(Janie's pov)

I slept most of the plane ride. What else was I going to do? I loved sleeping more than I loved living reality.

I was told many times, the best thing is when you wake from the best dream ever, and you are smiling because reality is just as good, if not better than your dreams.

Jeez how I wish I knew how that felt... Actually I did.

Luke and Ashton.

Yes I said this a million times how what he have isn't real. But I love him, and being around him was a dream that I lived. But at the end of the day when I think over the truth, it's a nightmare.
And then there was Ashton, there for me when I needed him, even when I didn't want his help, he was there. That's the friend anyone would hope to have.

"Excuse me" a small boy next to me tapped my shoulder. Breaking my chain of thought. I looked at him, he has crazy dark blonde hair and the biggest smile on his face.

"Yes?" I smiled back at him.

"Is your hair really purple?" He asked.

"Well, no I dyed it purple," I assured him.

"Ohhhh! What's that mean?"

"It means I put paint in my hair to change it's color," I explained.

"So I can put paint in my hair and it makes my hair turn colors?" The little boy asked in the most amazed voice.

"Well, it's special hair paint. And yes you can, if you're allowed to by your Mom."

"Oh no!" The boy covered his face.

"Is everything okay?" I asked concerned.

"My Mom would never say yes to hair paint," he uncovered his face pouting.

"I'm sorry, but I wasn't allowed to until I was 18 and moved out," I pat his back.

"But I can't wait that long! My friend Micha is triple dog daring me to have green hair, I can't do it!" The boy nearly yelled. I laughed slightly. "And I don't like letting down a friend."

"It's okay uhm... What's your name?"

"Asher," The boy smiled.

"Okay Asher, well you remind me a lot of this boy I know, he's so into making everyone happy, sometimes he forgets what would make him happy," I told him. I was dying on the inside. I swear this was all some twisted dream, that Mini Ashton named Asher is telling me about Micha who wants him to dye his hair. This couldn't be real.

"Okay so I shouldn't dye my hair?" Asher asked.

"Not if you don't want to," I nodded.

"Well, I like my hair," the boy pet his hair. "So no I don't want to."

"Then don't," I smiled.

"You're really pretty," Asher stared at me.

"Thank you Asher you're too sweet."

"Do you have a boyfriend?" Asher asked curiously not creepily, he was only like seven. But I didn't know the answer to this... I know Luke and I kissed before I left and he gave me a penguin, be we weren't dating, right?

"I did, we just broke up recently," I sighed honestly.

"That's suckish, why would he leave you?"

"I left him actually..." I said awkwardly.

"But your tone sounded like you were still in love with him?" Asher asked confused.

"I am!"

"Then why'd you leave him?" Asher sounded disappointed. This was definitely a dream, I wasn't really talking to a seven year old about dating was I? Seven year olds don't even know what love is!

"Cause..." I don't know what to say that wouldn't creep out a 7 year old, "haven't your parents ever told you not to talk to strangers??"

"What's your name?"

"Janie," I replied.

"Hello Janie! We aren't strangers now."

"You're a sweet, cute, little kid. But I don't really want to talk about my love life with a seven year old..."

"Hey! I'm seven and a half!"

"Still, I'm not comfortable talking to you about it," I continued.

"Was he good to you?" The little boy didn't stop.

"Very," I bit my lip staring down at the penguin be made me take, the one I gave him God remembers when.

"Then why'd you leave him?"

"Because I wasn't good for him," I answered simply.

"Why not?" The boy seemed curious.

"He didn't really love me, he thought he did. And it was for the wrong reason," I told him what I've told Luke since day one.

"How would you know if that's true? You don't know what he feels and why he feels it," Asher sighed. Why'd he care so much? And isn't he seven??

"Because I do okay?" I rolled my eyes a bit sick of this kid.

