I really want to write.

I've been re-reading December by starlight , and her writing is so unexplainably beautiful. I want to write a story like her. I want to create a world for myself and my imagination. Maybe it's just because I'm not good at committing myself to doing things, or because I get bored really easily, or because I'm super lazy, but I really want to write.

I have a lot of drafts. I really want to make those drafts into something entirely new. I'm not taking a break from graphic making. Creating graphics helps me express my feelings too. But writing would help lift a burden off my stomach.

Idk, you guys. A lot has happened lately, and I'm okay, but I need a vessel for all these things in my mind.  Everything is pouring out and I can't really decide if I like it or not.

Stories will help me. I will try. I promise.

-reasons why I'm happy-
- my crush put his hand next to mine. is breathing an option anymore or-
- my friends are amazing. all of them, including my online and irl friends, are extremely supportive and I love them so much.
-I'm getting really good grades. I'm so proud of myself for trying to do my best.
-I see smiles everyday, and that makes me so happy.
-THERE'S AN ADORABLE DOG IN OUR SCHOOL GYMNASIUM AND WE GET TO SEE HER ALMOST EVERY DAY
( when my crush plays with animals it's 2x the cuteness and I get all flustered )