Allen Conrad

Dark Silver Punisher! The word embedded in my mind like some parasite. This mysterious organization is more dangerous than wolf council is. Their method was out of ordinary. Totally savage and crude. How we want to ditch such an organization from our trails?

My little group and me actually the survivors from the dreadful living hell. The only thing left in us is a vengeance. We wanted to collect all debts from these bastards. Taking the law by our own hand. These people are from higher up down to common ranks in their society. With their influence and power, the law might not be able to touch them too much.

Therefore, we decided to take it by our own hand. It is a small matter to add another sin in our life. They forced us to do it. Danny is not a vampire and the oldest in our group. He is actually a dragon shifter. Today, the one that led his race is his little brother. They thought him already dead. All of us share the same history and fated.

I dropped my blood into his mouth because somehow my blood has a healing power effective to all creatures. Fortunately, these kidnappers did not detect this special attribute. Quinten was so sad seeing our comrades almost fallen again.

After that, I bring Maria to the nearest restaurant to buy a food. We hopped out of the car and going to separate ways. I enter the bakery shop and selecting a few different types of bread as the guys food stock. The cashier gives me an awkward smile.

Taking the bread, I quickly return to a car. On the way there, I smell mouth-watering scents. The scent is nowhere like what I has tasted so far. Without thinking twice, I let my wild instinct to take over. Following the scent, I found a man wearing a black hood trench coat disappeared in next two narrow corners.

Mate!

Quinten shout in mind causing me to paralyze on the spot. It urged me to chase the person. With heavy steps, I run to the corner but spot nobody. The corner meets the dead end. Where has he disappeared? The scent was still lingering around here. However, the owner already left the place. The man height is a same as me or maybe a inch tallest.

Quinten ears flat as we lose the track. It releases a sad howling. Last night I was in denial, but today, after smelling the delicious scent the iceberg around my heart begin to melt. A sense of lost attacks me. Is this feeling that I am afraid all along? The forceful feeling built up from mate attachment.

Unfortunately, we already lost that so called mate. We only able to take a little glimpse of his back. Thinking back, aside from the mouth watering scent, we didn't detect any werewolf scent on him. Maybe he is a mere human like papa. If he really a human, who can explain when he vanished without trace.

Fifteen minutes later, I get back to my car. Maria still has not appeared yet. My mind always back to think about that mate. Generally speaking, I don't really care about my mate gender. As I never want them to begin with. I did not know the feeling would be so heavy like this.

I hate it. I hate this feeling. The man is totally a stranger. A man I never talk and obviously a total stranger able to ignite an indescribable feeling in my heart. This feeling appears because of mate attraction bond. It is not originally from my heart.

I am glad the other person not from our race. Or else he might already pounce me right there. One thing I can confirm my mate is staying in this town. On the other hand, maybe he just outsider and drop here for once a while. Therefore, I prefer the second option because it will be decreasing our chance of encounter.

A knock on the window bring me back to reality. I unlock the door and Maria hop in after putting all the groceries into car's trunk.

"Hey, are you okay? Why your face a little pale and feverish?" Maria put his hand on my forehead.

"Maybe from the lack of sleeping." I start the engine and drive the car.

"Are you still suffering insomnia?" Maria is inquiry about myself.

"The symptom has already decreased this past two years. Don't worry, I will be back on track in no time." I give her a guarantee.

"Aren't your race free from decease?"

"Not at all...the fact we has half human genetic, so it will be normal if we have some similarities too."

"Okay. Just take a good care. You are not just our leader but our hope too. Without you this team will be crumbling down to earth."

"Don't worry silly girl." I patted her shoulder.

That night my eyes refuse to close and worse than previous nights. Its like sleeping is leaving me. Lacking of sleep causing me has a bad mood on the next morning. I release all the pent out stress in sparring with a little string of control. The opponent suffered a little bit of injuring.

Lastly, dad takes me head on. With him as my opponent, I release the final control. Dad still the one that understanding me the best. He follows my rhythm until I get my composure again. According to him, I am taking a lot of his traits or bad habit.

"Did something happen to you, son? You look a little tense and stress." Dad comment one we ended the sparring.

"Nothing." I gulped the bottle of water.

"Are you speaking true when telling me, your mate not in our pack?" I follow dad's sight that lock on Ernest body. Somehow, he turns quiet after my birthday, like he has tried to avoid me all the cost.

He loved you. – Dad speaks through mind link. The word causes me choke the drink. Some spray out and luckily, I managed to avoid it spraying over dad's body.

"What?" I ask for confirmation after coughing two times.

It is true. You always saw him as an eyesore. Hence unable to see the sight, he was throwing whenever he spots you. – Dad continues to speak using the mind link.

Do not tease me, dad. He is my brother and... - I trails off from my word seeing Ernest return to pack house.

And, what? What if I say that both of you never related by blood? Would you accept him? – Dad tries to test me.

