-------Chapter 36------

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Sidharth Pov:

"Leave me, Sid" she yelled with an annoying look.

"Never ever. I'll never leave you. Get that to your head. Now first answer me, don't I have any right on you?" I asked slowly in a husky voice. Why is she acting like this? I know that I did a mistake by seeing her reports without informing her. But I have that right to do it. Her condition is bothering me and I sit like this without doing anything.

"Yes. You don't have any right and let me tell you, I hate your touch. I hate being close to you. I hate that kiss which we shared. I hate everything about you. Now let go off me and don't dare to touch me or my things again" I heard her voice. Wait!! What did she said now? I replayed her words again in my mind and her every word is like a bullet piercing my heart. I know my heart is bleeding inside. I gathered all my strength to apologize her.

"I'm sorry, Sanj" I said and turned to leave the place. I can't look into her eyes for one more second. I left tears coming out from my eyes. God!! Why the hell am I crying now? Why is this hurting me so much? I went straight into the gym and decided to do some work out so that I can divert my mind.

How can she talk like that? Does she really mean it? Why is she acting like this? Her words are still echoing in my ears. I threw the dumble on the floor. Ahh.. it's hurting inside. What have I done? I pulled my hair in frustration. I threw all the things on the floor.  I want to shout. I want to ask her whether her words came from her heart.

I felt weak and I collapsed on my knees. I never experienced this kind of hurt recently.  I never thought I will also cry when it hurts. I wiped my tears and decided to be strong. I will find out what's inside her heart. I thought and got up.

I looked all around the room and it looked like hell. I should inform Miss. Cat to clean the mess. I felt some wet on my fingers. I looked at them and I saw blood oozing out. I don't even remember when I got hurt. It's paining but the pain in my heart is more. Her every word is like a bullet that pierced into my heart. I took a deep breathe and went to the washroom. I washed the wound and put a bandage on it.

Did she really mean her every word? I decided to think positive. She was hell angry with me, that why she said those words. I thought and closed my eyes for a second. I want to forget everything that happened today. Wish I have the power to reverse everything. I cleared my thoughts and went out as I need to check her once.

I went straight to the balcony but I didn't find my wife. I heard some voices from down. It must be Kiara. I thought and made my way towards the stairs.

"Sid!!" Kiara called my name in excitement. She got up from her place and came towards me.

"Thanks for coming Kiara" I said and gave a side hug to her. I can feel my wife's eyes on me. But I decided to ignore her. After what happened this morning, I need some time for myself.

"Come. Join us" Kiara said taking my hand. I saw the reports on the table. I cursed myself again for looking into them without her permission. But I too have the right. Do I need to take her permission for everything. I'm her husband for god sake.

"No Kiara. I have to go out. You guys carry on" I said as I want to stay away from Sanj. She was about to insist but I cut her off.

"I'll see you soon, Kiara. Have a nice time with Sanjana" I said and left the place. All the time I didn't even looked at my wife. I decided to go to my parents house as it's been a long time.

A familiar scent engulfed me as soon as I opened the door. I parked my car and went inside. I saw my mom yelling at someone on phone. Who is that poor guy?

"Why are you behaving like this, Nihaar? I want to see you. Come home" she said in the call.

"Mom!!" I said and she turned towards me. She gave me bright smile showing her teeth.

"Look, your brother is here. I want to see you in an hour. Other wise you know me, Nihaar. You will face consequences. Now bye" she warned him. I'm damn sure he won't listen to my mom.

"Where is he, Mom? Is everything fine with him?" I asked as I was worried about my him. Recently, he stated that he is in love with Naira. Did he confessed his feelings or what? Did he got any rejection?

"I've missed you, son. Thanks for coming. And Nihaar is being my headache. He is not coming home these days." Mom's voice brought me back. I hugged her and she gave a kiss on my forehead.

" Don't worry mom. He will be fine " I said but I'm worried as well.

"Between where is my daughter? Why didn't you bring her?" she asked and I saw my dad coming down.

"She is busy. I'll bring her next time" I said and walked towards my dad. I gave him a tight hug as I missed him so much.

"I missed you, Vicku" I said in a low voice. I don't know why I'm being so weak. Seeing my parents gave a lot of happiness.

"Why is my son crying?" he asked and I rolled my eyes to hide my tears.

"Are you mad, Vicku? I'm not crying" I said and gave him a smile.

Sanjana Pov:

All the while, Kiara is talking but I didn't paid any attention. My thoughts are revolving around my husband. How can I talk like that? What's wrong with me? I was so harsh on him.

I saw Sid coming downstairs. All I want do is to go and hug him tight. I want to say that I didn't mean anything earlier. He greeted his friend, Kiara. He didn't even looked at me for a second.

You deserve this, Sanj. You deserve his hatered.I thought. My eyes fell on his hand and I saw a bandage. Did he hurt himself? It's all because of me. I felt tears in my eyes but I controlled myself. I don't want to cry in front of her. He left the place biding bye to Kiara and she turned towards me.

"How are feeling now?" she asked me with a smile.

"Better" I gave a short reply.

