it crashes over me
like a tsunami
powerful and unavoidable
my resolve disintegrates
so quickly
that it leaves me breathless

or was that my tears,
the sobs caught in my lungs
the screams no one hears
as i fold over my steering wheel
overwhelmed by
the wave

desperate for relief
exhausted and left
clinging to nothing
except disbelief
in the moving forward

the loneliness crushing
it's pressure intense
alongside the pain
that came from people
who should not have hurt me

only they did
and the waves crashed over me
as i longed for
as i wished for
as i begged for
an end

to be wrapped up
in white
and buried in brown
underneath green
until i was gone