You’re not coming, (Y/N)!”, Scott yelled and made me cringe. It was unlike him to lose his patience, which is why he caught me off guard. “He is my friend, too Scott!”, I screamed back, tears coming to my eyes. “And he won’t forgive me if something would happen to you. Any of us. Just stay here and let us handle this.”, he tried to calm himself down, but I still could feel the anger in his voice.

“Sure, because he always cared so much about me. I’m not Lydia, Scott.”, I snorted before I even knew what I said. I blinked at Lydia before I turned around. I knew I couldn’t hold back the tears for much longer. “Fine. Just go.”

It’s been days and since then I haven’t talked to any of the pack's members. I didn’t answer calls nor opened the door when they came over. I was too embarrassed over myself, to look any of them in the eye. Until this day only Scott knew how I felt about Stiles. I kept it a secret for years now and just because I let my feelings overflow the whole pack learned about it. I was pretty sure I would have never said a thing if things weren’t a complete mess at the moment. Everybody worried about Stiles since the Nogitsune took control over him and my nerves were raw.

But staying at home doing nothing didn’t make any of this better. I felt useless, sitting in my room, while the others were searching for him and trying to find a way to help Stiles. I couldn’t sit down for a minute and sleeping wasn’t an option these days.

I tried to get some rest, turn my mind off and browsed through the book on my lap without even reading a word. There was no use of it. As I took a look up, I realized the sky turned dark already. The next moment the book flew across the room until it hit the wall. I got myself up without giving a thought to what I was doing. My body moved all by itself and the next thing I remembered, was slamming the door behind me.

“Hey (Y/N)!”, Isaac’s voice took me back into reality. I wheeled around to face the blonde werewolf. “Isaac. Why aren’t you with the others?”, I asked skeptically. He scratched his head, why I already knew the answer. “I’ve been just on my way to them.” “Right… because it isn’t another direction. Listen, Isaac, I’m not going anywhere, doing something stupid. I just wanted to do some shopping. Get my mind off, you know?”, I said in a calm voice, trying to convince him. “Then you don’t mind my accompany, do you?” “You’d better go to the others and help them find Stiles. I can care for my bags myself.” I saw he was of two minds about what to do next. “It’s fine, Isaac. Just to help them. You’re of more use there than here, helping me buying groceries.” I added with a smile. “Alright, but if anything happens…” “I’ll call you guys. Copy that.”

Relieved I took a deep breath as I finally sat in my car, pulling out of the driveway. I had no clue where I was going but I knew it didn’t matter.

After hours of driving around blindly, I finally decided to make my way back home, though I knew I couldn’t stand another minute there, being all alone and waiting for news. My mother was off for work for a few days, but being honest I was glad she wasn’t there. Otherwise, she would only worry about me once again and sure wouldn’t stop asking what’s going on.

Being exhausted I walked in. Without switching a light on, I walked upstairs and into my room. My eyes adjusted to the darkness surrounding me and as I entered the room and closed the door behind me when I turned around, I saw a silhouette, sitting on my bed.

My eyes widened as I realized who was sitting there and my eyes met with Stiles’. At least they used to be his eyes but I knew it was the Nogitsune I was looking at this moment.

“I was already wondering what takes you so long, (Y/N).” I got goosebumps as I heard his voice. A voice, I was so used to, which sounded so different right now. “What do you want?”, I replied coldly. Trying to keep me calm.

I wanted to keep the distance between us, why I stayed put. Even when he stood up, I didn’t move an inch. I really wanted to, but my body was unable to. “I expected another reaction, when you see me again, (Y/N).” “You’re not Stiles. I should punch you in the face, instead of just standing here, talking to you. This would be a suitable reaction. So I ask only one more time – What do you want?”, I burst into shivers.

He got in motion, slowly moving towards me, my body still out of my control. “No, you wouldn’t punch me. Not while I’m in this body. You wouldn’t dare to hurt your beloved Stiles.” I narrowed my eyes to slits. “I would and I will if you come any closer. On that, you can be sure.” I said, feeling my voice getting weaker.

He flashed a smile before he kept going. “You know, it’s funny. I know everything Stiles knows. Know what he feels. How he cares about all of you…”, he began and I had to clear my throat. “It’s funny how he never realized what you feel for him, while I did, the moment I first saw the way you looked at him.”

