I feel like I'm going to be using this book a lot to vent things but I just don't know what to do anymore. I've become more depressed to the point I want to cry but can't, I'm always the one picked on even though I've done nothing wrong. I'm the "lazy ass", "ungrateful son of a bitch", etc. etc.. I don't want to do anything anymore, I don't want to work, I don't want to be home. And I'm "happy" at school and after school activities. Everything I do is wrong and all I think is that I constantly annoy people to the point they only talk to me out of pity or silently hate me. But no everything is just a "phase", not like people in my life are helping with my self-esteem, anxiety and depression. All I do is make things worse, I'm a failure and a disappointment.......

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