Gyys I'm about to tell you a story that I've never told anyone accept a few closw friends. Even my parents don't know about this.

So from December 2016-May 2017, It was a dark experience for me. I was arguing with my friends a lot and we weren't getting along, I was very insecure about my physical appearance & what people thought of me.

I would hide this from people because I was afraid they would give me pity I don't need or just look at me differently. So I kept it hidden but I feel like it made me weaker as a person.

As soon as I got home from school I would burst into tears & sometimes I thought of killing myself but never cut myself or anything I would just get thoughts about it.

I also thought that I wasn't smart enough for any of my classes especially math. At least last year I was struggling to keep that grade up and since almost everyone in my class had a B or higher. I felt that I was stupid and I'm not smart.

Soon enough I struggled to hide my emotions from others. One day in my second period class I bursted into tears. Everyone just stared while the teacher took me outside to talk to me.

He calmed me down after ten minutes of talking. A teacher has never done something like that before. I've cried in classes before and no teacher would talk to me.

And he even told me if I ever am feeling insecure that I can talk to him. That may sound creepy but it's not because when I tried to tell my friends. They would push it off like it was nothing. They told me I would get over it.

Not all of them but some friends wouldn't take me seriously so just having someone to talk to who would take me seriously helped me tremendously.

My insecurity isn't as bad anymore and whenever it does come up. I talk to that teacher and just letting it off my chest helps me so much especially if your friends won't take you seriously.

So if your friends don't help you or if you feel like you can't talk to your parents...talk to a teacher or a school counselor. I was to afraid to talk to the school counselor but if you feel comfortable do it.

I know some of you will also comment didn't you have a girlfriend during this time? Why didn't you tell her? I didn't want her to be constantly worried about my well being especially since it was a long distance relationship\online. I didn't want her to worry about me killing myself or doing something stupid. I wanted to protect her so I didn't tell her.

Btw I know some of you will say I'm just doing this for attention but I'm not. I would never do that shit. This really happened to me.

How was your guy's year?