Let's talk

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Jimin bit his lip nervously. He had no idea how Yoongi would react. Sure, usually Yoongi was someone who kept his cool in almost every situation, but Jimin had cheated on him. That wasn't a normal everyday scenario.

Slowly he lifted his hand and knocked, just to jump back the moment the door opened, as if Yoongi had spent the whole night waiting for Jimin to appear, he stepped out and pulled the boy into a hug. The younger felt another wave of guilt wash over him. He'd really fucked up, if he had thought this was something he could do to Yoongi who cared this much about him.

Sensing Jimin's hesitance, Yoongi leant leant back a worried expression adorning his face as he searched Jimin's eyes. "Everything alright?"

Jimin shook his head. He could feel his chest tightening, tears slowly blurring his vision at Yoongi's worried expression. He was scared. He was in love with Yoongi. No matter what shit he had done last night, he really did love him. Last night had simply been anxiety and old habits coming through.

This thing with Yoongi wasn't something he could stand losing just because he was insecure and fucking stupid.

With it plain obvious that something wasn't right Yoongi reached his hand out to help Jimin calm down, but Jimin shyed away. He didn't want Yoongi to comfort him. Not without knowing how much Jimin had fucked up.

"What happened?" Yoongi's voice was soft, his eyes continuously searching Jimin's face like he was hoping the truth would somehow be there, written all over it.

After gathering his thoughts for a couple of seconds, Jimin finally managed to force the truth out. "I did it again."

"What did you do?" Yoongi reached his hand out, but Jimin gestured him to stop again. Nodding slowly dropped his hand by his side again. "Can you tell me?" He almost seemed relieved that Jimin was finally willing to talk. Was finally there willing to speak about whatever had been bothering him.

"I got all drunk yesterday and kind of hooked up with Taehyung..."

Yoongi's eyes got darker but his posture stayed relaxed. Non-threatening. "Kind off?"

"We didn't sleep with each other... it was just a lot of making out and touching."

Yoongi pressed his lips into a thin line, his jaw clenched. He didn't seem too happy about it, but he was surprisingly relaxed considering what Jimin had just told him.

"Do you want to come in? Talk about yesterday?" Yoongi's was still somewhat strained, but for some reason it didn't seem like he was directing his anger at Jimin. More like he was generally pissed off about the situation.

"Please... Yoongi. I'm sorry." He really was. There was still no way for him to grasp how this happened. How he could fuck up this badly.

"Don't worry. It wasn't just your fault. I knew about how insecure you have been feeling lately, but I didn't talk to you, because I wanted to wait some more... that was stupid. Leaving all that aside, let's talk. I think we really need to."

Jimin felt as if a weight had been lifted off of him. Apparently Yoongi knew more than he did and he didn't seem on edge, like the whole situation could have a bad outlook. And that was comforting to him. After all he still trusted Yoongi. He had all this time. But just because he did trust Yoongi that didn't mean the other couldn't lose interest. That wasn't something one had control over.

Forcing himself to control his breathing, he followed Yoongi into the living they had spent so many nights in, cuddled up to each other watching netflix shows or talking about the meaning of life, or just telling stories.

"Let's start off easy. What did you do yesterday and why? I mean I already have a pretty good picture, but how about more details on how you and Tae made out?" Yoongi tried easing up the situation, by joking. Jimin forced himself to smile. At least Yoongi was trying to make it seem like something that wasn't fucked up beyond comprehension.

"There isn't that much to tell. I was at Taehyung's feeling on edge because of how tense things have been lately. Got really drunk and spent even more time thinking about it. That you were kinda avoiding me and hardly coming over anymore. I got insecure and panicked. After texting you, I just wanted to stop thinking. I think I just turned off my head and wanted someone to comfort me and Taehyung was there just as wasted as I was."

