*Several days later*

*Peter's POV*

"Yeah May, I'm leaving now."

"Alright Peter, and you're positive Jade can't come?"

"Yeah, things are a little complicated right now..."

"Is everything okay dear?"

"I'll explain when I get there." I sigh, hanging up and slipping my phone back into my pocket. I grab my jacket and beanie, putting both on before heading out the door.

I had left the tower, not much longer after Jade apparently did. I just, I couldn't face her again, not after making such a fool of myself. Course I didn't know I wouldn't have to at the tower until I was walking out the door, but I still wasn't ready to talk to everyone else about what happened. Now I'm going to May's for our weekly dinner. And she was so excited to see Jade again. I walk out onto the street and make my way to my old house. The apartment I got isn't too far, plus I hate going to see May as Spidey. Just reminds me that I'm lying to her.

God, why couldn't I have just kept my mouth shut? And off of Jade's. I should have played it out better, given her more time. But I still don't understand why she kept saying that I don't love her. I do, with all that I am and I just want her to be mine. But she hates me now. She'll never love me like I love her and it's ridiculous that I've spent the last 24 hours trying to forget it, but the more I try, the harder it gets. No matter what, she won't leave my mind. Those blue eyes that can brighten anyone's day, how messy her hair gets and how she doesn't care about it, the way her nose scrunches when she laughs too hard. Even when she was yelling at me, I wanted nothing more than to hold her in my arms. And why did she kiss back? If she doesn't want me, then why did she kiss me?

Before I know it, I've actually walked passed May's house. I quickly turn around, jumping up the steps and opening the front door. "Aunt May?" I say entering and taking off my jacket.

"Peter, you're just in time." May says from the kitchen. I walk in to see her placing to full plates on the table.

"Sorry, I was running late." I apologize kissing her cheek. I usually am here early to help set the table and finish the cooking.

"Don't be silly Peter, it's perfectly fine." May says sitting down and unfolding her napkin on her lap. I follow suit and grab May's hands while she prays. "So Peter," May says picking up her fork, "what's going on with you and Jade?" May's never been one to beat around the bush.

I swallowed the bite of food I had taken, thinking of how to tell her. "What did you think of Jade and I's relationship?" Or lack thereof.

"Well in all honesty, since you first brought her by, I've just been waiting for you to tell me you're dating." Ouch. "But I'm guessing that's not the case." Ow, okay this hurts more than fighting the Rhino.

"Yeah, but what did you think? Really?"

"Peter, I thought that she was wonderful. When she first came into your life, I know, you know, I was weary. But I think after you both took the past year to recollect yourselves, you somehow grew closer. Her being off in Prague, or wherever, and you isolating yourself." Huh, I wonder if Jade's actually been to Prague. Probably. "I think you two would be great together."

I lift up my head to look her in the eyes. "I glad someone thinks so."

"Why dear?"

"Because Jade doesn't." I say lowly, looking back to my plate.

"Talk to me Peter, what happened?"

Where to begin? "I kind of always liked her, I think. Of course not when I was with Gwen, but after that, I wanted nothing more than to let Jade in. I just didn't know how." I pause to shovel in more food as May nodded. "And then when she came back, all these feelings did too." I say with my mouth full. "But she was so adamant about not being in a relationship, so I didn't act on them. But a few weeks ago, Jade's... ex-boyfriend was back in town." I had to think about how to phrase that. "And well, she went running back to him." I say bitterly, taking another bite.

"No, really? But she's so independent." May gasps.

"She wasn't always. Luc was the only support she had for a long time, when she had no

one." I reply sadly. "She would tell me how good things were going with him and she practically radiated happiness. I didn't want to be in the way of that, but then when we went to this, party, Jade saw Luc with another girl."

"No." May gasps, again, as if she's watching a soap opera.

I nod, taking another bite before continuing, "Yeah, but don't think she didn't make him

sorry."

"Well I'd hope so."

"I actually had to go bail her out." I chuckle. "She and Luc talked in a public park and people complained about a domestic disturbance."

"You've got quite the spitfire on your hands."

"Yeah and everything was going great. We spent all afternoon watching tv in her room and she was starting to feel better. She even started to tease me like normal, and we were messing around and then... Then I had to screw everything up. I kissed her and for a moment she had kissed back; it was everything I had imagined, but she pulled away. She started saying that it was wrong and then I..." I dropped my head in my hands, pushing my empty plate away. There's a moment of silence while I thought. "I told her I love her and she immediately shot me down. She said I didn't know what I was talking about and that I didn't really love her. It felt like I was literally being shot at..." I think back to all the times that I have, and yeah, this hurt worse. "But I really do, and now... I just don't know what to do."

"Oh Peter," May says, standing up and walking to me. She hugs me, rubbing my back while I rest my head on her stomach. She pulls away and holds my shoulders, making sure I'm looking at her. "Now you listen, and listen good. We have all hurt someone tremendously, whether by intent or accident. Jade has hurt you, unintentionally I think. We have all loved someone tremendously, whether by intent or accident, just as you have." She holds my face. "It is an intrinsic human trait, and a deep responsibility, to be an organ and a blade. But learning to forgive ourselves and others because we have not chosen wisely is what makes us most human. We make horrible mistakes. It's how we learn. We breathe love. And it's inevitable."

"You sound like Jade."

May laughs, picking up my plate and hers and walking to sink. "Peter, don't worry. I know Jade loves you and there is no way she'd walk out on you."

"Yeah, I hope so." I mumble, leaning back in my chair.

"I know so." May retorts, cleaning the dishes.

I guess May is right. Jade would never want to hurt me, maybe she just felt like she had to. "Should I go talk to her?" I ask.

"Well, how did things end? Did she storm out or cry?"

"Well we were at... her apartment, so if anything, I stormed out. But I wouldn't call it that. I was angry, yeah, but I didn't yell or anything. And yes, she did cry, I almost did too."

"From what I know about Jade, she might just need space; time to recollect her thoughts. Maybe that's what you need too." May says shutting off the facet.

"Yeah..." I say tapping my foot. After a moment of silence, I stand up. "Thank you for dinner Aunt May, delicious as always. I think I'm just going to head home though." I hug her, and give her a kiss on the cheek.

"Of course sweetheart."

"I'll see you next week." I say grabbing my jacket and heading out the door.

"Make sure to think about what you want at Thanksgiving dinner!" May shouts after me. I smile, waving and giving her a thumbs up.

The walk back to my apartment isn't long, but it seems to have dropped another 10 degrees. I hurry back to my apartment, grabbing my keys, and pushing the door open. As soon as I do so, my "spidey-sense" goes off. I quietly close the door, and look around. I sigh throwing my keys on the counter once I hear it. I take off my jacket and walk towards my room.

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"Few times I've been around that track, so it's not just gonna happen like that. Cause I ain't no holla back girl! I ain't no holla back girl!"

I push the door to my bathroom open, standing by the frame.

"Uh, this my shit, this my shit, this my shit, this my..."

I lean on the frame watching... an old friend of mine as he sings to himself in the mirror, using my brush as a microphone, my towel loosely wrapped around waist.

How has he not noticed me yet? I think, continuing to watch him dance.

He spins in a circle, finally seeing me. "Spidey!" He shouts, gesturing with his whole body, but as soon as he does, the towel falls to the ground.

"Hi Wade." I deadpan, walking away.

"Oh don't act so shy, I know you love it," Wade says wrapping the towel back around himself.

"Where's your suit?" I ask, looking around the bedroom. He pulls it around the bathroom door and the red and black spandex is riddled with bullet holes. "What did you do this time?" I say, folding my arms.

"I'm afraid that's classified information, and I wouldn't want my precious spidey-widey getting in danger." He says hanging it back up and stopping the music.

I roll my eyes walking out of the room. "Put some clothes on."

"Wow, you usually would like to have some fun. What's got you so down pumpkin?" Wade walks out in a pair of sweats and a hoodie. Both of which I've never seen, so their not mine, meaning he's been stashing clothes here. Great. I don't respond as I open my fridge and grab a soda. "Mm, you're hot when you're angry. No not hot, spicy."

"Wade, seriously, I'm not in the mood."

