ALLEN CONRAD

Damn! The spell had broken. The moment I open the eyes, a heavy chain shackling my hand and legs. I don't know what really happen in that short period when my mind went blank. Did I attack William? There is no memory of that time.

Judging by the sore body and some new wounds, I think my guess is correct. I do fight with him or maybe someone during the time. I showed another ugly part of my crazy mind again in front him. My healing ability is getting worse day by day. Even the stretching marks from carrying the twins still visible to the naked eyes at the certain part.

God! I missed Brysen and Weylyn so much. How are they? Have they fully accepted the bond with their other father? Their intelligent surpasses the baby on their age. This is a blessing for our family. Mate, sorry for letting you see the ugly me again. I hope you will forgive me for this last time. It is not my intention to disturb your peaceful life.

The open door breaks the train of my thought. Who is so generous visiting me around this midnight? I pretend to be sleeping while waiting other party showing themselves. The heavy girlish perfume permeated in the air. Damn, is this woman retard? She should know that we have a sensitive nose. Unless, she deliberately uses it to cover their natural scent.

"Is this your Alpha's former mate?" The familiar voice whispers to someone beside her.

"Yes, Luna. This traitor was our former second alpha. He betrayed our pack and Alpha." Another person replies the said 'Luna'. Wow, the member already crowned this woman as their Luna. That means this mysterious visitor is William's bride to-be. Why she was here? Afraid I will snatch away his husband to-be. Dumbass!

Opening the eyes, I shook the chain from my left hand. All three heads turn around facing me. They display various emotions. "Well, Well, what can I help you?" I sit leisurely waiting whom will first spoke.

"What are you doing here? Don't dream that you could get William again." The 'Luna' gnashes her teeth while interrogated me.

"Who are you? He is my mate, so I have a right to pursue him, am I right? The one that must retreat should be you instead." The provoking word triggers the woman hatred to another level.

"Shut up, traitor! You have no right to claim him as your mate anymore. He is mine and mine alone. A manwhore like you are not suitable to be his other half. A dirty whore." Her snide remark was like rubbing salt in my wounds. The word is true. I have no right anymore to pursue him regardless as a husband or mate. I was his past passerby.

Ignoring the pain, I vent the anger on the guard, "From the intelligent, I didn't receive any information that this pack has crowned its Luna. It seems like the information network of mine is unreliable." I fake the disappointed. The warrior's body staggered a bit as they know the heavy penalty for those simply entitled someone unauthorized.

"It doesn't matter as William will crown me as a Luna less than three days later. Your honest warning is not needed, whore."

"Whore? Oh, that title a lot better than someone that brazenly lied with open eyes." I mock the woman. It doesn't matter whether they are man or woman, the wrong still wrong at the end.

"What do you mean?"

"I got this interesting information a while ago." I pause to torture the arrogant heiress. "My lackey told me there was a famous heiress went to Bounty Bar to hire a ruffian attacking her crush. However, the well plan had been spoiled by hunters and rogues that mingled in the group. And, the result was her crush had been deeply wounded, reducing a mighty Alpha to coma for a month or so. Fortunately, the hospital able to contact the mysterious doctor. Or else, that mighty alpha will say goodbye to the cruel world. The funniest thing was the proud heiress still claimed that she was his savior. I wonder if this new going out, will the wedding proceed as a schedule? What do you think, Luna?"

The blood gradually disappears from the woman's face. Her arrogant figure overwhelmed by guilt and fear. "Nonsense... you are just making up a story."

"How about I present those ruffians to that person? I think he will recognize it straight away." The word crumbled the final courage in her. She retreats two steps backward.

"Joseph stops his mouth? I don't care what the method you want to use, just stop his mouth now." My eye turned to the person that had been quietly lean against the wall. His ability of covering his presence reminds me of the one of my men.

"If the news goes up, it will be a backfired to our side." The man advises his master.

"No, they won't have a time to investigate it. My father has already spread a news of this traitor outside. Soon, other parties will demand his life. Please do as what we discussed earlier." I shook the chain hard. I had a bad feeling the moment they stepped into this cell.

The instant my eyes make a contact with the man's eyes, I feel like the electric current rushing under my skin. This feels so familiar. It is a mind breaker spell. I lost the power of struggle, waiting them to do as they please. The man injects an unknown liquid into my body while the woman smiles triumphantly. Love could turn the well behave person to vicious.

