"Park Jimin. A moment please"

Jimin felt the electricity shooting through his entire body upon hearing those words.
He had to concentrate to keep up the mask of indifference he had practiced for half an hour in front of the mirror that morning.

One after the other the students trailed out of the classroom. Eventually Jimin and Yoongi were the last in the room. Jimin had taken his time, he finished and in a slow cat-like manner he made his way to the front desk where his teacher had been sitting, watching him the entire time.

Yoongi was on edge. The slow pace Jimin chose to walk up to him was torture. When he had finally reached his desk he looked him straight in the eyes and asked: "What is it you wanted to talk about, Mr. Min?"
Yoongi was shocked upon Jimin adressing him that formal but he didn't let it show. Two could play this game.
"Mr. Min all of a sudden?", he teased.
"Min is your name if I got that right in your introduction yesterday..", Jimin replied innocently.
"Well you did prove that you are able to get a lot more right than my name."

Jimin hesitated. He had run out of smart remarks already and just stared at Yoongi for a moment. When Yoongi just stared back, Jimin diverted his gaze to his hands.

"Look.. I.. I'm sorry", Yoongi suddenly blurted out. When Jimin looked up he felt like Yoongi was as surprised at the words leaving his mouth as Jimin was hearing them.

"Sorry? W..what for?", he muttered even though he had an idea of what Yoongi was talking about.

Jimin looked so fragile in that moment that all Yoongi wanted to do was take a step around his desk and hug him tightly. There were so many things going through his mind. What was he sorry for? For not recognising him earlier? Or for the way things had played out all those years ago?

"E..Everything.", Yoongi finally breathed out.
"Can I ask you a question?"

Jimin nodded.

"I heard that you've been in hospital..", Yoongi couldn't finish the sentence. He could tell from the look on Jimins' face that it made him extremly uncomfortable, but he needed to know.

You know that I can't
Show you me
Give you me
I can't show you a ruined part of myself

Jimin hesitated. "Who told you?", he asked.

"Does it matter?", Yoongi asked back.

Jimin shook his head. "Not really."
He wrapped his arms around his body as if he suddenly felt cold.

I'm so afraid
That you will leave me again in the end
The only thing I can do is to breathe as the me that you know

Jimin took a big breath. After exhaling slowly to calm himself down a bit he spoke: "I had to go to hospital because I was struggling with a very severe eating disorder.", he finally replied to Yoongis' question.

"I guess I've always been like that..", he added, not looking Yoongi in the eyes. He didn't dare to see his reaction.
"Not.. normal. Not.. like the others. I've never been good enough."

Yoongi just stared at Jimin in shock. He felt guilt well up inside of him. Was it his fault? Had his actions made Jimin feel like he was not good enough?

Maybe back then
If I had the courage to stand before you
Would everything be different now?

But I still want you

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a/n: I do not aspire to romanticise eating disorders and mental health issues in general so I really hope you don't feel offended by me mentioning it in the story like I did.

the italic parts are lyrics from truth untold, however, i just cut out random pieces so i'm sorry if that might have confused you..