rat him out and everything went low.

Hoseok's POV

I groaned as I moved. My head was pounding hard. I blinked a few times before I was able to open my eyes.

As I stood up and observed my surroundings, my eyes landed on the person beside me and I almost jumped once I recognized who it was.

Mina

Fuck! What happened?

Shit! I fucked up as I recalled my memories.

Yoongi

Y/N

I immediately stood up and searched for my phone. Once I held the device, I immediately called her. But she didn't pick up.

Fuck I really messed it up!

I just hope she's okay. When I was sure my vision was clear I immediately went for the bathroom and wore my clothes before leaving a note for Mina.

Mina,

I'm sorry I had to leave early. I need to be somewhere important. Please take care when you leave. Thank you.

Hoseok

Yes, it was a dick move, but I don't want to give her false hope. My mind was clouded last night. As I left the hotel I headed straight home and took a bath before leaving for Y/N's parents.

Flashback

As soon as we entered, all eyes were on us. As I began chatting, Y/N's eyes were roaming the place. Her grip on my arm loosened as a hand replaced it on my other side.

As I looked to my side it was Mina, my ex-girlfriend. We dated for three months in high school, before I discovered that we dated because of a bet.

"Hi, Hoseokie! How are you?" Her high pitched voice asked as she tried to sound sweet, as her grasp on my arm tightened.

"I-I'm fine?" I answered awkwardly as I tried to remove my arm but to no avail.

"Come on! Come with me! I want to show you something." She insisted as she dragged me with her.

But as soon as Y/N was out of my sight I knew it was a bad idea. She pushed me by the wall and kissed me harshly then grabbed my collar.

"T-This is wrong Mina! Stop it!" I told her as soon as I was able to detach myself from her.

"Why is it bad? Are you and that need now a thing?" She sneered and crossed her arms.

Oh, how I wish!

"Y/N isn't a nerd okay! And don't ever talk about her like that!" I replied as I stormed away from her.

When we were kids Y/N was always a loner. We were happy to spend our time in the library so people thought of us as nerds, especially her since she really wasn't comfortable talking to others.

As I went back to where I left her, I saw Y/N running to the exit, and he was following her. My blood boiled as I followed them. She didn't stop even when I called her. I witnessed it all as she struggled under his hold until I intervened.

"Put her down." I bellowed as he held her upside down.

"You don't have a say in this, so get out of my way." Yoongi calmly spoke.

"I am her best friend that's why I get a say when someone takes her without permission." I spat. How dare he mock me!

Yoongi scoffed, "Yeah, you were just a best friend. You will never be anything more."

It was harsh but it was also the truth, which hurts me more. I was about to punch him but, what I can't believe was she stopped me, "Hobi stop!"

"Now Yoongi put me down," She ordered as I watch them, particularly Yoongi.

He was staring at me, mocking me with his asshole attitude.

"So what do you want Yoongi?" She asked him, which I can't believe why?

"You." He nonchalantly answered. The nerve of this man.

"What do you mean?" Y/N stupidly asked.

"I want to talk to you, in private." He spoke as I noticed Y/N unconsciously rubbed her legs. Does he still have the same effect on her?

"No! You can talk to her here, right now!" I demanded I don't want her to go anywhere with him.

Yoongi scoffed and eyed me from head to toe. "I suggest you just go back to your date, Mr. Jung."

Shit! He saw something, I saw Y/N looked at me and scoffed. But why?

Was she jealous now?

But what happened next broke my heart, "Just go back to whatever you're doing Hoseok, I'm fine," She pushed me away.

But he grabbed her again, "Please Y/N we need to talk."

I saw the way they looked at each other and it pains me to say this but it seems like Y/N unconsciously still like him.

But I can't let him break her again, so I grabbed her arm to protect her from him, "There's no need to explain. Leave her alone." I gritted.

Yoongi snorted before he answered, "Oh come on Hoseok! Don't act like some goody best friend here. If you didn't leave her. We wouldn't end up here in this open space, right? If only you could control your damn dick and be a good best friend." Yoongi mocked.