I lost consciousness not long after that. I think that will be my last day in this mundane world, unluckily the next time I open my eyes, I hear the guard notify William about me. There is no trace of injection on my arm. What is the thing they injected into my body? Wait a minute, why I can't sense Quinten presence? Don't tell me, they are targeting my wolf instead. A sudden enraged surge in me.

My thought broken by William's presence. He looks a little haggard. He comes with his siblings and Betas. He and his companions interrogated me. I think they wanted to save me from any unexpected event later. Their kindness only suffocated me. So, I deliberately hurt them again with harsh words and empty threat. That managed to put William in enrage mode. He ordered Luke inform the others clan I have offended with serial of cruel murdering.

Two days later, I had been put in a trial. The judge consists eleven leaders representing their own clan. Without Quinten, my mind control slightly weakened. Most of time in the trial, I was in a dazed and choose to clamp my mouth. No matter what I said, no one will trust me, right? Thus, I directly bring a death punishment on my head by making a half-baked confession. I burnt William's image in my mind.

The end of the result, I was convicted of treason by a majority of the jury voted. A death penalty. I had predicted this punishment from the day when Andrea visited me. His family influences enough to persuade many leaders out there. Also, I don't exclude Dimitri to expedite my death. My death could conceal his wrongdoing and protect their interest. Anyway, a toy can be replaced anytime soon.

During the process being escorted to punishment ground, my consciousness almost slipping away. Using the sheer of willpower, I ensure myself to stay awake and pretend to be fine. Cain stops me half way. He scolds me for rushing to death. With a choking voice, he apologizes for being powerless. I told him to stop being impulsive and keep everything in secret, at least for my sake.

The ground fill with all kind of emotions and hush voice. Gladly, my parents didn't participate in this event. Or else, another curse and chaos will be re-occurred. From where I stood, I could see William with his fiance. The woman intimated hug my former mate with a sense of relief once seeing me waiting for death.

For one, I give up on everything. Soon, I will be free from all suffering and cruelty. A thing I wish for ages finally knock my life. Strangely, it comes on the day where I wish to live a little longer. Tearing my sight from the loving couple, I keep my sight down. My vision is getting blur whereas all images has lost their distinctive detail, leaving only a vague outline in black and white that almost blending with surrounding.

All sudden a gush of wind assaults the ground. I could not see what is going on as my sight almost turn blind. The voices around becoming low and far away as if something blocking my sense of hearing. No, it seems like I am amid losing five senses. Later, I was swept from the feet while someone is holding me tight. No kill me, please! I don't want to fall into the wrong hand anymore.

"Shh, you are okay, Allen. It is me, Abraham." A low whisper enters my eye. With that, I surrender to the exhausted and fainted. Maybe an eternal sleeping.

WILLIAM XAVIER

After the unexpected chaos, life resumed as usual. Other leaders stop pursuing Allen's case because no one knows how to retrieve him. Those snatchers must be bringing him to their realm. A realm that only recognize its master. The question is how he can acquaintance with those people? I never see him have any interaction with someone from that side during our lived together.

This show that Allen have been lurking in deeper water than what we thought of. Or, those people retrieved him to deal with their own way. No, that is impossible because his closest friend also among the retriever party. There is no logical to explain this bizarre event. Even Papa and Uncle Rion doesn't have that luxurious interaction.

"Do you think they had executed him?" Ian sits on the bed, asking incurious.

"I don't think so. His befriend among those people too." I fastened the cufflink. Seeing the reflection in the mirror, I feel like strangle my own neck. The will to re-marry become the most absurd ideal after meeting Allen again.

Why we meet on wrong timing? Why he doesn't appear earlier? Then, what do I hope if he happened to appear earlier? Would we able back to old time? I think that is the most childish thought, right? The wish should be buried deep in the heart. Unrealistic dream! I hate myself for unable to hate the person that merciless broken my love. The moment he appeared, the coldest heart start beating in warming way again, melting the ice barricade around it. All memories stirred in mind, making me suffocating.

"Calm yourself, brother." Luke patted my shoulder. "Today is your happiest day. Don't show any bad luck emotion. She is waiting her groom, smiling with love during walking down the aisle." What a joke! Deep inside, Andrea can feel we don't have the same love from the beginning. I need her to fill in the Luna position.

"Son, are you ready?" Dad knocked the door.

