I have no idea if anyone is going to see this right now, but really I gotta vent for a sec.

So I'm watching vampire diaries right? Right.

Well first off I was freaking pissed off with Elena for being stupid with stuff with Stefen and I'm like you are so happy with what you have and your relationship right now, do not throw it away just for stefen. Luckily she wasn't completely stupid and didn't kiss him.

And then the episode is just so so sad. Like why everybody got to die.

I was in bed sniffling and crying a little bit and my mom comes in asking if I want to go get a drink and I told her no.

Five minutes later, I'm like full on sobbing at this point over the episode and my brother comes in and tells me to get my butt in the car and come get drinks.

Stupid fictional characters.

Why you do me like this.

Why you make me cry.

Also I'm really just really sad and depressed and lonely and I'm just a mess.

Like I just want and need my friends.

I'm tired of trying so hard for people and trying so hard for attention when it's all one sided and no one returns the attention for me. I have no friends I swear.

No one wants to hang out with me.

No one cares to talk to me.

I don't have anyone anymore I would consider a best friend or they consider me their best friend.

Life freaking sucks.