That's when I lost it. I attacked him and punched the asshole as hard as I can. I heard her by my side, but my emotions were now everywhere.

"Hobi stop!" She spoke as her soft hands tried to soothe me, which actually calmed me down.

Y/N turned to Yoongi, "I think you should just leave," She informed him.

"No, I don't want to. Can you at least listen to me? Kitten?" But being the stubborn that he is. He didn't listen and called her with their stupid nickname.

"I can't Yoongi, you're too late now.." She sighed and let her tongue wet her lower lip before speaking, "..I've moved on, and I'm happy now. I have a boyfriend and we're going steady."

Fuck! What now? I wasn't able to help it, I scowled at her.

"So it is true? He is your boyfriend?" I spoke as I looked at her intently. I was her best friend and I'm always late to know everything about her. She tried to touch my arm but I pushed her away. "Don't touch me! Can't you at least be honest once in a while Y/N?"

I tried to push back my feelings but it took the best of me. She tried to look at me differently, but I was too immersed in myself that I didn't see what she meant. "I've been with you for years Y/N! But just like any other times you just saw me as a friend. Someone who'll never get tired of tagging along."

"Hobi that's not what I meant. Let's talk about this some other time, please? I'll explain it to you I promise!" She pleaded.

"No need Y/N! I don't need someone who's just selfish!" I gave her one last scowl as I looked at both of them.

If she wants to get back to him then so be it! I'm getting tired of being on the other end of this every time.

I walked away as I heard her soft whimpers, but I didn't dare to look back. I knew he would just comfort her.

As I walked away, my heart clenched even more. But since I'm mad, my anger took the best of me.

That's when I made my mistake. Mina saw everything from afar and without thinking I grabbed her and brought her to my car. Without protest, she came with me and we went to a hotel.

I touched her in every place that I used to touch Y/N. I attempted to drown myself with her but I still can't erase Y/N from my every move.

How I wished she was the one with me.

How I wished I made love with her instead of someone else.

I tried the whole night but it really didn't turn out the way I wanted it to be. That's when I realize just like Y/N, I really can't move on from her yet. Because I really don't want to move on.

But because of my stupid rage, I let Yoongi take her away from me, again.

End of Flashback

As I was lost in my reverie I didn't even realize I arrived at my destination.

"Hi Hoseok! Come inside, you're just in time for lunch." Charles opened the door, as I smiled warmly, I was already standing by her parents' doorstep.

Seokjin's POV

Ever since she left, I locked myself in my room. It hurts, it fucking hurts. But it was my fault after all. I didn't even listen to her. I pushed her away.

Yoongi explained everything even if my door was closed, I heard it all. But my pride told me to not open the door and talk to him.

I broke up with her through text and that must be really painful on her part. Maybe it was because I was hurt that I wasn't able to think straight. But Yoongi admitted that it was his mistake. If he didn't drag her here it wouldn't happen.

I hate to admit it but questions still lingered in my mind. Does she still love the father of her son? If so, will she get back to him? What will happen to me now? To us?

Yes, it was an absurd question but I wanted her back. I'm wishing that this is just a trial that we had to face and overcome.

I'm not a fan of relationships since I'm scared of being hurt, of being left alone. But I can't believe I was the reason for other's misery.

Guilt filled me as time passed by, the day hasn't ended yet but I feel like I've been in these four walls for eternity. My stomach grumbled but I didn't dare to move.

Maybe by starving myself, this would go away. That I'll wake up by tomorrow as nothing happened.

I really just hope we could work this out Y/N.

Hopefully

(A/N: Hi! Update? How is it? What do you think? How's the music? I've been listening to throwback songs lately and I don't know why 😅 Sometimes we do things without thinking of the outcome first. This leads us to things unexpected. Which can affect and hurt us along the way? Am I right? So guys, always think before you utter a word. Because sometimes it can hurt others more than you know. Take care and love lots 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜)