Warning: Mentions of Suicide and Sexual Assault

I need help.
I want to keep smiling, but i can't
I want to get better but i can't
The days keep passing and they keep getting worse and worse
And worse and worse
And worse and worse.

I dont want to die, but i hate this life
I hate having to go through this
I hate this so much
I hate it I hate it I hate it.

I have few IRL friends that care
I depend on friends I met on Discord to stay alive

My mom, i love her, but she doesn't understand me
My dad, he's fine, but he touches me and yells at me sometimes
My brothers are okay, but my older one isn't the best
My stepmom is great, but she reminds me of my insecurities
I hate my stepdad.

School is absolute hell, and I hate going there
I wish I could transfer schools, but i know my mom won't let me
The people here don't care, causing the teachers to yell, and you know what happens next
My friends are replacing me, and they're forgetting me.

I hate living. I hate it
I don't know what to do anymore...

I

Need

Help

Sorry for the lack of uploads again, I've been at my lowest for the past few weeks and didn't have much motivation, I'll try to survive for you guys.