"If I wanted to hear that, I would have gone to a girls house." Wade mumbled, pulling a chair out and earning a glare from me. I take a sip of my soda, setting it down, and hopping up onto the counter, facing him. My anger slowly dissipates as we sit in silence, his wide, brown eyes never leaving mine. "Come on," Wade says, standing up, "it's not everyday you get to see me."

"I know." I nod, looking at my hands. He walks closer, grabbing my knees and pushing them apart so he can stand in between them.

"Talk to me." I look up at his hooded face.

"It's about a girl."

"Screw her, physically and emotionally."

"But I messed up so bad." I say, leaning my forehead against his chest.

"Oh come on, it's not like you got her pregnant. Wait, did you get her pregnant, because I would make the best cool uncle."

"No, I didn't get her pregnant, and you will be nowhere near my child," I sigh, "But, I told her that I love her."

"Oooooo, that one's a doozy, can't say I've been there before though." Wade rubbed my back as I released a dry chuckle.

"May thinks I'm just being paranoid about the whole thing and that that's just human nature. How Jade and I both acted is just how it is for the time being."

"Wait, Jade... As in the Jade Leiton you wouldn't shut up about?" Wade asks quickly, pulling my shoulders back to look at me.

"Yeah...?"

"I thought you lost all contact with her?"

I pull back sheepishly from Wade saying, "I didn't lose contact with her... I just, didn't... contact her..."

"How'd you tell her you have the hots for her then?" Wade asks crossing his arms.

"Yeah, there's a lot I have to catch you up on man." I say, grabbing Wade's shoulder and hopping down from the counter. I chug the rest of my soda, crushing the can and throwing it away. Wade slumps onto the couch, patting the space next to him.

"Well come on then love bug, let's chat."

***

"And I thought my life was crazy." Wade says, a palm over his chest, taking deep breaths as if my recap of the last couple months actually winded him. "Oh you poor thing." He says pulling me to him, squishing my head against his chest. "You're under so much stress." He says quietly.

"Really, it's my job to be stressed. And this whole thing with Jade is inconvenient at best." I say, pushing off of him.

"You aren't actually going to just let this blow over, are you?" Wade asks.

"I don't know. Usually when Jade is upset, she needs space to be alone and collect her thoughts."

"Have you tried calling her to see if she's upset?"

"She was pissed! At first it seemed like she wanted it, but then she pushed away and was saying that I didn't know what I was talking about."

"She's had over 60 hours to 'collect her thoughts,'" Wade says mockingly, using air quotes and sticking his tongue out, "at least text her to see how she's doing."

"When did you get so insightful?" I say teasingly.

"It's a gift," Wade says dramatically.

I pull my phone out, contemplating actually texting Jade. I stare at her contact name for a moment. "What would I even say? 'Hey, sorry I ruined our friendship with no chance of fixing it, just wanted to make sure you didn't move back to France to avoid me,'" I say sarcastically. Without answering, Wade snatches the phone out of my hand. He begins typing something without letting me see as I lunge forward onto him. "Wade!" I complain, reaching for it. I finally grab it while Wade laughs at how upset I got. I stand on the other side of the room, reading what he sent.

Hey, just checking in... Making sure you're okay...

I breathe a sigh of relief, letting my arms sag to my sides.

"What did you think I was going to send?" Wade asks, still laughing.

"I don't know! With you it could have been anything." I exclaim. My phones goes off in my hand, but yet again, Wade grabs it before I can see the text.

"I'm fine dot, dot, dot. You?" Wade reads. "I feel like shit." He says aloud while typing.

"What, no!" I say trying to get my phone back. Again.

"I'm such a bitch, I'm sorry. I ruined everything Peter, I'm so sorry," Wade reads in a girly voice. "Hell yeah you were. I'm so stressed I won't even dick my chimichanga loving boyfriend."

"Wade! I will string you up so high in webbing, you won't be able to breathe, if you send that!" I say, trying to sound threatening, but he only smirks at me.

"Kinky." He says, handing me my phone back.

No Jade. Please don't feel bad. I just had to get all that love stuff off my chest. I still care about you and just want what's best. For the both of us. I read off of my phone.

