Oct thru Jan was nice. I didn't have to worry bout any illness. But just like all good things that good streak ended. I know I posted in my second randomness book that I was sick again. It happened bout the second wk of Feb. One of my drs started me on a new med but I finished it yesterday and things are worse. I'm tired of being sick. I've battled this off and on since 2004. The last bout was the worst ever...or so I thought...cause it lasted for almost 15 mos. It was a slow progression then tho. This time it's a fast progression. It's worse now than when it went into remission in Oct. The dr managing my pain already increased the dose of my narcotic in Feb and upped me to take it 4xs a day. It barely touches my pain now. I can't really take anything else cause I still need to be able to function...work, take care of my daughter, deal with the situation going on with my mom...and this med is the only one I don't have major side effects with. So I've been popping a 500mg acetaminophen, two 200mg ibuprofen, and one aleve with the narcotic. Even that cocktail doesn't completely take away the pain but on a good day it gets me to a 5 on the pain scale. Sad to say I've learned how to live at that pain level. I was also hoping to add a couple more classes in April since I just finished the one I started in Jan but I just can't rn which is gonna put me behind on finishing by next June. I'll probably have to add another semester and push to finish next Dec. I've seen my surgeon and had a catscan done. Now I'm waiting to have an MRI scheduled. I hate this. Like seriously. I can't run as much or go to the gym because my pain gets worse. At least I'm not gaining weight cause I'm constantly nauseous so I eat even less than usual. I just wanna get better and not have to worry bout this anymore. Being sick and tired of being sick and tired is wearing me out. I haven't even told anyone but one of my nieces that I'm sick again. My daughter knows too but not that this time is worse than last time. All she's known her whole life is me battling this illness and I hate that too. There's only so many meds I can take orally, by injection, or by IV cause I'm allergic to certain meds. I have to go see a new dr in a couple of wks too. It's not fair. I don't wanna be sick anymore. But for now I just have to sit back and decide wtf the drs are gonna do bout it this time.