collective calm
a mask worn
for the sake of others
or is it
for myself?

i pretend to pull myself together
but really
i am shattering
and my pieces
cut like shrapnel

i am falling from the sky
falling apart
wishing to be
falling asleep
but instead i am
falling back
into myself

wrapped up
in nightmares
my head
for once,
agrees with my heart.
"this hurts so much
that i want to die"

collective calm
a mask worn
for the sake of others
or is it
for myself?

i have decided.
it is.