Holy crap. I'm not okay like I tell my family I am. Last night I cried for like an hour, telling myself (in my head) that I should kms. Then I was debating over whether to use a noos3 or jump off a building. I'm (sort of?) better now, and this chapter will probably get deleted, but for now I need to vent. 

Also, dw about those whole friend issues, thankfully they got sorted out because S is too amazing. 

However, in school there's this one guy who hangs out with us, even though like half of us hate him, myself included. Him and the girls in my class (besides two, bestie E and her friend I) are the main reasons I have su!c!de thoughts. Apparently he might be getting WhatsApp soon, and S wants to add him to our gc, Scary Beast. I really don't want him on it because he'll probably bully me, and that's one of my only safe spaces besides Wattpad. If he joins, I don't know what I'll do. 

I hate my life. 

Stay safe, everyone.