I am only seeing him as a brother. Even if my life ends as a mateless wolf, I would not take him as my mate too. No and never! – I said with a sad smile.

Dad never knows anything. He did not know how deep the scar in my heart and the deepest hatred Ernest hid in his heart. Papa and I had broken his little family. Although, his mother was not a real mate but dad must have promised her to spend life together.

If anything, Ernest has in his heart it is only a hatred and revenge. After all, I have trampled his pride over and over. Stealing everything, he has worked hard in a name of true heir. If I am in his shoe, I would end killing dad's biological son and destroy everything they hold dear.

Don't let your hatred blind the sacred bond of mate. If your mate really hides within this pack, just acknowledge them and your life will be turned for better. – Dad dusted his pants.

"The person does not exist within our pack." I tell him.

"I have tasted the bitterness of losing mate when I was stubbornly let my pride ruled over my rational. You know what? The way you behaved today, telling me that you indeed have found that precious mate. The agitated and stress causes you a little violent in sparring. That was how I behaved when denied your papa existence." Dad pauses while scrutinizing my face, "Don't waste your time like me and repeat the history again."

"I am telling the truth, dad. If you doubt me then we will get the answer on Ernest's birthday. Don't blame me when your hope crushes to earth at that time." I laugh bitterly.

"Okay and sorry for forcing my idea on you, son." Dad pats my shoulder and walk away.

Why everyone expect me to mate with my stepbrother? Do they really love seeing a brother fucking each other? Disgusting! Although, we are not bound by blood but my parents already planted the idea of us as a sibling since we were in brat age. Now, they wanted to change it to the next level.

Tsk! I click my tongue in disgust. I am willing to stay alone until the end of the world if the last person I need to mate is he. He is the one I cannot forgive in my whole life. The two face fucker! I spat on the ground.

Returning to home, I spot dad hugs papa from behind while swaying their bodies back and forth. This old couple still acts like a teenager in love. However, I did not feel any disgusting toward their affection life style. Contrarily, it gives me a sense of soothing. Making me almost to break the iceberg around my heart.

Their affection ignites the longing in me. They are lucky enough to find their other half. To has somebody as close as confidant, lover and husband. The one that will loan his shoulder in happiness and sadness.

Are you okay? – Quinten asks me.

"Yes, I am." – I answer him.

Your sadness are flooding into me. – Quinten tells me.

"I am sorry." I pause. "Hmm, Quinten, do you think, are we will able to find a mate? A mate like dad and papa?"

Everyone has a different type of mate, Allen. I believe one day we also found one. Or rather we have found earlier. Unfortunately, he vanished before we able to know who he is. – Quinten assured me.

"Sorry but I don't want any of them. You see, nobody would like to have a dirty mate like us." A sudden realization causes me to take a deep breath.

I'll follow whatever you think better for us. – It disconnects our link and go to slumber again.

Climbing the stairs, I meet one of twins halfway. Sierra skips with earphone plug in her ears. She gives me a glare when we almost pass each other. Unfortunately, her misstep causing a loud screams. I am just managing to catch her in time.

"Next time beware where you are before skipping like a monkey." Sierra gives me a deadly glare.

"Oh, thank you for your friendly reminder." She said while gritting the teeth.

"What are you doing? Release Sierra now." Kierra shout from the end of the stair.

"Do you really want me to release her now?" I tease Kierra. The girl's face turn red because the anger. Sierra screams again, when I tease to throw her.

"Why you are so heartless? Your return only brings trouble to this family, breaking us apart and turning the family into a laughingstock." She pulls his fingers into a fist.

"Why you didn't log the complaint to dearest dad and papa?" I laugh to fuel up her anger.

"You.. You..." She fumed with deep anger. Woman so easy to provoke.

"Here you go, Princess." I release my grit from Sierra waist. With her nimble step, she able to land on without injury.

"Madman." Both twin screams attracting dad and papa attention.

"What's wrong, kids?" Papa stares at all of us.

"Nothing." I continue to climb up.

"He tries to push Sierra down the stairs." Kierra explains to papa.

The temperature in the room quickly down. "Allen, stop. Do you have time to explain it?" Papa shouts at me.

"Papa... stops... bro..." Sierra stuttered.

"Care to explain your attitude?" Dad put the high pressure in his tone.

"It is up to you to believe which party. Anyhow, someone who away for ten years cannot defeat one who had been raised with careful care. A nobody word meant nothing in this world." I left them when situation becomes awkward.

My step stops abruptly once I near my room door. With heightened hearing, I could hear Sierra explain the truth behind a while ago incident. At least, she has not fabricated the story. How long I can endure this torment. I need to clean all debts before I can embrace my family in a good way. They won't let me go no matter what I do. The longer I delay the mission, the closer the danger will be coming to my family.

Can't God at least giving me once last chance to embrace my family as I supposed to do? It is tiring to continue living like this for the rest of my life. Like hell, continue to run but more in subtle ways.

"Do you curious about how our mate look like?" – Quinten suddenly asks me.

