I start school in 2 days

Imma be a Sophmore and I am scrared shitless.

I wanna cry so bad but can't because of my family.

The girl I like is amazing, she is beautiful and smart but she is straight (I think)

I can't have her because of family issues of them being homophobs

I have two freshly sharpened knives that I wanna use so badly

The crimson ribbons, i wanna stop breathing, just for a little bit

Go to sleep and not wake up, nobody would miss me.

My friends all have their goto people, and I am no ones go to.

No ones first pick

For one of my besties it would be their parter

For my other it would be his gf

For my other best friends they have their lives and i am not really apart of them because of really strict parents and rules.

I am so done

Please to those that read this ask others for help, do as I say not as I do

I just wanna sleep, I am no one, I wanna die

If anyone from my irl life friends ever find this I am so sorry for anything that I have ever done to upset you, I never wanted to do that, i only wanted you to be happy

Im not worth anything, to anyone, I am a fill in