when Jimin woke up it was raining. He slowly blinked taking in his surroundings. The first thing he noticed was a little origami bird lying next to him. He smiled, knowing who it was from and took it unfoldig the paper unveiling a short message.

"Good morning, I hope you slept well, I'm sorry I had to leave but I couldn't take the day off. Taehyung is waiting outside. Have a nice day,
-J"

Jimin sighed. After every panic attack Jihoon would either not leave his side or, if that wasn't possible, send someone to babysit Jimin to make sure he was okay. He groaned and rolled over. Better get it over with, he thought making his way to the door.

With his hand on the doorhandle he hesitated, taking in a deep breath. The events from the night before were replaying in his mind. He felt like his chest was tightening at the memory. He hadn't had a panic attack in a while, but he also couldn't say they were new to him. Whenever he felt extremly selfconscious about his body or confronted with difficult social situations he would be overwhelmed and if things would get really bad it would result in a panic attack.

The image of Yoongis' shocked face was etched into his memory. Jimin wasn't mad. It hadn't been his fault and he couldn't have known what to do. Jimin sighed again, he felt the heat in his stomach thinking about how the night could have gone...

Jimin shook his head. What had happened had happened and there was no going back now and thinking about it Jimin was really hungry, his attacks tended to wear him out quite a bit.

Slowly Jimin opened the door.
As he expected Taehyung was sitting in a chair in front of his room. Jimin had to supress a laugh at the sight of Taehyung wearing an apron.

"Good morning sunshine", Taehyung chimed, as he slowly got up from the chair. Jimin didn't fail to notice the caution in which Taehyung was moving to not accidentally scare Jimin off.

"I'm okay, Tae. No need for babysitting."

"Who talked about babysitting?", Taehyung answered with a raised eyebrow. "We are just gonna have a nice breakfast to get you back on track, and then we will watch greys anatomy and have ice cream and..."

"any way I could have a say in the plan of the day?"

"Oh honey, absolutely not.", Taehyung answered with a smile, straightening out his apron. "Now follow me.", Taehyung said, leading the way to the kitchen.

With another sigh, Jimin followed him.

*

When Yoongi woke up he was momentarily confused as to his whereabouts. After a big yawn he remembered Hoseok taking him to the appartment he shared with two of their friends.

Making his way to the kitchen Yoongi could make out a whispered conversation.

"I'm not going to tell you, ask him yourself!", one voice whisper-yelled.

"You know he's not going to tell me the truth thinking I might be worried.", the second voice answered with a sigh. "He always seems so emotionally unavailable, no wonder they used to call him Motionless Min.. more like emotionless- Hi Yoongi!", Jin exclaimed, noticing Yoongi at the door.

"Morning.", Yoongi answered grumpily.
"Where's Namjoon?", he asked.
"Oh, he's out getting you lamb skewers as they're your favourite.."

"It's in the morning."

"Actually it's already 2 p.m.", Hoseok corrected.

"I'm going back to sleep.", Yoongi growled.

*

The next day at school Yoongi tried to act normal. But every time he looked at Jimin images of his trembling body flashed through his mind.

When the lesson was over Yoongi packed up his stuff. He was deep in thought, debating on what to do. Jihoon had told him to stay away from Jimin. Hoseok had told him to find out what he really wanted and what he felt. Namjoon and Jin had told him to eat a lot of lamb skewers.. at least that part had been a success.

When he heard someone clear his throat, Yoongis' head shot up. The classroom was empty, all students had left except the one standing right in front of him, looking at him with an intense gaze.

"Why did you do it?", Jimin asked without an introduction. "Was it because you..y-you like me? Or because you feel pity?"

Yoongi shivered at the determination in Jimins' eyes. He hadn't expected Jimin to confront him, he had thought he would have more time to think about it, but apparently his time was up and he had no answer. "I don't know.", was all he could say.
"You better find out then..", Jimin replied, his words barely a whisper. He took a step forward, closer to Yoongi. Yoongi raised his hands as if he wanted to protect himself.. or Jimin from himself.

"But.. I don't want to hurt you again.. It's happened way too often and I can't.."

Jimin grabbed Yoongis wrists that had insecurely been hovering next to his body as if he was afraid Jimin would shatter under his touch. He squeezed Yoongis' wrists reassuringly.

"I can handle it.", he said with determination, letting go of Yoongis wrists and grabbing his collar instead. With a soft tug he pulled Yoongi closer until they were only inches apart. "I'd rather suffer finding out the truth than happily live a lie.", was all he said before he leaned in further.

***
a/n: i'm going to korea next week so i don't know how much time i'll have for updates.. if there's anybody here actually reading this let me know ✌🏻