...I'm not going to commit suicide.

No matter what.

Even if I really want to.

I'm too scared to.

I want to be here for you.

That's the way I'm holding on.

So if I don't reply, I'm not dead. I'm either busy, at school, asleep, or just unable to get on in general.

I'm not dead.

I'm not going to kill myself.

...

But I have a question...

Is it a bad sign if I stop breathing by accident?

Like, all of a sudden without realizing it, I just start holding my breath and not breathing at all?

Because that happens to me...and it scares me...

But I gtg...it's bedtime...