"You may think I'm just a small kid Janie, but I know what love is okay? Love is going through the hardest obstacles because you want better for someone else. It's not caring if that person denies themselves as a good person, you'll see the good in them and care for them no matter what," Asher explained. I think he stole most of that from frozen.

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(Luke's pov)

"MICHAEL!!" Calum yelled. "GIVE IT THE FUCK BACK!!"

"NEVER!" Michael laughed as I heard running around my bus.

Best way to wake up is to hear screaming from my band mates. Sorta. Okay not really.

"MICHAEL GORDON CLIFFORD GIVE THE BOYS HIS PHONE BACK THIS INSTANT," Our tour Parent yelled. Not just any tour parent, My Mom. Since Janie has been gone for a week, my Mom joined the tour.

Basically, My Mom has been giving me crap about Janie and drama since the world found out on that fake date Janie went on with Calum. She wanted to know what was going on and what I explained only confused her. So of course when the tour bus wasn't full anymore she took the opportunity to join in and make sure we stay grounded and drama free. But all that's happened is Michael became a pain in the ass. More of a pain anyways.

My Mom didn't like Michael from the start, since we didn't get along very much a few years ago. So when I introduced Michael again as my friend and band member, she wasn't too fond of that and has been keeping Michael on probation for four years now. Michael enjoys that fact and likes to mess with her. Which obviously annoys me, cause c'mon! She's my Mom!

"Yes ma'am!" Michael laughed. It went dead silent before A thump went on the floor.

"BRO! You nearly cracked it!" Calum sighed.

"Well I want to know what girl you're texting," I could see Michael's smirk.

"Why does it matter? And what would make you think it's a girl?" His voice sounded hidden. Like he was hiding something.

I poked my head out of the bunk, curious to what Calum's up to. He can't get a girlfriend! He needs to be alone with me!!

"Cause you seem so quiet and are hiding your phone when you get a text, who is she?" Michael asked. Calum just rolled his eyes walking away with his phone.

"You boys really need to fight less," My Mom informed them. They never fight when she isn't here.

"Mom," I yawned getting up to hug her. "I think they're just stressed with Janie leaving, and the wedding you know?"

"You sure they aren't just stubborn?" She questioned.

"No they were fine before you got here," Ashton walked into the room bumping himself into the conversation. I shot him a quick look of stop. But Ashton didn't get the message.

"Michael's trying to annoy me huh?" She laughed. Sometimes I felt she liked Ashton more than me, nothing Ashton said insulted her in any way. And everything he did was sweet and caring to her. It was weird. But I didn't complain, instead I just hung around Ashton when she was in a mood.

"Yeah... Uhm... you know Michael always being annoying..." I fake laughed. Honestly I didn't think much since Janie left. "Ashton can I talk to you?"

"Of course!" Ashton's face brightened up, he never really had me asking for help or anything, I usually asked Calum. He grabbed my arm and dragged me to the video game room. Which shockingly wasn't being used. "What's up?" The older boy smiled.

"Well," I yawned.

"Did you just wake up? You look a mess," Ashton pointed out.

"Yeah," I nodded.

"It's three in the afternoon Luke," Ashton laughed. I just shrugged. "So what'd you want to talk about?"

"Well... Uhm...I-"

"You miss Janie?" He cut me off.

"How'd you-"

"You obviously do, you've been really awkward and uncomfortable since she left, you know more than usual at least," Ashton interrupted again.

"Oh. Well uhm... Yeah I do miss her, a lot," I bit my lip.

"Has she tried to call you?"

"The whole reason she left was to forget me Ashton... She hasn't called, she probably never will," I sighed.

"Give her time she will," Ashton pat my back smiling a little.

"No Ashton, she's trying to forget me, she's never gonna come back to me. All cause she thinks I was controlled by this doll thing..." I explained. Didn't he get it??

"Luke, I know Janie well. I know she's gonna figure out that whole doll thing wasn't true, that the dolls may control people but not feelings. And if she doesn't, she won't he able to stay away from you that long, she loves you Luke. She knows her love for you is real, maybe that'll be enough for her," Ashton told me.