"Yes, dad." I have given up my own happiness. Hoping I won't jump the third marriage anymore. Ian opens the door, revealing dad and Lucas's figure. There is no trace of joy appear in my family face. Everyone just sticks with the plan for the sake of my decision. Lucas's kids playing the role of page boy and flower girl.

"I'm okay, guys." I fake the smile. "Where is the twins?"

"Big boy should stick with his brave decision after all. The twins stay with your papa." Truthfully, Papa has no courage to face me before I complete the ceremony. He still silently objected this absurd ideal.

We marched to the wedding hall with all eyes watching me go through this second marriage successfully. The hall full with close and distant people, two celebrating priests, a cantor, an organist and a photographer. Their expectant face makes me sick. For much of the past week I have had this dreadful, stomach-churning feeling of imminent disaster. Today the pain is intensifying more than ever.

Kaiser, forgive me. – The wolf shut himself from the moment Allen disappear again. The last thing he told me, he couldn't sense Allen's wolf. Their special connection was fully broken.

Standing on the Aisle, I still missed my first wedding day, the most low-key wedding ceremony accompanied by a poker face mate. In my heart, that was the pretty grandeur event in my life. A precious memory. Here, I am wearing the same face as Allen, an emotionless face. It is very different than that day.

Stop playing that stupid bell music! Someone please stop this madness!

This is the sound of my sincere heart. A voice I deliberately suppressed all time. The pain become severe when I spot Andres walking down the aisle with a charming smile under her see-thru white veil. Every step she takes like a thousand needles pricking my heart. At the same times, A terrible wave of nausea swept over me. It is over! Allen, it will be over soon. Come back, my dear! I wish the one walking down the aisle is him instead.

When touching her hand, I feel like my hand just touch a fiery rod. I know this thought of mine is unfair for Andrea. But I cannot stop myself from having a crazy mind. The more time goes on, the more I feel like dying.

We gather here to unite these two people in marriage. Their decision to marry has not been entered into lightly and today they publicly. Declare their private devotion to each other. The essence of this commitment is the acceptance of each other in entirety, as lover, companion, and friend. A good and balanced relationship is one in which neither person is overpowered nor absorbed by the other, one in which neither person is possessive of the other, one in which both give their love freely and without jealousy. Marriage, ideally, is a sharing of responsibilities, hopes, and dreams. It takes a special effort to grow together, survive hard times, and beloving and unselfish.

The priest open speech catches many hearts. Some guests must reminisce their own wedding ceremony. For those still bear a single title might be wish the same ceremony for themselves. For me, this is the most torturing period, solemnly accept the word with a heavy heart.

"Do you both pledge to share your lives openly with one another, and to speak the truth in love? Do you promise to honor and tenderly care for one another, cherish and encourage each other, stand together, through sorrows and joys, hardships and triumphs for all the days of your lives?" – The priest continuing his wedding script while facing us.

I take a long pause before replying, "I..."

"Oh, sorry to interrupt your wedding, dear cousin." I turn around when hear the familiar voice. Draven appeared on the big screen, smiling like a fool. I know this guy is up for no good scheme when he decides to greet us. The white screen that supposed to play newlywed childhood image cease it function with this freak image.

"Sorry, I can't make it to your happy day because a very important patient is waiting me to save his little hope of life. You know what, from the child until now I envied the way you led your life as a perfect man. You had been blessed with loving parents, a beautiful sibling-relationship, a loyal pack member and so on. Mine also could describe have a set of good parents and not worse than you too. Once upon a time, I wish I could be like you too. But one day I awoke from that so-called the chain of envy. For the first time, I become sober after witnessing your foolishness." He pauses with lopsided smile. This guy is always living in carefree life. His lifestyles caused Uncle Rion headache all time.

"Cousin, I found my lifetime partner in the most unthinkable place." Finally, a genuine smile appears on his handsome face. Inheriting his parents stunning figure, he could be an enemy to runaway model.

"This is all thanks to your former mate." The word silent the hall. All eyes sneakily take a glimpse over me. When this freak meets Allen? He never appears in front us before including my first wedding party. The person that can come and go as he please.

"Without further delay, let me present my gift to dear cousin. Wishing you an eternal happiness. While you happy taking the vow, someone else is fighting for life. Sorry for babbling nonsense, here is your present. Enjoy!" Draven's image fading off changing to another image that shook my core.

Babies, this is your father. He is the most dazzling and caring person. You are our fruit of love, a proof that someone had loved me wholehearted. I hope both of you could grow up to be like your other father. - A whispering voice echoes in the hall. An image of Allen laid on the medical bed while holding a photo, caressing his slightly bulging stomach playing on the screen. The video was cut-scenes of several heartbreaking videotapes. My parents are standing up immediately.

