You are the spirit of water
And you've been one with it
But now you feel like you're drowning
In a ocean you never were a part of

And soon you feel flowers growing
Climbing up your body and clinging to it
Roses in different shades of blue flowering
A blue rose representing the impossible or unattainable
The rarest of the rarest
Something so rare it's impossible to achieve

But then you feel a hand grabbing yours
A grip tight and secure that starts to pull you up
You brake the surface of the ocean
The ocean you no longer are a part of

You open your eyes and look right into violet ones
They're filled with worry and concern
The person the eyes belong to starts talking
Their lips are moving
You can see it
But you can't make out a sound they're making
You stare at them confused and wondering

Why?
Why have they saved you
Why do they look worried
Why are they concerned

You are worthless
You aren't worth saving
You aren't worth being worried about
You aren't worth being concerned for
You aren't worth being a part of the team
You are no defender of the universe

But then a new thought arises in your mind

How?
How did they find you
How did they know you were gone
How did they know where to look

You start to feel tired
You start to dose off
The person talking to you
Scolding you
Seems to notice and grabs you by the shoulder
He says something

But you just start falling forward
The person grabs you
He cradles you in his arms
A feeling so familiar but yet so unfamiliar

He carries you bridal style and starts running
Running with everything he has
You can feel the flowers clinging and dragging to your body

But you don't care you're tired and want to sleep
Close your eyes and hope they never open again

The person carrying you screams
The screams are urgent and worried filled with fear and desperation
You don't have to hear what they're screaming to know they want you to stay awake
But you could care less
And you close your eyes going limp in the arms of the one carrying you

The next time you regain consciousness you are falling forward
Too tired to catch yourself you fall
But someone catches you
The person catching you holds you up
Waiting for you to stand on your own
When you don't they slowly sink down to the floor

And you realize that you no longer are clad in flowers but a white body suit
You've been clad in it once before
Not too long ago
Maybe a month or so ago
It takes you a while to realize that people are talking to you
You know they're speaking to you
But you can't make out a sound
One of them are quieting the rest down
And you realize that it's the person who's arms you're in

He is muscular and has a robotic arm
He looks down at you with worried grey eyes filled with concern and fear and relief
You start to wonder why they're feeling relieved seeing you ok

But you let it slide
They slowly let go of your arms
And brings their hands in front of them

They started moving their hands
They open and close their hands
They move them in circles
They bring up fingers and then take them down again

They're signing
Not the way you sign a paper or sign your autograph
But they're signing in a language
A language you understand
And you wonder how the person in front of you knows it

You just stare at them for a moment when they're done
You slowly start to bring your hands to your ears
And you pick something out of both of them
They're small and they're blue they look a little weird and unlike the rest of its kind

They are the perfect size to fit in your ear and go deep enough to not be seen
You give them to the person in front of you
Embarrassed you let them go and withdraw your hands back to your body

The person in front of you looks at them
He starts saying something to someone behind them

But you too embarrassed to look up from the floor doesn't look
Your head is facing the floor
Looking at your hands
You slowly look up
You can only see the person in front of you give the small blue pieces of electronics away to someone beside them

He faces you again and taps your shoulder to get your attention
You look up at them
But you avoid eye contact
They know they have your attention so they start to sign again

You just nod understanding what they're saying
They sign something else and you nod again
They turn around to face someone else and says something

The person spoken to nods and runs away
A few minutes later and the person is back
You glance at the person
They're clad in different shades of yellow and green some orange and brown here and there pops up

They give a bag to the person in front of you
You don't have to hear them to know they're asking what the person in front of you is looking for
The person in front of you says something and takes something out of the bag

It's a black case and the person gives it to you
You accept but doesn't open it
The person in front of you signs again and you nod
He turns and says something to everybody in the room

All of them nod except one
The rest of them leaves the room but one
He stands still and looks worried at you
The violet eyes are concerned and you just look away

You can't face him, you just can't
So you look away
You realize that the person in front of you says something and the violet eyed boy looks at the person in front of you then at you and then back at the person in front of and nods

He is about to exit the room when he turns around
The person in front of you nods and the violet eyed boy nods and exits the room

The automatic doors close and the person in front of you turns back to you and smiles
You smile back but it's forced
You open the case and take out similar looking electronics as the blue ones you had in your ears
But these ones are black

You pick them up and place them in your ears
Sounds start to get clear and you can make them out
The person in front of you starts talking and you can hear them
But you stay quiet and look away
Too embarrassed to face them or talking to them

To explain why you did what you did
Why you didn't talk to him
To any of them
The person in front of you starts scolding you
Starts to ask questions you don't want to answer

You start to tear up
And the person in front of you seems to notice as he stops talking
The tears follow soon after the silence and the person in front of you embraces you
And that's the last straw as you break down clinging onto the person in front of you for dear life

The person in front of you tightens their grip around you and shushes you softly
He apologizes for scolding you and you cry harder

The person embracing you speaks reassuring words that are comforting and understanding
You slowly start to calm down
The person holding you brakes the embrace and looks at you

You whisper something so quietly it can't even be classified as a whisper
The person in front of you asks you to say it a little louder
And you repeat what you said this time a little louder
It's still barely a whisper but the person seems to hear you as he tells you not to be sorry

But you don't stop
You keep apologizing until you are full out screaming it for the whole galaxy to hear

The person in front of you brings you back into a hug as you keep screaming out apologizes you shouldn't be
The person in front of you calms you down and is shushing you again
You start to feel tired again
And you start falling forward leaning on the person hugging you and he says something
You nod and he brings you up in their arms
Once again it's bridal style