"Woah." Was all I said. For a drummer who doesn't believe in school, he's pretty smart. He should show it more often.

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We finished the first song, 18, as Ash introduced us, "Hello everybody! I'm Ashton, I'm the drummer. That up there with the sexy legs is Luke Hemmings, he's lead singer and guitarist. On the bass we have Mr.Calum Hood over there. And lastly we have Michael Clifford rocking out on that guitar! We are 5 Seconds Of Summer!"

The crowd went insane. I felt so lucky that I actually get to do this day in and day out. You have no idea, the adrenalin you get while preforming in front of thousands of people who adore you, who are there for you, you're music, your band. It's a dream come true and it still amazes me every concert we have.

"You know, Ashton," I started. "I think this may be our best crowd yet." This drove them crazy.

"Nah," Michael teased. "They're not loud enough." If they weren't waking up the sleeping aliens of other planets before, they definitely were now. "That's better," Michael grinned. Michael was definitely the most confident on stage. He completely lost himself in music and sometimes he added unplanned guitar solos in the middle of us talking or after a song ends.

I was just completely happy no matter what. As long as I was on stage I was beyond reality. Any hate we got, any drama, any stress, that all slipped away while preforming. That's the best thing about being on stage. You can let out any emotion you need to, it'll slip away. And for a brief few hours, Janie wasn't clouding my mind.

We sang a few more songs.
What I like about you
Heartbreak girl
End up Here
Don't Stop
Everything I Didn't say

It wasn't the easiest with some songs. They did make me think of Janie a bit.

"Okay, so I set up a pole on twitter for what older song we should do," Calum smiled then quickly looked at me sympathetically, "And turns out this was the most voted for song." I got scared and looked at them all as if asking what song was chosen. I didn't like the thought that I didn't know what I was singing for fans choice until we preform it. Especially cause it was a new thing we started that Calum and Ashton thought of and they poled songs that were so emotional and old.

"This is Wherever You Are," Calum looked at me as we started over at Ashton's drums. Damn did I not like this pole. The other shows we did voted Out of my limit, or even Unpredictable. What was this?

Michael looked at me as he began strumming and slowly made it into the songs rhythm where I joined in and walked to the mic stand in the middle. I took a deep breath before singing the depressing song.

"For a while we pretended, that we never had to end it, but we knew we had to say goodbye..."

Okay at least it wasn't that much part of my life.

"...You were crying at the airport, then they finally closed the plane doors, I could barley hold it all inside..."

SHIT.

"Torn in two, and I know I shouldn't tell you but I just can't stop thinking of YOOUUUU, wherever you are. YOOUUUU wherever you are, every night I almost call you just to say it always will be YOOUUU, wherever you are."

So what if it had to do with my life a little?? Pshhh! At least I don't sing the next part. Calum did. I listened to him.

"I could fly a thousand oceans, but there's nothing that compares to, what he had and so I walk alone..."

Okay maybe it was exactly how I felt. I joined in singing.

"I wish I didn't have to be gone, maybe you've already moved on, but the truth is I don't want to know..."

TRUE!

"Torn in two, and I know I shouldn't tell you but I just can't stop thinking of YOOUUUU wherever you are. YOOUUUU wherever you are. Every night I almost call you just to say it always will be YOOUUU, wherever you are..."

Tears welled up my eyes as I sang the next line,

"You can say we'll be together, someday. Nothing lasts forever, nothing stays the same. So why can't I stop feeling..." Voice broke, "This wayyyy"

I covered my mic and let Calum sing the rest, I couldn't do it anymore.

"Torn, in two, and I know I shouldn't tell you but I just can't stop thinking of..."

I didn't sing with Calum.

"YOOUUU, wherever you are, YOOUUU wherever you are..."

Michael joined in after noticing I was no longer doing it.

