VIEW BETWEEN VILLAGES / TWILIGHT
-FAIRYSZN, 2024
is it self destruction if you
weren't whole in the first place ?

SUMMARY                              the things i lost here,              the people i knew

Juliette Elise was more afraid of man than monster. She had rationalized it a long time ago and filed it away in the deep recesses of the cabinets of her mind. Claws could rip you apart, teeth could rip out your jugular, but eventually the heart would stop pumping and a blissful death would finally be upon them. With man, there was no certainty that death came with great pain. Man could use you, break you, and cripple your desire to live, yet there was not always the promise of a quick end after.

Yes, she would always be more afraid of man than monster.

At the ripe age of thirteen (her older sister, Isabella, was just about to graze fifteen) Juliette had been effectively kicked out by her mother. All for being a bit too depressed. (Juliette would never admit that she had been admitted to the hospital twice in four weeks, and that both times her heart had stopped. She had cardiovascular issues at 16 from her attempts.) She was shipped off to forks with the promise of annual visits. Renee never lived up to the promise she made her youngest daughter. Bella called all the time, giving her those stupid life updates a grandma would give her grandaughter. Though, the calls she received were the highlight of any day, giving a light to her bleak world.

Life in Forks was easier than life in Arizona. Charlie was never down her throat, kept up with her inconsistent moods and half-assed sarcasm, kept her in touch with Dr. Cullen to keep her arrhythmia in check, and made sure he wasn't up her ass about her feelings. Not that he was ever able to talk to her about them. He wasn't good at the touchy feely. So instead of crying to her dad about her lack of friends, or her inability to look at herself in the mirror, she sat with him when she had a particularly bad spout of thoughts. Truthfully, it was the only thing keeping her from tipping over that edge and making a leap she couldn't come back from, again.

As life wore on and Juliette strained to keep herself from combusting, Bella decided to move back to forks. It turned the youngest Swan's life upside down. The dark days were easier with someone who could listen. Bella was the closest thing Julie had to a friend in a long time. The closest thing she allowed herself to have. For nearly a month, it was Bella and Julie against the world! Then, Edward Cullen came into the picture.

She didn't hate the guy. She thought he was strange and a little eccentric, but he loved Bella and was kind to Julie; literally the only thing Julie wanted from one of Bella's boyfriends. She was content for the first time in years with her life. It didn't stop the terrible ache or the sleepless nights, but she had people who cared about her. Even if the Cullens, and Bella, were keeping some sort of secret from her. But she would rather spend her days sitting in silence with Rosalie or listening to Emmett ramble than question the things they had decided not to tell her. She was content in the dark.

Then the Cullens left.

For the first time in their lives, Bella and Julie switched roles. Julie was the late night therapist. Julie spent the days brushing out Bella's hair to make sure it didn't tangle since Bella was incapable of taking care of herself. Julie made sure Bella woke up every morning. She made sure all the sharp things were locked away and all of the pills hidden. She wondered if this was what it felt like for her family every time she went into such a depression that she almost couldn't crawl out. For the first time in her life, Juliette began to feel the way her family felt as they worried for her wellbeing. It scared her lifeless, wondering if she'd wake up and her sister was dead.

Life had sprung a trap on her. Keeping her so concentrated on her sister's well being she forgot about her lack of care for herself. When Bella began to function again, Julie finally began to stumble, falling as Bella left her in the dust for Jacob Black. She was alone when they found her looking out over the cliffs on the reservation, sitting with her knees to her chest. Finally, the pieces of the puzzle fell together when their eyes met. Juliette realized she had a view between villages as she spent her days unlearning everything she thought she knew. As Juliette Elise Swan finally began to fight for a life she thought was worth living.

JULIETTE ELISE SWAN              madison davenport
the girl of many faces                    the woman of wounds
I've died before, bella. you're stupid
If you think im afraid to do it again

EMBRY CALL                                    kiowa gordon
the boy of severed ties            the man of many words
I like to think that I can make
the best of what life gives me

PAUL LAHOTE                                        alex meraz
the boy of timeless anger        the man of loud laughter
life takes, life gives, life is unbiased
in our suffering. It makes us poetic

I'm back between villages and everything's still

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Okay, starting this off with this story is fucking depressing. There is adult content all around. So if any of these themes (Depression, self harm, suicide, suicidal ideation, religious depictions of suffering?, sexual themes, sexual content, and/or a girl discovering how to live) triggers you, then please don't read. I don't want my comments to be filled with "this is so triggering!", this is your warning ‼️ proceed at your own risk.

The story starts out bland. it will seem boring. the main oc may seem unlikable. she is a husk! she is depressed! she is going to self discover! don't give up on my girl just because the prologue makes her seem weird / a man attractor / oblivious. There are reasons for everything in this story. Thank you.

dedicated to -pixiegardens , -lostgardens , and lcvepledge  for being my biggest supporters from thousands of miles away. you guys make me forget the world for a moment. thank you. <33

VIEW BETWEEN VILLAGES                        twilight
-FAIRYSZN                                                     2024
a minute from home but i feel so far from it