"You suck." I say, glaring at Wade.

"You bet your sweet ass I do." He says with a wink. My phone buzzes once more, but this time Wade lets me read it for myself.

I know Peter. I'm sorry, I still need time, I think we both do, but I'll text you when I'm ready.

I love you. She adds in an additional text.

I love you too. I respond, hesitating.

I close my eyes taking a deep breath. Everything's going to be okay. I try to convince myself.

"Now about that chimichanga loving boyfriend?" Wade says, pulling me away from my thoughts. I walk up to him and wrap my arms around his torso in a hug. "What's this for?"

"Thanks, I'd still be moping around if it weren't for you." I say.

"Watch what you're doing Spidey, or I might just have to eat you instead of some mexican food." I laugh pulling away from him.

"Alright come on. I'm sure there are still places open." I say glancing at the clock and seeing it's just past 10.

"Wait," he says pulling my back to him, "give me a kiss before we go." I grab his hood, pulling him towards me. "But a manly kiss."

I chuckle. "The manliest of kisses."

"Right on the.... Adams apple!" Wade practically squeals as I kiss his neck. "Testosterone overload!" Wade cheers.

"Shut up already." I say, blushing and walking towards the door.

"Wait, one more thing." Wade says, disappearing back into my room. Minutes later, he comes out wearing black jeans, sneakers and the same hoodie but with a jean jacket over it.

"Where the hell are you keeping all these clothes?" I asked perplexed, but he just walks right passed me and out the door.

"Come along shnookums!" He shouts from the stairwell. I shake my head, locking the door and treading after him.

"Tacos, chimichangas or big ass burritos?" I ask walking next to Wade.

"How about all three?"

"How about shitting yourself for the next three days?"

"You got me there." Wade says pointing at me and then rubbing his chin. I chuckle as we continue walking down the street deciding where to eat. Wade points out a shady looking shack, but I just shake my head, pulling him away from it.

"I don't even need my spidey-sense to know that's a bad idea." He sighs as we move on. Several minutes later, out of nowhere Wade pulls me away from the sidewalk and pins me to the brick wall.

"You know I love you right?"

"Wha-yeah...?" I respond looking up at him. Probably looks like he's mugging me.

Without another word he pushes me back more, kissing me roughly. I feel my cheeks heat up profusely, kissing back, as we've never done anything in public. I'm not exactly "out" yet. He releases me, taking a deep breath and looking at my shocked expression. "Just thought you needed to hear that." He says. I nod, still surprised. "Cute." Wade says under his breath before kissing me again. Thankfully someone loves me.

"Peter?"

Wade and I pull apart from each other and I turn to see... Oh you've got to be fucking kidding me.

"Heeeeeey Clint..." 

A/N: You know that emoji with the wide eyes, that's blushing? Yeah I really wish I could have inserted that for Peter. Sooooo, what do you think!?!?! Can a get a hell yeah for SpideyPool? I actually really like this chapter, and sorry for not being as quick as I had hoped with publishing it, but I've never written a character apart of the lgbtq+ community and I'm straight myself, so I wanted it to be perfect. Like half of my best friends are bi so I had all of them read it and give me feedback, so hopefully it satisfies all of you! 

On another note, what do you think of Peter's POV? I always try to do everyone that isn't Jade justice. And yes! It is almost Thanksgiving in Jade's world! So, yay America!

Actually, to go off on another note, I'm really happy with America. Sure Trump was just elected (please no political talk, I just had like 4 debates on my instagram cause I posted pictures from the Women's March I went to yesterday) but there were so many people protesting and rallying and it made me so happy! I did go to the Women's March in Colorado and had an amazing time! It was so inspiring to see so many different people coming together as one. There were over 200,000 people in Denver alone. 

Speaking of 200,000....... Has anyone noticed how close we are to 250K?!?!? Cause I just did, and as if I wasn't happy enough, all of you just made me even happier. So thank you.

Anywhoooooo... Comment, vote, spread love and kindness. Hate is pointless! Sorry, but really there were like 2 guys (my friends) arguing with me on fucking instagram. Thank you all soooooo much! I'll catch ya next time. 

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P.S. Just gonna leave this here