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„So... uhm... where do I have to put this...? Wait I think I still remember! Anything else?"

"Just look good and that's it. If you mess up they will think it's cute too."

"Wow you look like shit." Jimin stated eyeing Yoongi from head to toes as the older wrapped in his fluffy cocoon of blankets, heavy bags under his eyes poorly concealed by the soft make up he was wearing.

"Thanks man. I appreciate it." The older rolled his eyes, once again fixing his gaze on the television screen. He didn't just look like shit. Work was draining all his energy and he just felt like sleeping. But he couldn't. He had one more hour until he would have to leave again.

"I guess it's not the right time to suggest sex?" Jimin dropped onto the cushions next to Yoongi rather awkwardly, playing with the thought of leaning towards him, but he wasn't sure whether Yoongi was in the mood for his affection right now. The older just looked like he would fall asleep any second.

"It's not. I'm sorry, but I'm really tired..." His boyfriend apologized, getting rid of his wrapping and pulling Jimin closer before sighing loudly. "Seriously sorry."

"It's okay. Sex should be something fun for both of us not something you're pressured to do." Jimin whispered, but he couldn't help but feel awkward.

The reason Yoongi didn't have enough energy was left unspoken.

Being honest, Jimin hated this. He had been sure that the fact that Yoongi slept with other guys wouldn't change anything. He had had no problems with it before, so why would he now?

But it slowly came creeping to him. Yoongi slept with other guys. Not just 40-year-old business men, but also handsome young guys such as Taehyung. And it threw him off.

He couldn't help but wonder whether Yoongi might like sex with one of them more than him. In the end he was an inexperienced virgin in the depth of his heart. There would be ones that were better at jerking Yoongi off, blowing him and riding him. There would be ones that had much stronger voices, moaning just the right way. There would be ones that were looking way better and smelled better.

It wasn't like Yoongi wasn't good at making him feel loved, but he felt insecure. What if he treated others the way he treated him? There must be someone whom he got to know somehow similar to the way he and Jimin had met. He knew Yoongi. He was nice to everyone and although he knew he was being egoistic, he hated that thought. He wanted Yoongi to be an asshole towards everyone but him.

He realized that Yoongi hadn't said anything in forever. Jimin pressed his lips into a thin line. A dense silence hung over them like a blanket. And then Yoongi opened his mouth again looking tired. Jimin felt sorry that he was draining even more energy from the older when he was supposed to be there for him instead.

"It's not something I'm pressured to do, with you. That's why I'm being honest with you. I don't want to sleep with you out of anything other than my own sex drive... so when I don't feel like sleeping with you... ah sorry that came out wrong." Although the atmosphere still was pretty tense, Jimin couldn't help but chuckle.

"What I'm trying to say is that I'm really tired and I would have to push myself to do something right now. And that's not what I want this to be. I want sleeping with you to be something special."

His voice was soft as he carefully ran his fingers through Jimin's blonde hair. He registered that Jimin's roots had slowly turned black again. It served as a great reminder of just how much time he and Jimin had already spent with each other. It's been months but it felt like days and at the same time years.

Since Jimin didn't seem to plan on responding to his earlier words, he decided to switch topic. "You're your hair is in due for a dye. Could I voice a suggestion for a new colour?" He pecked Jimin's cheek, making the other crunch his nose.

"Sure. What would you like?"

A/N

Which Jimin is your favorite? Haircolor wise?

I seriously can't decide betweem gray and pink