Chapter Two:Sunset
"Axel?" his face was shocked at first but then he broke into a smile and he says "roxy?" oh how I miss that nickname braelyn looks at me breaking my concentration "mommy who is that?".

I smile down at her and says "thats an old friend of mommies" he looks to her and I hand braelyn to mom and I say "take her to our seats" he nodds and axel takes off the cap and walks over to me he was still as tall as ever but alittle bit older now its been what five years thats a long time.

I gasp and I ask "why are you here?" he smiles and laughs and replies "I run this when dad died he left the shop to me and kairi so yeah" reno is dead? he meant alot to axel and I say "I'm sorry about reno he was a good man" axel smiles down at me and he asks "your a mom?".

I laugh and nodd and he asks "so you got married?" I smile and fiddle with my hair at the back of my neck and say "divorced now" axel laughs and looks over at braelyn and asks "so who was the lucky guy?".

I scoff and follow his gaze braelyn was eating her sea salt ice cream "marluxia" he turns back to me and he says "you married that pink haired furr ball?" he dies laughing and I roll my eyes and smack his arm and he asks "so he just what? didn't want her?".

oh god before I could answer I nodd and say "well he cheated so automatic custody goes to me" axel nodds and I ask "well what about you? did you ever get married?".

He smirks that sexy smirk of his and he nodds "I have a son he's six I never got married but I did have a boyfriend but I'd rather not talk about it alright?" I nodd understanding his wishes and I say "hey I'd like to meet him if thats ok with you".

He smiles at me and he says "ok he's at school right now but this friday ok?" I nodd and say "I live in my old house if you wanna meet up there and then we can just go to the park for the kids to play I'm dispatch up at the police department".

He smiles and says "alright its a date well riku he works up there" I roll my eyes and go and sit down at the table and I say "hey brae what do you say we go on a play date friday?" she looks at me and asks "with who?".

I smirk and rub her blond hair and say "mommies old friend he has a son he's your age and we thought it would be fun" she smiles and when we went home I downloaded every one of his songs on itunes.

I was in my old room and brae walked in there and she hears me singing and I didn't know she was there and she smiles and says "you sing good mommy".

I jump and laugh at her and she says "is that your favorite song?" I was playing better man through speakers and I nodd and I say "remember that man we seen today the redheaded man?" she nodds and I pointed to the speakers and she gasps "is that him?".

I nodd and she starts dancing and I grab her and lift her up and start singing along and swaying and dancing with her she starts giggling and we start spinning and she says "I love you mommy" I laugh and say "I love you too my baby".

~Friday~
Braelyn she was in a pair of blue jean shorts and a camo shirt and I had on a pair of jeans and a solid black shirt and when we hear the knock on the door and we open the door to see axel and a little strawberry blonde boy in his arms and he says "roxas this is my son Declan son this is my friend roxas".

I scoop up brae in my arms and say "hi declan this is braelyn" braelyn smiles and waves at him and declan says "you look like elsa" braelyn smiles and she says "I like frozen".
He smiles and I say "ok we ready to go baby do you need your sippy cup? declan would you like some apple juice?" he looks up at axel and then he nodds at him and declan smiles at me and says "yes please".

I go and fix braelyn her elsa and anna sippy cup and declan he got the olaf sippy cup with sven eating the carrot off of his face I hand him the cup and he says "thank you I like olaf".
I giggle as the kids walk ahead a few feet away and I say "he's adorable" he turns and looks at me and I ask "who is his mom?" he grins and rubs a hand in his red spikes "demyx" I gasp he dated demyx? I smile and say "you and demyx?".

He rolls his eyes and I say "awww" he shoves my arm and I laugh it was like we was friends again and I see the kids running back to us and braelyn hands me the cup and declan hands axel his cup and then they run to the playground ahead and start swinging on the swings and we sit down on one of the picnic tables and I say "what happened to the rest of the band?".

He meets me gaze and he says "riku he works at the P.D xigbar he went into the army shortly after dad died and hayner he went into the army as well and dem he".

I seen the hesistation in his eyes and he put his head between his hands I say "never mind" he continues on "demyx was killed by a drunk driver" oh my god no not demyx I grabbed axels hand I seen the fresh tears swelling up in his eyes and I ask "how long?".

He raises his head and see's the kids playing on the slide and he says "declan he was two at that time" I rub his hand and I say "I'm sorry" he wipes away the tears from his eyes and I say "I shouldn't have asked".
He grips my hand and he replies "its alright you couldn't have known" I smile as the kids come grab us and braelyn says "mommy come on the swing with me".

