(TW: Mentions of self-injury and other things that might be triggering to some readers)

I do hate myself I can confirm that. I don't like how my body looks. I feel fat whenever I look at myself in the mirror.

I want to talk to my parents about my problems, but I feel bad because they didn't go through the same thing I'm going through.

Not to be rude, but people can vent to me. Why do some people think they would they think I would get annoyed at them? I love helping people. 

I try to help people that have the same mental situation as I do because a person last year committed self-delete, I couldn't save them.

Yes, I do Self-Harm. Yes, my parents know. Well, they might not know that I'm continuing it in places they don't know about. 

I've tried to choke myself a 'little bit' 2 times, it didn't work either time.

Music is my therapy I don't need to go to an actual therapist for my problems. I feel like I'm forced to go there. I'm fine with "hard convocations" but not with a person from church that I still barely know, I prefer to talk to my parents and relatives even if I suck at talking to my parents about it.

I feel like neurodiversity and mental health in my opinion doesn't mash well.

Because a weird fact about me is that I've been always loved the look of blood. I would pick my scabs when I was younger, I don't know- It was satisfying to see the blood come up I know how weird that sounds, Sorry for anyone who doesn't like that.

 My parents have hidden the razors so I can't find them, that doesn't mean they hid all of them.

I did find one when I want to SH will I was doing PHP, yes, I did do it on my leg. Went deeper than expected told the people there and didn't do it for a while.

But then A few weeks ago I found some razors, used those on my arms then mom found out and the person I have to go to every once a month new about it and I had to give them to my mom. 

Luckily, I found some other objects to use. 

In my opinion my parents are really bad at hiding things, I mean the other sharp objects are in the furnace room until my mental health gets better. I mean it's better than before PHP so that's a win-win. 

I have Dyslexia and ADHD (when I was diagnosed It was ADD.)

I feel like I'm a people pleaser I always have been It's in my blood, well more my brain telling me that I have to please people more than anything.

I am a Christian; I have been since I was little. I do respect anyone religion (or if you don't have one) If you respect mine.