Opening my eyes slowly as I wake up in the morning again, realizing I slept on the floor crying last night, I get up the floor and go straight to the washroom to get ready for the day,

Looking myself in the mirror, looking at the girl in front of me that I don't recognize now, sighing to myself I go downstairs and prepare some toast and a cup of coffee, heading to the library as usual, lost in my thoughts.

The beautiful girl I used to see in the mirror isn't present there now, I only see a too-skinny almost skeleton-looking girl with dull skin,

What has life brought to us and why?

In my thoughts, I didn't realize when I reached the library and opened the door as I entered the building, I took my first step inside, a sudden and silent cold breeze came from behind making my eyes open widely and a slight gasp left my lips and I quickly turned around to see behind me,

No one...

I ran and started finding him here and there like a crazy person but there was no sign of him, I stood still, heartbroken, and fell on my knees on the ground, looking down hopelessly...

I came inside the library again, walking with an empty mind while I heard some gossip, I looked to my left to see two women standing beside some shelf while gossiping and the way they looked at me, I could tell they were talking about me,

I just kept walking, head down, thinking,

What do they even know about me, they don't know my broken heart...

I started focusing on my work, ignoring people who don't matter to me, the time goes by as well as it does every day,

After making sure of everything, It was time to leave now, I went out of the library, and while walking, this time I had no thoughts in my head, my head was just blank, I didn't know what was happening to me but I let it happen,

While walking, I didn't realize when I reached my house and looking at it, I went to open the door and headed inside, with no fear this time, I quickly went and turned on the lights in the living room and the kitchen.

I opened the fridge to see what I had in there and if I would just cook something simple to fill my hunger, I found some ingredients and cooked Soondubu Jiggae, I sat everything up at the table and sat down, looking at the food in front of me,

I wish he was here too...

I silently ate and picked up the empty dishes afterward and cleaned everything before going upstairs and laying on the bed still, looking at the ceiling above me,

I had memory flashbacks of the time when I went to the sea to relax and met him, where he proposed to me to stay with him forever...

I decided to go there tomorrow morning just like I did before, turning right and laying on my right side, I didn't realized when I fell asleep.

Namjoon POV:

Laying on my bed as I finally got some rest now, all this time working on an important mission and her face never left my vision, I'm so broken, so much that I'm destroyed in a million pieces,

Without her, there's no life, I don't want one...

While laying on my bed, I looked at the ceiling above me and remembered the time when we met at the sea, the way we spend time there talking to little crabs, a slight smiled came on my lips, I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep without even realising.