We run to the swings hand in hand just me and braelyn and she sits across my lap so we were face to face and I start swinging and she gripped her legs around my waist until I feel hands on my waist/ass I turn to see axel behind me pushing us and braelyn says "higher mr axel higher".

He grins and laughs "your wish is my command my darlings" I blush and as we got higher braelyn laughed and as we slowed down and axel says "brae you be careful alright?" she nodds and says "ok axel I will" in this moment I felt complete and axel says "hey declan its almost sunset".

He stops the swing and he asks "can braelyn and roxas come with us?" axel smiles and says "if its okay with roxas and braelyn" braelyn looks up to me and asks "please" and I say "well we don't have anything better to do".

All four of us walk to the clock tower and watch the sunset me and axel sit on the ledge this was the place me and him always came to dream and get away from it all while the kids sat behind us but a few minutes passes by and I turn around and see declan and braelyn asleep next to each other braelyn's head on declan's shoulder I smile and I bump axels arm and I signal to the kids he see's them asleep and he smiles and I say "they've had a long day".

Axel nodds and I say "you know I listened to every song you wrote" he smiles over at me and he says "really?" I nodd and smile and look towards the sunset and he asks "after everything that happened?".

I nodd and continue looking out at the sunset and I say "I like your song get your guns and better man" he grins as I meet his gaze and I say "axel there's something I gotta tell you".

He nodds and I look deep into those big emerald green eyes and I say "braelyn.......and me need to get home she looks really tired" he smiles and nodds this was the longest day and she had fun and as I pick up braelyn but when I put her arms around my neck her one arm was caught on something I turn to look and I see her and declan was holding hands I smile and look at axel and I was met with another admiring smile what is it about his smile that just sends me on edge.

I grab braelyns hand and break the chain and we walk down from the tower and we go home and I say before axel leaves "hey axe do you wanna come inside? we can put the kids in my room" he smiles and I rub declans back he was still asleep and he says "sure" .

I open the door and I go and put both of the kids in my room in my queen size bed and I cover them up and before I leave I lean in and kiss braelyn on the forehead and axel does the same thing.

When I leave the door cracked I walk past my old room and the door was wide open and he looks inside and he says "is that your old room?" I blush embarrisingly and he walks inside the old room and he looks around and then he see's the old picture of us and I stand next to him and he asks "you still have that old picture?".

I giggle and rub the back of my hair and reply "when I left my dad kept everything in its place" he smiles and nodds and looks at me and then he see's the old speakers with my ipod in the middle shit the last thing I was listening to was his song and he says "so what was you listening to?".

He turns on the ipod and his song better man starts playing and I cover my face with my hands and he laughs "you was listening to me huh?" I nodd and I feel his hands on top of mine and I shake my head and he says "its sweet It shows me that you still listened to my music even after what happened to us".

I remove my hands from my face and he doesn't let go of my hands as the fell in between us and I sing the lines  "and every little step I take and every single move I’ve ever made" he grins and sings along with me and then I let him sing the next line "and even though my heart still aches it makes me a better man".

I grin and our voices colliding "look at all the mess i’ve made and I still think of you in better days and even though my heart still aches it makes me a better man" his hands grip mine and he says "thats good".

I smile and then I say "dance with me?" he smiles and he grabs my hand and my other hand on his shoulder and his gaze meets mine and I swim inside his beautiful emerald eyes I wrap my arms around his neck his hands drift to my waist as we sway back in forth to his song and I say "I miss you".

His hands grip my waist and he replies "I miss you too roxy" only he calls me roxy and it makes me feel complete when he calls me that I feel his chest rise up and down he was nervous I don't know why I rest my head on his chest I feel his heartbeat beating fast when the song ends we stay in the same position for a few minutes until I look up at him and he says "god your eyes".

I blush and move my gaze away from him but he lifts up my chin and I meet his gaze once more and he says "thats one of the things I fell in love with" love? I back away and he says "I'm sorry I shouldn't had said that".
I wave it away like it was ok and then he see's the black book and he smiles and says "still have the same little black book I see".

I gasp as he walks to it and picks it up and he opens it up and his breath hitches and he pushes to the next page and he says "thats all you drew is me? and you?" I nodd and I say "I have to show you something".

I pull on the drawstring above my head and steps come out of the ceiling and when we step up into the ceiling and he looks around the small room pictures of us everywhere and he walks over to the easel I had set up by the window and it was black chalk and it was one of me and him looking outside my window down in my room and it shows me in front of the windowsill looking out to nothing and him behind me with one hand on my side and another on the window sill above my head you just see his shoulder and me and he says "thats beautiful".

