im tired.

sh really got the best of me, you know?

yesterday, like, fucking 3 month clean and my stupid brain told me to cut my wrist 'cause i felt empty and shit. =)))

that, totally caught me off guard.

well, damn, last night i cried a lot. 5 7 drop of tear but thats a lot, cause i cant cry and that suck.

still glad that i can cry. eventhough its not enough for me to take things out.

rn, my brain still insult me and want me to jump off some roof, or take all the pill in my house, or just cut my arms till i die.

well, and my anger issue, too. it make the day got harder and harder.

idk but if i think and write and talk in english, it calm me down.

sorry about the mistakes. i just vent out in here.

my sis want me to go to see therapist, but i dont want to. and she didnt notice that i just change the topic to the game we play together so i just stick with that.

¯\_(ツ)_/¯ still wanna die.

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