He starts walking
Taking you through long quiet dark corridors
You expect they're taking you to your room
But when you pass it you wonder where they're taking you
They stop in front of a door
The door isn't yours so you assume it's the person in who's arms you are being carried in
And indeed it is the room of the person carrying you
He places you on his bed and leaves you for a moment returning with a change of clothes for you

He asks you a question and you think for a moment before nodding
The person carries you to the bathroom
He undresses you and places you in the bathtub
The water that's been filling for a minute or two is warm
It's not burning hot but it isn't lukewarm either but warm
You could say the temperature was "just right"
You sink into the water
Too tired to actually care if you go under the surface
The person that's now at your side looks at you with concerned and caring grey eyes
He has a washcloth in his hands

The washcloth is soapy and you can see a little foam on it
The person beside you takes your right arm tenderly and carefully
Like you were made out of glass
The person starts cleaning you
It's so carefully and tenderly done that you barely can feel it at all

The person goes over to your other arm
And then he starts to drain the water to clean the rest of your body
He goes over to your back and then your chest and then your legs
He doesn't mention the pale lines that showed up on your arms and legs
And he doesn't mention how thin you are

He just clears your body from the foam and then brings you a towel

He puts the towel around you
And brings you back into his room
He starts to dress you in soft baggy pants and a T-shirt

He lays you down in the bed and brings the covers up to your chin
He turns around and takes the chair behind him turning it he sits down on it beside the bed

You face the wall still ashamed to face him
He asks you a question and you don't make a sound nor a move to answer it
He asks you another question and this time you whisper something loud enough to be heard
The person beside you grabs your shoulder and you face him
He says something and you nod answering it this time

You explain everything
From the way you've been feeling to how you started harming yourself
You tell them that you don't feel like you're a part of the ocean anymore
How you felt like you were drowning in a ocean you were no longer a part of
And the flowers
And how you didn't deserve to be a part of the team
Or that you didn't deserve to be saved

And how you didn't deserve anything
You told him how you were a freak
That you liked someone of the same sort
That you have sinned
You feel in the pockets of your pants to find some prayer beads

(Like these, and please don't hate on any religion here we respect all beliefs)

You continue explaining why you were impure and a sinner
How by liking someone of the same sort you deserved a place in hell
The person next to you stops you from continuing

He explains to you that you haven't sinned
That you aren't a sinner
That you can't deny liking someone whether it be the same sort or not

You look up in surprise when they mention someone back home
Someone they care about
He asks you a question
And you answer it quickly
Saying that "no it's not true, you aren't a sinner" and "why would my point of view change, you are still you"
They smile answering "exactly"

And you realize something and smile back
You thank them and hug them
They hug you back saying
"Never doubt yourself or think that of yourself EVER again"
You nod and you brake the hug
You lay down in bed and you close your eyes you hear the person bid you goodnight and you feel yourself mumbling one in return before you fall asleep

The next morning you wake up startled
The person beside you calms you down and simply asks you if you want to talk about it
When you shake your head he leaves it at that
He asks you if you want to go get breakfast
When you nod your head he offers a hand and you accept

When you enter the dining hall breakfast is already on the table and so is the rest of the team They are sitting and talking to each other but stop when the doors open

They say a good morning in union and you and the person beside you say one in return
You sit down beside the person that dragged you out of the water and the person walking in with you sits down on your other side

You don't say much you only make agreeing or disagreeing sounds and motions
You only talk when necessary and even then you speak as little as possible
You leave after eating and you excuse yourself politely
You leave and go to the training room

While there you decide to get some sharp shooting down
You don't miss a single target but you hear something
The sound of someone being impressed
You turn around to see the person with violet eyes looking at you leaning against the door frame

You ask him why he's here
He simply answers that he just want to talk
You decide to accept
He starts by asking why
And you look away
Mumbling an explanation

The person now standing in front of you seems to accept it and continues by saying that you could always come to him if you needed to

You nod and look embarrassed at the person in front of you
They look into your deep blue eyes and you look into his violet ones
You get lost in each others gaze and start to close the distance between you

And then without thinking or knowing what's happening you lock lips
You brake it after a minute or so and you start to freak out

And you start apologizing
The person stops you and says it's ok
He looks embarrassed as he confesses his feelings for you
You look at them surprised but then you return the confession

You stare at each other again
Then you close the distance between you again
And your lips lock again

You stay like that for a while until the need of oxygen becomes too much
You both gasp for air and then you stare at each other until laughter fills the room and you just stand there laughing
Your mind drifts off to the conversation last night and you smile remembering the words Shiro spoke

"Lance, you should be proud of who you are and what you've become it doesn't matter who you like or why, you should always feel pride in yourself no matter who you like or what you feel like you should be, you should always be positive"

And with those thoughts you and Keith get closer and hug each other just standing there.

The end.

OMG GUYS THIS IS MY FIRST FANFIC IN IDK OVER A YEAR OMG I HAVE HAD THE LONGEST WRITERS BLOCK EVER I DIDN'T THINK IT WOULD LAST THIS LONG AND GREAT WAY TO MAKE A COMEBACK WITH MY FIRST VLD ONE SHOT THIS WAS WRITTEN A FEW DAYS AGO ON INSTAGRAM IN THE DM'S WITH A FRIEND OF MINE AND I JUST COPY PASTED IT AND EDITED IT TO FIX SOME MISTAKES AND CHANGE SOME SENTENCES AND NOW HERE WE ARE YAY HOPE YOU LIKED THE ANGSTY SHIT GOODBYE AND HAVE A NICE DAY (WELL AS NICE AS IT CAN BE AFTER THIS)