The moment I've been dreading for almost 6 wks happened today

My brother and I got into a very loud, very curse word filled, very HUGE argument...in the waiting rm of the ICU in the hospital...where our mom currently is...

And per my entire fucking life I was the one being told to "shut up" and "just stop" and "walk away"

WHY?! Why do I have to do any of those things?! I'm NOT the one that chose to be the so called "black sheep" of this family! She's as much my mom as theirs (my brother and my sister)! I'M the one who's been up here non-fucking-stop since she's been here! How is this shit even fucking fair?!

I am SO fucking pissed off right now that I could spit fire...istfg

But yet I chose to shut my damn mouth and walk away before we got kicked out of the hospital and told we couldn't come back cause I'll be fucking damned if anyone is keeping me from being by my mom's bedside