i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry
don't get close to me i'll just annoy you
i'm just overreacting haha stop stop it i want to be alone i dont want this

im sitting right next to my mom in the car and she can't tell i'm struggling not to cry haha she cant tell i'm having a breakdown i'm good at keeping it all in hahahahaha

i just got home i grabbed a thing of poptarts and some mountain dew gotta calm down gotta calm down i hate it i hate it i hate myself i hate this anxiety that consumes me it crushes my gut and my chest i hate this

this anxiety is killing me
it sours my throat
im going to cry again

i HATE THIS PLEASE STOP IT
I NEED AFFECTION
I NEED TO BE LEFT ALONE
YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND
i hate it when i make people annoyed by me it sounds silly its dumb you're dumb no im not yes i am im making a big deal out of nothing oh god oh god

i still have math to do

please just leave me...

i just

im so scared of you

im
sorry