For my 18 years here, it's been okay you know. But it really hasn't, I just tell myself that. Sitting here, writing this, I think to myself, I don't want to make myself a victim, I don't want to make you pity me. But this is my whatever this is, and I'll write what I think I need to.

Please don't be alarmed, this is what I want.
I'm just tired, and I want to be happy. Be at peace. I just want to let go. And that's what I'm going to do. I don't feel anything writing this. I don't feel pity, not for me, not for whoever this might affect. I feel happy that I'm leaving. And I want to leave that with you all; that I was happy in the end. I know that's what you'd like to hear at least.

And I know you'll have questions, why'd I do it? It's simple, I just wanna stop; stop doing all that I'm doing right now. I want it to end. I don't know if there's a god or not. I don't know if there's a heaven or not. It's a risk I'm willing to take. I'm happy to go. What is there here for me? Thank you for everything universe :)