I walk over to him and I say "I drew that on the night we first kissed and I came up here and drew it right after our date" he smiles as he looks at me and I say "axel there's something I have to tell you".

He walks over to me our faces inches apart and he was so tall I looked up at him and he leaned down and our lips were inches apart until I hear "mommy?" I jump and say "what is it baby?".

I hear her in my room below us and she says "declan he had a nightmare he wants mr axel" I nodd and say "don't worry baby he's coming" axel walks down the steps I jump down and shut the door and he walks to my room and I grab braelyn and we go to my room and he was crying and I say "hey buddy".

He looks at me with a tear stained face and I put braelyn down and walk over to him and I wipe away his tears off his cheeks and I say "it was just a dream declan nothing can harm you there" and axel smiles at me and he continues "you see thats the difference between dream and reality a dream isn't real but reality is".

I smile over to him he has such a way with words he stops crying and I say "and let me tell you what I told braelyn if your in a dream just pinch yourself or just tell yourself it isn't real" he smiles as I push his red and blonde hair behind his ear out of his face and he says "it was mom again" axel nodds and I smile and say "what do you say I fix us some hot chocolate?".

Declan smiles and braelyn says "yeah and we can watch frozen" I smile at axel and he returns my smile and I start to get up but declan stops me I feel his tiny hand in mine.

I smile down at him and braelyn she grabs axel's hand and we walk down to the living room while me and axel was fixing the hot chocolate the kids watched frozen and I was watching them from the kitchen giggle at olaf and I hear olaf say "hi I'm olaf and I like warm hugs".

I smile at how the kids was giggiling and I hear axel say "thank you" I smile over to him and I say "he's got his eyes" axel nodds and he says "he's been having those dreams for a while now I don't know what to do about it i'm alone in this" I walk over to him and I touch his arm and I say "no your not" he meets my gaze and he says "I'm not ready for that okay?".

I nodd understanding completely he was still in mourning but its been three years isn't that enough time to mourn? I mean I understand he loved him but you would think that wound would have been healed by now and I say "whenever you need me to watch declan or anything just let me know if you have long hours at work or anything I'll watch him".

He nodds and walks away and he goes into the living room I can't tell him about braelyn not right now he's so emotionally unstable I mean he's not crazy he's fragile and delicate I walk and sit next to braelyn and hand her the cup and she turns it up and declan he turns the cup up as well and I keep looking at the tv and declan asks "roxas? I had fun today thanks for helping with the nightmares".

I smile and wink at him and say "anytime bub" I don't look at axel and just watch the movie when it was over declan hugged my neck and I say "sunday we are gonna grill out in the front yard you two should come".

Axel smiles over at me and declan says "can we daddy?" axel smiles and says "ok what time should we be here?" I smile and say "around noon" after they left braelyn falls asleep in her bedroom and I go and grab my laptop and load up some old songs and then axel's youtube page pops up and I click on his name.

Then I seen the old song that I never listened to and it was a song called anymore I seen demyx in the background playing on the drums and riku on the keyboard and xigbar on base axel on guitar I smile as I clicked on it and the video popped up and I click the full screen button and I listened to the lyrics

I can't hide the way I feel about you anymore
I can't hold the hurt inside, keep the pain out of my eyes anymore
My tears no longer waiting, my resistance ain't that strong
My mind keeps recreating a life with you alone
And I'm tired of pretending I don't love you anymore
I listened to the lyrics and they was beautiful but my eyes wasn't on axel it was demyx I was smiling at he looked like he was glowing and just beautiful it must be declan haha
Let me make one last appeal to show you how I feel about you
'Cause there's no one else I swear that holds a candle anywhere next to you
My heart can't take the beating, not having you to hold
A small voice keeps repeating deep inside my soul
It says I can't keep pretending I don't love you anymore
I hear xigbar sing along to axel as there voices colliding and I had tears streaming down my cheeks that song was beautiful
I've got to take the chance or let it pass by
If I expect to get on with my life
I look at demyx he had a tiny little bulge on his stomach I smile as it shows some of the guys playing there was little declan and I whisper as I touch the laptop screen "I will take care of him"
My tears no longer waiting, oohh my resistance ain't that strong
But my mind keeps recreating a life with you alone
And I'm tired of pretending I don't love you anymore

Anymore
Anymore
I touch the laptop screen and I say "I will watch over them I promise demyx" I look at my shoulder and I smile as I put my hand on my shoulder it felt cold as the chills go down my spine and I say "demyx are you here?".

I smile and I was still crying "I won't replace you as his parent or mom your his mom forever and always but I will try and be the good person I can be towards axel and declan you have my word".