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𝙧𝙤𝙝 𝙝𝙮𝙚𝙤𝙣𝙖

i should've just let him have the remote, for christ sake. curse my goddamn godly reflexes!!!

joohyuk missed the remote, and then somehow managed to push me down along him onto the sofa.

it suddenly felt like the room for ten times hotter. and apparently frozen too, because nobody was moving, nonetheless probably breathing.

"you could've just asked for it..." i mumbled, avoiding any eye contact possible.

"you wouldn't have given it to me anyways." joohyuk said, clearly distracted.

i gulped, my mind and body freezing over a situation like this.

"you...you know i like you right?"

immediately, my eyes shifted to his. "what?"

"i like you. you're the one i was talking about."

"hold on—joo—"

i was suddenly interrupted when joohyuk leaned down and placed his lips over mine. my eyes would've widened at the quick movement, if they weren't already wide by his statement prior to the action. the remote hit the ground like a small thump then i let go of it unconsciously.

i should've known that he liked me. who knew i could be so incredibly stupid?

i was also incredibly stupid for enjoying the little moment we were having. the kiss that i had so dearly longed for, yet just couldn't do. i knew that the moment it happened it would only get worse. we would only want more.

and then i would lose someone like him. a friend. but with benefits. scratch that, i'm never saying that in my head again.

after a good hot minute or so, joohyuk and i parted from each other's lips, and boy was i totally messed up.

i didn't even know i longed for a kiss like that so badly until it actually happened.

we didn't say anything for a long time, regaining our breaths for a few moments. when it was complete silence once again, joohyuk leaned down for kiss number dos until...

"wait." i muttered.

he stopped, slowly leaning back. "do you hate it?" he asked.

i probably shook my head like my life depended on it. "n-no. it's just...it's just..."

"are we just friends?" joohyuk asked.

"...." i stayed silent, nibbling on my lip.

"...you only see me as a friend, don't you?" he asked.

i don't. i really don't. i've tried to see him as just a friend as much as possible, but no matter what, i really can't.

"that's not it." i said. "for fucks sake, i don't even know! it's like, i'm paranoid and want to pretend you're just a friend, but then when you do these things i start to really, really, like you and it's confusing the hell out of me—"

joohyuk suddenly leaned down and pecked me on the lips. "you should've just said that from the start!"

"do you know how embarrassing—"

this time, joohyuk grabbed my face and we started again. by now, it was really heated and i tried to convince myself that the room was probably just getting hotter. everything was perfect though, it really was. he was a good kisser, which made me curious of why and how. just curious, that's all.

"i don't know what it is you're worried about..." joohyuk started, "but can we just forget about it all tonight? just for tonight. and then, we'll pretend like nothing ever happened, if that's what you want."

i paused. "are you sure?"

he nodded, and then grinned at me. "i can even wait forever, because that's how much i like you." joohyuk said in a flirty tone.

my cheeks grew hot and i scoffed. "i don't believe it."

"i swear i'm not lying! but don't test me."

"alright then."

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