tw excoriation talk

i hate it.
i just spent like an hour picking at myself (mainly my face.)

this is my face after that.
no, i don't wear makeup.
no, i don't WANT to do this to myself.
no, its not a good coping mechanism.
no, i don't like it when people try to insult me by my face.
i can't really help it.
my therapist has offered to help me, but i declined.
i might try 1 helpful thing that i found on vent (count to 10 and then try to stop). but thats it.
this is my coping mechanism.
this is one of the few things that i do to cope with the daily stresses of going out in public and being around others.
it also makes more stress (sometimes)(i try to ignore my problems)(which isnt a good thing and im working on myself).

here's a couple vids on it.

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