He is pregnant? Keith holds me when I feel like falling down. My eyes still on the screen, watching the scene intensifying. The date on the recording just a month after we apart.

"Someone, please stop that ridicules video." Andrea screams hysterically. Her face turned white while try shook me.

"No, you're not allowed to stop it." In the mist of confusion, I issue the order. Andrea falls onto the floor, crying like the world will end shortly. The fairy like makeup already been destroyed by her tears.

William! Mate! – One of the image show Allen was awoken in the middle of sleep while his hand flailed to grab something.

"Where are you going?" – The unfamiliar man asked when I see Allen absent-minded walked barefoot on the corridor.

"William is here. I am going to greet him.... William, please wait." – Suddenly, he dashed up with swollen stomach. The man runs after him, catching him when he almost to open the door.

"Your mate is not here." – The man said.

"No, he is here. He is waiting for me." – Allen turns around, hugging the man with crying face. This is the first time I see his vulnerable self. "William don't leave me.... I love you." He said in between the sobs.

"Shh, I am here mate." Maybe there was no other option, so the person impersonates me to coax Allen from crying. "I won't leave you, ever." He kissed on top Allen's head. The gesture makes me want to kill the person deadly.

The short scene keeps changing one to another until it reached too familiar, a vivid dream I obtained after coma. The scene matches with that dream in details. So, it that was not a dream at all. In the scene, I was on the hospital bed staring dumbfounded on Allen's big swollen stomach. A series of conversation refresh the mind. As if unseal the forbidden memory.

"Allen, have I slept too long? My body didn't act like I command."

"Yes, you have been involved in big accident that led for long coma, mate. For that, we have to be far from pack in order to get you a better treatment. Of course, you will feel a little discomfort because of side effect of the poison that invaded your inner soul."

"Correct, I feel there is a junk of disorder memory."

"Don't think hard. First, take this time to fully recuperate properly. Once you regain a peak health, we will sort all hazy memories. Luke is taking your responsibility right now." The me in the video accept his reason without batting eyes.

Allen took my hand, putting it on his swollen stomach. "Congratulation, you will be a father soon. This is our long awaiting children... A twin."

"Our child? A twin? Thanks goodness, sorry I am unable to be by your side all this time."

"Yes, they are ours. We are patiently waiting for this meeting. Please forgive my selfish self, mate."

"Finally, I could hold our own children. Allen, thank you very much for this precious gift. I love you so much."

Without watching the screen, I could guess what is next scene or conversation during that period. From the first time I awoke from the coma, Allen had been stayed by my side. Both my hands are shaking uncontrollable. I remember the feeling when I touched his swollen stomach. The excitement when felt a series of little kicking around his stomach. Being overprotective because I was afraid that he has a mishap, massaging his swollen ankles, helping him sleep in a comfortable position or accompanied him if he could not sleep. Also, the dread feeling when I accompanied him in the labor room and the time when I heard the first child crying. All of this not just a dream, it was a real-life experience.

"Goodbye mate. Thank you for accompanying me for this one month." My eyes concentrated on the screen again. Allen bent down and kiss my lips. Stupid self why does you sleep in the most crucial time? If I stay awake, maybe we could reverse everything back to normal.

Child? Twin? My eyes stuck on the children face that sit onto my parents embraces. It cannot be...

'Brysen, Weylyn come kiss your dad. Papa promise that you guys will meet again one day.'

Don't tell me, the twins really are mine! Our children! This is like the best face slapped I ever received. The man I blindly accused as a whore, truly love me from his heart. The man that I thought betrayed me merciless, given me a precious gift. The man that I tried to hate so badly, turn round loving me unconditionally. He suffered as pregnant depression and all other difficulties alone during that time.

I slipped down on the floor, losing all strength to continue standing. My parents come on the small stage with the twins. Looking in their innocent eyes, how much I have owed them. My hands are taking both children into my embrace while sobbing in silent.

My children! The children from Allen and me.

"Do you love my gift? That is some scenes I able to grab hold of while deceiving my own partner. Yes, your adoptive children actually your biological child. I was there when them coming out from your mate's stomach." Draven appears on the screen again.

