I watch in awe as the last light slowly fades out and leaves the room as it once was.

I stare at the spot Natsu has just been standing moments ago.

"He's gone. He's really gone."

My gaze drops.

What now?

"What now, Lucy?"

Natsu takes the words right from my head.

I open and close my mouth, unsure of what to say.

"What. Now. Lucy."

My eyes widen and my gaze raises up to Natsu, who has his fists clenched at his sides and his teeth clenched.

"What do we do now, huh?!"

He yells with his face pointed towards the ground, hiding his expression from me.

He doesn't know what to do.

He feels torn because there's nothing he could do and deep down I know that he fears the future.

He feels lost .

"I don't know, Natsu."

He needs to know that I do too.

He pauses and slowly looks up to me, his body relaxing.

"There's nothing really we can do, Natsu. All we can do now is live."

"With what we know?"

I frown and nod my head.

"We keep this secret to ourselves and keep living. We have to try to live but we can't ever forget."

He nods his head.

"What do you say we try to get some rest?"

He nods again and goes straight for the couch. I flip off the lights and lay down in my bed.

Not another word gets spoken but I know neither of us got any sleep that night.

It was easy to keep living when everything was still the same.

It was difficult the first couple of days, but then I had pushed it to the back of my head. Natsu couldn't do that. He was moody and irritable for months.

It wasn't until that terrible day that I realized how I shouldn't have just tried to keep living. It was also that day that Natsu finally decided to forget what we were told and not care about what would happen that day.

It was easy to think I would keep my promise when I hadn't had to face what that truly meant...