"Maybe" – I changed my clothes.

"You should answer in a more exaggerated way, buddy." – It pouts after getting a nonchalant reply.

"How? Sorry, but I am an asexual man." – I tease it.

"Asexual man, my ass." It pause for two seconds, "Sorry, I didn't mean it that way."

"It is alright, Quinten. To be honest, I am also curious to take a glimpse of his front figure. Maybe we can check it frequently later on."

"Is it true?"

"Yes." I said. Sometimes, I feel like an asshole for letting Quinten down with my selfishness. It has taken too many burdens while protecting me. That is why I want to let him at least taken a glimpse of his mate figure.

"Our mate!" Quinten growl lowly. "The man not only mine but also belongs to you too, Allen."

"Yes, our mate." I nod in agreement.

After that one encountered, we did not get any chance to meet the person anymore. He is like never exist in the first place. Quinten becomes a bit emotional and gloomy each time we failed to locate the person. Who he is? Where is he from? Will we get to meet again?

The mate tale is true. Once you met with the fate one, you will be unable to resist the string of attachment. Your heart will be longing your other half enough to exhaust your whole being. No matter how strong and capable yourself, you will always feel incomplete in the end of the day.

I do not know meeting him is a luck or misfortune. The things I know is the meeting have tortured my heart and awaken a new feeling in me. A feeling that I kept denying over the year. I should not go to the place that day. I should not have followed that addicting scent. I... hmm... what should I say again. He is messing my days. He put my heart and mind in total chaos.

I am barely can control myself over this matter. This feeling is really annoying. It did not let have any peace in mind even for a second. The man back and scent kept messing me. Is he really a mere human? If he a werewolf, of course he has been jumping on me. Unless he is still underage kid.

Beeps from the phone wake me up from the deep thinking. Swipe it open, I see a message from our member that currently staying overseas. He informed they have spotted prey no. 9 and all information relating it. After taking pros and cons, I sent a plan for them to execute it. Once received the confirmation I deleted all the information including the sender phone number.

"Hey son, I am sorry for misunderstanding earlier. Kierra and Sierra also wanted to apologize." A bed dipped a little when papa sits on it.

"It is okay, papa." I stare at white ceiling.

"Nah, it is not okay to be accused like that. Did we have failed to be a family as you wish for?" The colour of shame sprays over his face.

"Nope... it might be my fault actually." I pause a second.

"No, it should be another way." He gives a faint smile.

"You're the best papa, I has. Have you made any plan for Ernest's party? Need any help?" I divert our distress topic.

"A little." He sighed. "Lately, Ernest acted a bit out from his usual self. I am worried if..." He trail off.

"You should not think too much. He is not a little kid anymore. If anything, the brat already enough to bear a title as a father." I land on my back causing a small bouncing on the bed.

"No matter how old my kids are, I'll always think you guys still as a small kid. It is not easy to let off this feeling as a parent." Papa stare me with warm eye.

"If you breastfeed us, maybe we are willing to stay as your little kid forever." All of sudden, dad whole face turns red. He coughed to calm himself.

"Allen, how old are you?"

"Eighteen...months" I laughed at his lost. Papa smacks my head before heading out. The laughter dies the moment the door closed. How long I need to be a pretender. I am so tired.

Staring at the white ceiling, the regret hit me. What is the purpose of me back here? The hole of emptiness still had been here. Unable to move forward or let go the past. Damn it! I should have avoided from coming back to this country. Just let they assume my dead like how my companion did.

Taking a deep breath, I calm the storm inside me. The rational part washes away the negative side. It should not long before I can embrace this family for real. The only question would be either I can stay alive at the end of this farce. Would I be fortunate enough to see the end of the tunnel? The fate might have the answer.

For the next few days, I busy myself by doing everything in order to eliminate all unnecessary thought. Including the faceless mate. I need to keep calm from doing fatal mistake. Today, the pack ground reverberating with blasting music and pack members scatter around. Ernest's birthday. The day when I can prove that he is not my mate.

Our relationship that already bitter turn deep sour after some baseless rumour circulating around the pack land. Some even dared to accuse me as a fake heir. What is ridiculous brain? I have any interest to blend in the party. More or less giving him any hope.

"Quinten, I am giving you full control tonight. Do whatever you want to vent your disappointment. I would not interfere with anything. I am tired and want to fall in deep slumber." I said to my wolf once I step out from pack land.

"Roger. I am not disappointed you." It gives a sinister grin.

"Don't leave any evidence pointed at us later. Be careful." I advise my beloved wolf.

"Leave your worry elsewhere. Have I ever caused you any trouble? Has some confidence in me, my human." I nod before letting go the control. "Rest well." Its last word lingered around as I succumb to heavy slumber. I need it as I have detected some abnormalities in my health recently.

A/N

Hi, my beloved reader, I am sorry for long absent. Do not know how to get out from writer block. My mind could not produce any idea to develop the story line.