"That's great. Sid looked horrified yesterday. He was worried a lot. I never saw him like that before. This was the first time. And I think he didn't even sleep, his eyes look so tired" she said adding more guilt on my shoulders. Yes, he was there with me. He held me in his arms and told some good words in my ears.

"So I want to ask you something. From when are you in depression?" she asked all of a sudden. Why the hell every one thinks that I'm depressed.

"I was in depression, Kiara but now I'm fine. Like totally fine" I said giving her an annoying look.

"Sanj, I'm your good friend. Please trust me. I know you're not in depression now but I just want to know what was the reason behind it" she said. I took a deep breathe and decided to give up.

"Do you want to share?" she asked and I nodded.

"I first experienced this when I lost my first love but I was able to come out of it so quickly. Because I have my mom to take care of me. But few years back, my mom left us and I again went back to depression. I really miss her. I don't know where she is, what is she doing. I even tried getting her details but all my attempts to find her were failed. I just want to see her once and ask her why did she left me" I said trying hard to control my emotions.

"Who is your first love, Sanj?" she asked and all the past memories started to play in my brain.

"Sidharth. It's a long story, Kiara. I will tell you later" I said and she got surprised.

"So is there anyone with you at that time?" she asked and I nodded in no.

"I was all alone in Humburg. I didn't even told about my condition to father as it hurts him" I said.

"And what about these antidepressants?Are you using them regularly?" she asked.

"As I told you I'm not in depression anymore. I'm not using them regularly but you know sometimes I'll get those horror dreams where I lost mom. Then I'll take one pill" I said in a low voice.

"You've gone through a lot, Sanj. I'm really sorry for what your mother did. I'll help you out. I'll make you better" she said and I smiled.

"Thanks Kiara. All I need is Sid. I'm so happy these days and I don't think I need your help. I'll get out from these nightmares too" I said and she smiled.

Sidharth Pov:

We were talking about something, suddenly I heard my phone ringing . It was Sanjana. This morning incidents started to flash infront of me. I ignored the call. My phone started ringing again. It was her only. I took a deep breathe and switched off my phone. I can't be normal with her after what happened this morning. It will take some time for me to get back to normal.

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I looked at my watch, it was 7:30 PM. There is no sign of Nihaar till now. What the hell is wrong with him? Why is he not coming home? I decided to call him later. I decided to go back to my place as I want to check on my wife. I bid my farewell to my parents and got into my car. I started riding and turned on my phone. I saw few missed calls from Sanjana and one call from Kiara. I'll call Kiar tomorrow, I thought and went to my place.

I unlocked the door and went inside. I saw her sleeping on the couch with her hair falling on her face. I have strong urge to go near her and tug her hair behind her eyes. I want to plant a kiss on her forehead. I cleared my thoughts and ran upstairs to control my emotions. I got freshen up and decided to cook something for her.

I went down and there are no used vessels in the kitchen. I guess she didn't ate anything from morning. What the hell? How can she be so careless? She slept with an empty stomach. I cursed myself for leaving her all alone. I should have picked up her call. I thought. I quickly prepared some rice and Indian vegetable curry.

"Sid" I heard her voice from my back side. She sounded so low and tired. I didn't turn towards her as I don't want to look into her eyes.

"I prepared dinner. Please eat" I said and left the place without looking at her. I went to my room and laid on my bed. All I need is rest. I closed my eyes and after sometime I heard her voice again. I opened my eyes and I saw her with a plate.

"Now what?" I asked harshly.

"I brought food for you. Please eat" she said.

"I'm not hungry. Hope you had your food" I replied and closed my eyes again. The other side of the bed got compressed and I know she is sleeping.

"Please tell me whether you are fine sleeping next to me. If you're uncomfortable. I'll go to the guest room" I said and suddenly I heard her weeping. What? why is she crying now? I turned towards her and she looked like a lost puppy. Her nose and eyes were red in color. She looked cute. She got up and sat straight.

"What?" I asked getting up. I sat in front of her and she lowered her eyes.

"I'm sorry" she said in between for hiccups.

"I'm sorry for hurting you. I didn't mean anything" she said wiping her tears. She didn't even lifted her head.

"Okay. Now let me sleep. I'm all tired" I said and laid on the bed. I want to accept her apology but I'm still hurt. I need some time. I switched off the light and closed my eyes. Suddenly, I felt her hand on waist and her grip on my shirt got tighten. She hugged me from back. I want to turn to her side and hug her tightly. But I controlled my emotions.

"I'm scared" I heard her voice. She is still crying. I turned towards her and took her into my arms.

"I'm there for you,Sanj" I said and kissed her forehead. She lifted her head and looked into my eyes. The moon light is falling on her face and her eyes are sparkling with tears.

"I'm sorry" she said again and I wiped her tears.

"Shh.. No apologies.. Now sleep. I don't like when you cry" I said and placed her head on my chest. Soon, she drifted into sleep.

"I'll never give up on you, Sanj. Today, you taught me what pain is. It hurts when your loved ones talk harshly. And you are my loved one. I'm damn sure I'm deeply in love with you, Sanj. I don't know when I started to fall for you. I've realized it a long back but I tried hard to not to accept the fact. One thing is true that I can't live on this earth without you" I said this to my sleeping wife and drifted into sleep.

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