Yoongi sighed, rubbing his eyes with the palms of his hands. It was obvious that he wasn't completely chill with the fact that Jimin and Taehyung had almost hooked up. "You really should get rid of that habit of running for sex with strangers whenever you feel bad. I mean I know you and I totally get it. It's like some survival instinct of yours to stop yourself from getting hurt, but please just talk to me when you start racking your head about something like that. I'm not really that fond of you sleeping around."

A part of Jimin wanted to make a snarky remark, about Jimin not being all too fond of his boyfriend sleeping around either, but he bit it back. It wasn't the right time. Yoongi was being pretty generous with him right now. Anyone else would have broken up with him right away if he knew of that habit of Jimin's.

So instead he nodded. "I know. I won't do it again. I'm sorry."

Yoongi's gaze turned softer and he smiled at Jimin before reaching his hand out and slowly running it through Jimin's hair. The soothing effect it had on him was incredible. It made him feel warm and wanted. Such a simple gesture.

Fuck he had almost given that away. If Yoongi had been a bit less patient with Jimin he might have never gotten the chance to feel his hands on him ever again.

"Seriously talk to me, okay? I know you tend to just bottle everything up and don't want to seem weak, but sometimes you have to. Otherwise it will build up again and something like this might happen again." Yoongi warned, slowly rubbing over Jimin's cheek. "Even if you do think that whatever your worrying about is unreasonable, just come to me. If you're worrying about it it's not that trivial."

Slowly Jimin nodded. The way Yoongi talked, about the future... fuck that really meant he planned on staying with Jimin. Wasn't going to leave him. Tears welled up in Jimin's eyes. All the emotions fears he'd had over the last months, bursting out of him. Swallowing hard he reached his hands out hesitantly, before wrapping them tightly around Yoongi and hugging him tightly. Choked up sobs pressed past his lips. His hands tightened around Yoongi. "I was so scared. So fucking scared. I thought you didn't want me anymore. Lose interest." he sobbed, feeling the way the fabric against his cheek absorbed his tears.

"How could I lose interest in you?" Yoongi's voice was so soft, it made another sob build up. He had his arms wrapped around Jimin's body, continuously rubbing the youngers back. "I have been really stressed lately and busy. I can't tell you why yet, but you have to trust me when I tell you that I totally didn't lose any interest. My sex drive just really suffers whenever I overwork myself." Yoongi explained and Jimin nodded against his shoulder.

"I trust you..." And he meant it. Yoongi's words alone telling him that hadn't lost interest was enough to soothe his anxiety. "I believe you."

He could feel Yoongi move him towards the bed, leading him to sit down.

"Good. I will tell you soon, okay?" Yoongi offered interlinking his fingers with Jimin's. "So please don't run off again. If anything like this happens again, please just come to me. You can always be honest."

Jimin nodded again, wiping his cheeks to get rid of his tears. "I promise."

The smile on Yoongi's face made all the remaining knots in Jimin's stomach loosen up.

When Yoongi opened his mouth again his tone was teasing. "So now, after what I heard it about you running off to Taehyung to take care off, it seems like I haven't been neglecting my duty as a good boyfriend recently."

Jimin was about to interject when Yoongi connected their lips in a warm kiss, wrapping his arms around Jimin. He melted, sighing contently against Yoongi's lips.

He could feel the way Yoongi slowly lowered him onto the mattress and simply relaxed his body. Whatever happened before was trivial. What counted was this moment with Yoongi right there on top of him, finally back to taking care of Jimin.

A/N

Lmao I kinda couldn't wait anymore so here's the new update.

Question: How would you describe this ff? What do you like? What do you not like? Things you hate? Things you love?

Anyways Yoonmin finally is back together and the angst is over😭

She said and wrote another angst chapter... nah don't worry. This is actually either the one chapter before the last one or two so theres one or two chapters still coming❤😂

No more angst just a bit of humor, fluff and depending on my mood smut😂

There might also be a bonuse chapter at some point buuut I'm not sure yet. Huge spoiler... the bonus would be vmingi or whatever their shipname might be, smut.

Depends on my mood to write it tho✌

(Edit: Yeah that actually happened)