"So Yoongi, my class teacher, is Jimins' long time crush and you are his best friend.?"

"..That pretty much sums it up.", Taehyung said with a smile.

At that moment a grumpy looking Yoongi stomped into the livingroom interrupting their chat.

"I'm leaving.", he announced.

Taehyung got up to stop Yoongi but Jungkook held him back. "Let him go. There's nothing we can do."

Taehyung sighed.
"I guess you're right."

*

When Yoongi got into the car he wanted to say something explaining as to why he called his best friend in the middle of the night, but he didn't find the words to explain.

Hoseok stayed silent for a while. He had known Yoongi long enough to know he sometimes needed time to express his feelings. When the silence continued Hoseok eventually spoke up: "Where am I taking you?"

"C-can I sleep with you.?", Yoongi mumbled.

Hoseok grinned. "You know Namjoon and Jin had a date night tonight, I think you'll legit get no sleep."

"I wasn't planning on getting sleep.", Yoongi replied, implying that he had meant his question in the most literal way.

"Excuse me?", Hoseok asked still not grasping where Yoongi was getting at.
Yoongi bit his bottom lip. He felt like a kid sulking.

He sneaked his hand over to Hoseoks thigh.
First the other didn't react, so Yoongi was moving his hand towards Hoseoks crotch area.

"Min Yoongi what do you think you're doing?", Hoseok asked. His voice sounded slightly hoarse.

"I'm making a point.", Yoongi answered. "I think you didn't fully understand my question earlier."

Yoongi kept massaging Hoseoks crotch area, making him stiffen in his seat. He let out a shaky breath: "Let me ask you a question.", Hoseok replied trying to ignore Yoongis hand.

"What were you doing at the place I just picked you up from? Did your intentions have anything to do with sex?"

Yoongi froze and slowly removed his hand. "That were two questions.", he replied with a pout. Hoseok stayed silent. He stopped the car and Yoongi realised they were in front of his apartment now. Hoseok turned to look at Yoongi.

Yoongi shrunk down in his seat. He didn't want to talk about it. But he also didn't want Hoseok to think he was just a horny bitch willing to sleep with anyone that would let him.
"I.. It.. I.. I stayed with Jimin last night and it was so beautiful, but then he had another panic attack and I had to call Jihoon and h-he told me to leave Jimin.. and I.. I just don't know anything anymore. It all just feels so wrong. Everything I do leads to another catastrophy and it has come so far that I am starting to doubt.. myself.. I just feel so wrong in my body. I feel like my body is not mine anymore. Or like I'm not me anymore. Like I'm shattered. And there's a million pieces of me.. and I just need someone or something to take them back together..", Yoongis voice broke. He saw the sympathy in Hoseoks eyes.

"You know I'm not gay. We've talked about this. It happened one time and it shouldn't happen again. That was college. We are grown ups now Yoongi, the time of playing around is over.", Hoseok knew his words sounded harsh but he remembered how broken Yoongi had been when they had slept with each other and he had told Yoongi they could not be together. He had sworn to himself that he would never let it get this far again.

"P-please. i need to just... I need this. I need to feel good. I need to feel whole. Even if it's just for a little while..", Yoongis voice was just a whisper.

Hoseok sighed.
He got out of the car. Yoongi heard him open his car trunk but he still wasn't moving. All he could think about was that if he left the car now Hoseok would leave. And he would be all alone. And maybe Hoseok was so disgusted by him that he would never come back.

When Yoongis car door was opened his head shot up and he blinked heavily only now noticing the tears that had escaped from his eyes.

He expected Hoseok to be angry or at least annoyed that Yoongi wasn't hurrying up to get out but when he spoke his voice was soft: "Let's go."

Yoongi noticed something in Hoseoks hand. A bundle of ropes.

(that's not the right kinda rope but let's pretend it is for a sec.. ok?)