(Luke's pov)

I woke up with a little regret about it. I didn't want to get up and out of bed. Today I had to watch Janie leave me. The first girl I actually felt a connection with from the start. She'd leave me. Possibly forever.

"Get up lazy bones!" An angelic voice called jumping into my bunk on top of me, she seemed just as surprised she was on top of me as I was, "I'm leaving!"

"I don't want you to," I sighed staring at her gorgeous features.

Her round blushed cheeks, how I remembered how soft they were.

Her hair was still a little purple but her light brown hair was growing in from the top of her head.

I stared back at her blue eyes and noticed they were staring at me, I did love the color of her eyes. Sure I have blue eyes, but hers are a really dark, deep blue.

Her perfectly pink lips were moving, but I didn't hear anything. I watched her lips thinking about the first time I kissed her, in that closet, I felt like an awful person. That was the day I knew I loved her, because nothing so wrong could feel as right as my lips on hers. And I usually wasn't one to constantly dream and think about kissing. I was more of a hugger or cuddler. I only kissed a girl if I knew I really liked her.

Suddenly her thumb and index finger clicked in front of my face as I snapped back into reality.

"Were you listening to anything I just said?" Janie rolled her eyes. This is where most guys would say of course and just nod at everything, pretending to care. But I wasn't one of those guys, I did care about what Janie says, I just was too interested in her features to notice.

"Uhm... No... I'm sorry I was just-"

"Distracted? Thinking? Staring at me?" Janie cut me off. Damn she was good!

"Yes, yes and... Uhmm..." I bit my lip thinking if I should lie about that last part.

"Luke you were obviously staring at me, you haven't looked away smiling for five minutes," Janie laughed getting off me and putting her hand out, "C'mon we have to go to the airport soon."

I grabbed her hand smiling and climbing out of my bunk. My heart pumped out of my chest at the contact. But then I frowned, her hands were ice cubes.

"Why are your hands so cold?" I let go looking down at her.

"Cause I'm cold?" She shrugged and walked over to Ashton who, unlike me, was fully dressed. "Go get dressed, I'll call a taxi and Ashton and I can put my stuff in." I stood there for a minute forgetting she was telling me to do something.

"Luke Hemmings!!" Ashton yelled laughing, "You alive?"

"Uh... Yeah!" I fake laughed trying to hide my lack of thinking. Then I went to my bunk and grabbed clean clothes out of my suitcase to put on. After changing in the bathroom I walked out to hear... crying?

"I'll miss you, you purple haired saint!" Michael sniffled hugging the shorter girl. I smiled a bit mainly because Michael didn't show any real care towards her until now.

"I'll see you guys again one day don't worry," Janie smiled pulling away.

But I could tell that smile was fake, she really wanted to cry.

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(Janie's pov)

"Bye everyone," I teared up as Ashton carried my things off the bus. Jay was the first one I hugged, being she was the first girl I opened up to completely about everything. Tears fought their way through my eyes and onto her shirt. I let go smiling and looked at Michael.

Michael was full on sobbing which hurt me. I didn't really talk to Michael that much, but I did care about him, and he obviously did care about me too. "I'll miss you, you purple haired saint!" Michael nearly yelled pulling me into a hug. I stayed like that for a minute savoring the hug. Michael, unlike everyone else, wasn't the biggest hugger, towards me at least. I let go and told them I'll see them all again one day.

Calum stared at me as I smiled at him, he was my friend. Like a real friend. The first guy I could talk to without fear one will fall in love with the other. Which is something you should savor. I didn't hesitate a second to hug him, burying my face in his chest trying to hide the tears. I wasn't dying and this may sound dramatic to some, but when you spend months on a bus with a group of people without a break from them, you tend to feel a sense to attachment and bond with them, it's hard.

"Don't worry," Calum pat my back, "I can still beat you at indoor soccer whether it's on a bus or we meet up another time."

"Shut up," I pulled away laughing slightly. There was one more person I had to say bye to before the airport. Blair.

I tackled her in a hug not caring if she could breath or not. Although since she's getting married, I think Ashton would prefer I don't suffocate her.

"Thank you." Was all I needed to say to her, she knew what, I knew what. No one else needed to know. "Marry him good for me," I winked pulling out of the hug. At first she gave me a weird look but then laughed.

"You better text me or I will personally fly out to America and search every state for you," Blair sniffled.

"Same over here!" Jay agreed. I laughed not wanting to leave now.

"Ready to go?" Ashton smiled weirdly, I assumed the cab driver was giving him a hard time.

"Yep, ready Hemmings?" I looked at Luke who just smiled a fake smile and nodded. The three of us got off the bus and piled into the cab. I think Ashton purposely sat in the front with the driver so I was with Luke in the back, alone.
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The airport was a half hour away and we were twenty minutes into the ride. No one talked until now.

"So Janie," Ashton started smirking at me, "I shouldn't reserve you a spot next to someone at the wedding?"

"No Ash, sorry," I replied. I feel like deeply, Ashton thought I was coming. And I wanted to, I just I also wanted to get over Luke and to not add drama to Ash's wedding.

"I'm sorry," Luke bit his lip staring at his legs, I mean I would be looking there too if it didn't make me seem like a creep.

"For what?" I raised my eyebrow and stared at him.

"Ruining your life," Luke bit his lip not looking at me.