He stood next to me, being dangerously close. I tried to pull away but my body was paralyzed. “Not that I mind, but why do you even bother holding onto someone who probably never will reciprocate your feelings? Doesn’t it hurt to see the way he looks at Lydia? I bet it’s hard to bear it.”, he said in a low voice, his face only inches away from mine.

could feel his warm breath on my skin, while he ran one of his fingers down my cheeks. “Get. Away. From. Me.”, I pressed between my lips, with a shiver in my voice. “It’s not that easy, little kitten. He was screaming the same just a moment ago. He begged me to leave you alonwantdidn’t wanted me to come here, you know?” As I heard his words, I snorted, looking coldly right into his eyes. “Ye, ah, of course, he did.”, I said in a sarcastic tone. I heard a little laughter right into my ear. “I told him you wouldn’t believe it.” “Obviously  not. You’re a homicidal demon, nested in my best friends body and you want me to it's He placed its finger on my lips to shut me down. “We both know that’s not the reason. You don’t believe he feels this way about you. You’re just not being honest with yourself.” I turned away. I knew I got busted and so did he. “Isn’t it much easier to admit it? To admit to yourself, it’s a dead end?” I didn’t dare to lift my face again and look at him, but I could tell, even without seeing it, that a smile appeared on his lips. “He can’t stand the idea me being this close to you. And for sure he doesn’t like to see you this hurt.”, he said amused, while his finger ran to my chin and pulled my face back up. “If you want to hurt his feelings, go play your games with someone else.”, I replied in anger, not even giving a thought about it. Once again my feelings took control of my mouth. He wagged his head, still smiling. “Oh no, little doll. I’m not that easy to get rid off and more important – I’m at exactly the right place, with exactly the right person.” My body weakened. With every s,second passing it got cameo keep me on my feet. “I’m not…” “Lydia? I’m well aware of that, (Y/N). But I didn’t pay you a visit to the rt Stiles in the first place. That’s just a nice and most welcome side effect.” I eyed him critically. “Now you’re getting curious, aren’t you? Why would I come for someone, so unimportant?t as you are. What would I want with you, if I could get one ? f the others. That’s what you’re thinking, aren’t you?” The more he said, I felt his words twistithroughir way through my blood like poison. He was right about it, but it was hard to admit it. Once again I cleared my throat. “You see, I realized something, not even you could see in first place, nor did one of the others. Scott, Kira, Allison, Isaac… not even Stiles could see the potential you have. All those little things, giving you a strength you didn’t even realize you have. All those things are just a burden in your eyes. But that’s the point. You are so much more than this little, fragile human you think you are. If I could just get you to see it. See the person you really are, you would understand why I came for you first of all.” His words twisted their way into my mind and made me feel even colder. I wanted to say something but my voice was lost. I couldn’t find the strength to open my mouth. I was unable to tell him to ,get away. “Oh I can feel it. The bittersweet pain you’re going through right now. But you’re not afraid, (Y/N). I feel the rage rising.” His hand wandered to my neck and he pulled me closer, as he took a deep breath. “We are much more alike than you think we are, little dove. Some part of you is drawn to me. I can see it in the way you look at me and it’s not because of Stiles. It’s not because of this body. Even now you’re holding back the pain, but you must learn that in the end, I always get what I want.” He said before he leaned down. His cold lips, pressed against mine. The lips, I wished to feel on mine for so long. He pulled me into a demanding, passionate kiss. Even thowantdidn’t wanted to, after a while I gave in. I felt all the pain, I had locked away deep inside me for so many years, just flew away. The moment, I realized why he was kissing me, I pushed him away. “See, that’s what I’m talking about.”, he said smirking.

“Don’t you dare to touch me ever again. Don’t you dare to ?o?e ?n??cl,os,er ,ag,a,in? Otherwise, I’ll give you what for! If the pack won’t find you, I will. And no matter what comes out of your twisted mouth, you’re never gonna take Stiles place. You won’t get away with this stupid games you’re playing!”, I, h,is,ed, ,angrily.

“Oh, I’m sure you will. I even count on that, because once you figured out I am right, you’ll be begging for more.”, he said amused, while he headed for the window.

“That’s never going to happen!”, I disagreed, furious. “Don’t be so sure about that. But just in case you won’t find your way to me, let me tell you this - Once I go and ago didn't let go and right now you’re what I want. So if you won’t come to a clear mind, I promise, I will find my way to get you, (Y/N)” The next second he already jumped out of the window. Exhausted and confused I slowly sank down at my door. My mind was running. Pulliwrappingingpingpinge and wrapping my arms around them, trying to stop myself from shivering, I sat there for hours. Trying to cope with what just happened.