I just got home from the beach and my sister decides to be a whiny asshole cause she couldn't go.

My grandma yells at me because i kept it a secret even though she specifically told me "dont go telling [sister] about this"

Then i ask to dance and grandma sasys no and before i can even say "but" my grandpa screams at me

I literally just got home from a fucking carride and i want some alone time and i cant even do that

My parents are so fucking mean sometimes it makes me wonder if they even care

But then they always make me feel like my feelings are invalid and wont apologize even when im in the wrong.

I hate my sister so fucking much

She ruined my relationship with my parents and is the reason why i have most of my fights with them

I hope my parents see this and they try and take this away from me again

God how badly i want to just overdose again because of them

But i cant because i promise myself and you all that i would stay alive for you guys

But im never enough for them

Why?