"And woman, please stop your little trick. My cousin doesn't owe you anything. Stop deceived him just to get into his pants. You should know the karma will come to bite you soonest or later." He stops while smile evilly. "William, let me tell you a secret. The one that saved your life that time was your mate. He donated the blood despite our objection. Anything can happen during the process because he was pregnant with twins. He dutiful stay by your side until you back to life. Oh yeah, that woman's father paid a lump sum of money in order to fake a medical report. Because the one I sign is different than the one presented to your end. The rest of the story, you may investigate by yourself. By the way, I have emailed an interesting file to your personal email. Check it up. See you again." The screen turns white again.

"Uncle Rion, can you assist me to contact Draven? I need him by all mean." I desperate plead.

Uncle Rion sighs and slightly unfocused for a while. Like a werewolf, Vampire also has their own unique features and ability to summon a member. "Forgive me, Will. He is out of contact. Either he in seclude area or inside a special barrier. I will get my people to investigate soon."

"Please uncle. He is only the clue we have." I turned my sight to Andrea's family. A doubt and hatred gather knowing that they dare to deceive me.

Papa instructed all members to leave the hall immediately as the wedding had been cancelled. The big hall only consists my family, Uncle Rion's family, Betas and Andrea's family. My face had long turned coldest. Raven brings me a laptop for me to access the mail sent by Draven. The huge file with video loaded fastest.

Opening the file, my eyes bulged a guilty stabbed my conscience. The first video related to pup kidnapping case. It clearly shows that Allen and his team has saved them from the real villain. These kids had been given a treatment and therapy. The familiar woman chanted a spell sealed the kids memory of the rescue team. Unexpectedly, the good deed didn't get the proper grateful. Allen had been detained and accused to be the kidnapper. I had given him a physical and mentally abused during the interrogation session.

If he is a normal human or mere werewolf, maybe we have lost this a pair of twins. I have almost killed my own children that day. I remembered Allen's eyes flash in pain when I insulted his moral. It is so much so obvious. He must be truly in despair after hearing it. God, I am a sinner. A fool. Why don't I investigate the case thoroughly? Why I let my mind being controlled by anger? In short, I have lost an integrity as an alpha.

"Will, forgive me, I never want to deceive you. I loved you wholehearted and the opportunity came in unexpected way." Andrea begged in messy tears.

"Do you know the punishment for dare to kill me? It was an art of treason when you try to kill your own king. The right punishment is killing you and your family. This is not called love but a pure obsession. Would you take me in your eye if I just a man without power and wealth? No, right? Also, I got many complaints from company that you simply used our company image to get whatever you want. I could turn blind for that thing because I thought you are truly my savior. If my cousin didn't get close to my former mate group, I think you will never take any initiative unravel the truth. You were using the savior term in order to consolidate your status and lead me around." I take a deep breath to calm the storming emotion.

The next video is playing when Andrea hired the villains to attack me. Although the CCTV recording didn't have a voice, we could read their lips precisely. The man she was talking the same leader of the group that attacked me. I am a fucking fool. Two times to be deceived by women fragile nature.

"Take them out of my ground as soon as possible. I don't want to see their face for another second. Lucas, please withdraw all investment from their company." The head warrior escort them out. Andrea high pitch tone blends with the heavy rain outside the hall.

"Don't give up, son. We will do our best to locate Allen. It is time for us to atone our wrongdoing." Papa tugs me into his warm embrace. His hand caresses my back as if I still a little boy.

Regret invades me like long, slow waves on a shallow beach. Each wave was cold, sending chills down my spine. How I longed to go back and take a different path, but now that is impossible. There is no way back. There is no way to turn things around. The remorse would eat me every day, all my life.

It's what I've been feeling right now. I wish for a Time Reverse so I could go back, rectify the mistake - the worst of all mistakes I had done. The awful hollowness, the waves of wretchedness threatening to engulf my mind, body and soul.

Luke is taking me back to my room, giving me a change of clothes. After changed, I open the seal withdraw, bringing out a piece photo. A picture of Allen and I on our honeymoon. Today's event break all the seals that I placed on memories, emotion and soul. This despair, this misery, all of these are things had been booked by myself.

The twins stay with my sister-in-law. My parents and other siblings brainstorm with the higher rank wolf in order to locate my mate. The shock from this noon continuously tormenting my inner like an invisible whip. Dad instructs me to take a good rest and calming myself before joining the discussion. Or else, he will exclude me from here on.

A/N

Hi all, thank you for patiently waiting this chapter. See you next update.