"Everynight I almost call you just to say it always will be, YOOUUU,"

Calum looked at me worried before singing my last line,

"...wherever you are."

There was a quick moment where the crowd was screaming, and the boys just all stared at me worried. Sure I ended up crying at a few songs at times, but this was different, they knew this was an actual reason and not just cause the song was sad.

"Okay," Ashton quickly smiled. "We're gonna take a very brief break, use this time to go get some food and drinks. Maybe even use the bathroom."

Ashton was the best. Michael patted my back while we walked backstage again and into the dressing room.

"Luke!!" Blair and Jay looked at me concerned running backstage. "Are you alright?" I sniffled and nodded.

"I just need uhm... A moment... You know?" I shrugged as My Mom walked in.

"Luke," she wrapped her arms around me. "It's okay baby, you'll be okay." She pat my back. I was still much taller taller her, but I felt small. She was my Mom and I was still a teenager, I'm still growing up, I still needed her at times. As hard as it may be for most guys to admit, I can. This made me feel better.

When I pulled away from the hug and my Mom left the room. everyone was out in the hallway but Calum and I.

"It's her huh?" Calum sighed looking really upset for me.

"Yeah," I nodded. "I really love her and miss her so much Calum you have no idea. It's like I'm missing a part of myself when I think about her. And those lyrics..." I bit my lip, "they couldn't be more true. And she probably already moved on. A week is enough time to forget someone like me."

"Luke," Calum shook his head. "She didn't."

"How would you know?" I sniffled.

"Cause," he smiled slightly, "She's been texting me." Calum pulled out his phone and unlocked it. I walked over to see his texts. It hurt a bit she didn't text me, but I knew why. I looked through the texts.

11:24am From Janie:
How's Luke doing?

11:37am From Janie:
I really miss you guys. You have no idea.

12:05pm From Janie:
I've done nothing but lounge around and eat pizza today. Is Luke okay?

12:38pm From Janie:
Bored :/

1:58pm From Janie:
Just heard Amnesia on the radio, thanks for the waterworks.

4:29pm From Janie:
Good luck on the concert tonight! xx miss you guys!

6:17pm From Janie:
Does Luke still love me? I reckon I'm easy to forget.

I sighed the last one. She's actually impossible to forget. I've never felt so in love with one person, it scared me. If she saw what just happened she'd know I still loved her and never will stop.

Just then the phone beeped. I looked down to see another text from Janie.

8:26pm From Janie:
I heard that Luke cried during the concert, is he okay? Why do I feel this is all my fault?

I looked at Calum before typing:

8:28pm To Janie:
Luke's okay. And he loves you very much.

8:29pm From Janie:
I love him too :( more than I can take.

I smile too big at that text and locked Calum's phone before handing it back to him.

"Don't tell the others I've been texting her. Michael will think I have a thing with her, and Ashton will feel bad, she doesn't want to bother his wedding planning," Calum explained.

"As long as you show me what she's saying about me," I promised.

"Luke I don't think she'd want that. She wants you to move on," he sighed.

"Even if I wanted to, I couldn't," I replied honestly.

"Fine as long as you're happy," Calum shrugged and we walked out of the room ready to go back on stage.

I had my new way to feel loved by her, reading Calum's texts.

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(A/n)

Hey guys! What do you think??

I'm really emotionally attached to my characters, so it's a bit of a struggle to know this story is ending soon. This story and the characters in it are my Babies.

But anyway. What do you think will happen?

QOTD:
What's your favorite 5sos ships?

Mine are personally Cake and Malum and maybe even Lashton. I'm weird.

Anywho. I love 5 Seconds Of Summer but I would probably die if they read this cause this story is so weird.

They're all I have cause every other teen guy in my life leaves me. So 5 Seconds Of Summer is all I have faith in anymore when it comes to guys. My boyfriend is leaving this weekend so, yay me.

Sorry for spelling errors, I'm sorry I can't be perfect.

Anyway...

Love you!

Xoxo

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