"You didn't ruin my life Luke, you made it better, I promise you," I put my hand on his knee. I don't know why I did, but I did. He stared at my hand before reaching for it and putting his hand on mine then looked me in the eyes.

Oh how I loved his eyes. Sure I have blue eyes, but his were so bright and beautiful.

Before I knew it the taxi was pulled up in front of the airport and Ashton was paying the guy, then jumped out of the taxi and popping the trunk. Which didn't make the driver too happy, he gave ash a rant about how no one touches the trunk blah blah blah.

We were inside the airport and I had to get my luggage checked. Which took a good ten minutes. As I got my bag back, Luke paused and clutched Ashton's shoulder staring ahead. There were girls. The girls had 5 Seconds Of Summer tees on and were currently taking selfies or something. OH THEY WERE FANS! I knew that!

"Janie put these on," I turned to Ashton to see both him and Luke had hoddies and sunglasses on. I look a pair of sunglasses from Ashton's hand.

"Why do I need them?" I put the glasses on.

"They know you, you were known for dating me silly," Ashton explained.

"AND ME!" Luke added, which was unnecessary.

"Okay?" I rolled my eyes but Luke obviously didn't see.

We kept walking, silently, until we got to the gate. Luke and Ashton didn't have plane tickets, so they obviously couldn't pass the gate.

I just stared at them biting my lip so hard I'm shocked it wasn't bleeding yet. Luke had the same face but tried to look less emotional, but failed. Ashton smiled at me with slight tears in his eyes. He was the first to speak.

"So this is goodbye?" Ashton stared at me.

"No," I shook my head, "Goodbye means leaving forever, I'll see you again one day."

"I look forward to that day," Ashton smiled bringing me into a hug and kissing my cheek.

"I'll really miss you Ash," my voice struggled to be above a whisper.

"I'll miss you too, try not to hypnotize anymore boys into loving you while I'm getting married," Ashton chuckled humorously. One thing that I love about Ashton, is he can always make you smile no matter what. It's impossible to not smile around him.

"I'll try my best," I laughed a little before sniffling. Ashton pulled away and kissed my forehead. Then backed away. I love him. I would miss him a great deal and I don't know what I will do apart from him. My tears came down again but they were unseen due to my glasses. I could see the usually smiley boy's smile fade slightly as he backed away.

"Keep Mr.Flippers safe," Luke said with a straight face. I smiled remembering the stuffed penguin in my suitcase.

"I will Luke don't worry."

"Make sure to feed him plenty of fish and cuddle him when he's lonely," Luke added on smiling.

"I promise I will," I nodded quickly hugging Luke. I rested my head on his chest and squeezed him tightly. Luke rested his chin on the top of my head and hugged me just as tight. "You know Luke, out of all the men I've put under my spell," I smirked joking, "I never thought any of them would cast a spell themselves."

I felt Luke chuckle and then I heard the voice I've been dreading to hear, "Flight 786 to JFK Airport boarding."

"Bye Luke," I sighed letting go of the hug and starting to walk towards the door.

But I couldn't enter.

I just couldn't. I stopped right before I walked on line to board and turned around. I ran back and quickly hugged them both, "I'll miss you more than anything."

"We'll both miss you too," Ashton clarified. Luke took a deep breath.

"Janie, can I talk to you really quick before you board?" Luke asked. I let go of them and walked to the side with Luke.

"What is it?"

"Well I won't be seeing you for a while... And-"

"Doors closing for flight 786 in one minute," The loud speaker cut him off.

"And?" I looked back at Luke removing my sunglasses and looking at him clearly.

"I just wanted to know if I could just uhm... You know... Like... Just one last time... Get a uhm... Kiss?" Luke asked awkwardly. My heart fluttered. I wanted nothing more than to kiss him and cuddle with him and live happily ever after, but this wasn't a fairy tale. "Please Janie...?" I took a deep breath and nodded.

Luke took his sunglasses off and then without hesitation bent down and pressed his lips against mine. I miss this, I miss him. His lips on mine felt new yet to familiar, it felt like it was forever ago that I kissed him. The best part is, it hasn't changed. I still felt the same connection and passion that I felt in our first kiss.

I stood on my tip toes trying to be just as tall as him so he doesn't have to face down. But I was only 5"7 I wasn't gonna reach his height.

I placed my hand on his cheek while his arms were around my waist. I could feel people staring. I could feel the time ticking down, closer to when I have to leave.

"Thirty seconds before doors close," the loud speaker of the area called.

I added more passion right before I pulled away, we both had tears in my eyes. Sure I could stay. I could forget the dolls, forget that he doesn't really love me, forget it all and take him back. That'd be what the girl would do in a book, stay, all because of a kiss. But that's not reality.

I pecked Luke's lips quickly again before waving to Ashton and running to the door. The moment most people in a romance movie wouldn't let happen.

I did love Luke though.

As I handed my ticket to the lady and she checked it I ran onto the plane and sat down. The doors closed as I took out the penguin and hugged it. Popped my headphones in.

Stay Awake by All Time Low played through my earbuds.

Dedication takes a lifetime, but dreams only last for a night.

Luke was my dedication that would take a lifetime to get over, but now all he can be is a dream I'll never get to live again. One reason it's easier to sleep than stay awake.

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(A/n)

I was crying typing this honestly. I have gotten a connection with these characters I've made.
Janie is my baby and hurt pain hurts me too.

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