August 1998

"I don't know what to do. What do we do?" I asked, as we got up from the dining table after eating dinner. I was eating now, regardless if I had to suffer trying to keep it down. It wasn't for my benefit.

We took our plates to the kitchen, hearing the elves complain that they will do it but we ignore them and thank them for the dinner anyway.

As we walked out Draco brought me to him. "It will work out. He'll hold the dinner and we'll figure it out, or at least figure out his intentions and who it concerns."

"Other than me of course." He stopped walking and faced me.

"Right, other than you." I deep breathed.

"I hate waiting. I hate doing nothing."

"You're staying strong and ready. Plus you're practicing hard magic, don't think I don't know things."

"Like I said, I hate doing nothing." He placed his hands on my shoulders.

"Dav, you are doing all that you can and that's enough." A thought popped into my head.

"I'm going." I decided.

"Where?"

"Nott Manor. I'm going to visit Theo and Enzo and see if they might know something- anything that might help us figure out what Merlin is planning."

We got used to the code words, the veiny scar on his chest didn't get any worse which means we were successfully loopholing.

"I'll go with you."

"No, they have to think that it's just me visiting them and then I'll just casually bring up Merlin while we hang out or something."

"Fine."

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I had gotten ready and had said by to Draco and was now apparating into Theo's room. I had chucked on jeans and a top. 

As always I wrote a letter in warning and he replied with I'm decent, see you soon. - T.N.

"To what do I owe the pleasure," he said and lifted me up as he hugged me, spinning me around. 

"Just came to see you."

"It's late, I was just about to have a drink, want to join?"

"Of course, let me go say hi to Enzo."

"Oh yeah, invite him too." I nodded.

"Put on a shirt, I thought you said you were decent." I said, noticing the mark, I tensed up and he noticed. 

"Hey, at least I put on pants." He joked, on purpose and I laughed walking out to Enzo's door. 

"Oh, hey Davina," he smiled as he answered the door, he was also shirtless.

"Why don't you people wear tops?" I joked, and he laughed, but still didn't put one on, and again I looked at the mark, at least I didn't cause this one first hand, it was my fault he got it though.

"So, what are you doing here?"

"I just came to hang out, Theo and I are having drinks you want to join?"

"Do you remember the last time you drank and we were to together?" 

"Well this time we'll both be drinking and I won't get drunk, or as drunk."

"Mhm, okay."

"Plus Theo is here."

"Right."

"Plus, I am with Mattheo."

"Right," he said again, but more flatly. 

"Anyway, let's head over, I think we're just going to sit on the floor in his room."

"Ah, can't argue with tradition." He was following me out and I turned to him, we were a tad too close but I can control myself. 

"Shirt."

"You are very bossy."

"I'm not the one testing your control."

"What about yours."

"I am completely fine." I smirked and he subconsciously leaned down to me. "See, it's you, maybe don't drink too much, and put on a top." He closed his eyes leaning back up and he started joking around.

"No! I can't look! Leave, quick before something happens." I laughed and left him, heading back over to Theo's.

"I cannot believe you started without me." He looked up as if I was his mother and caught him, I laughed and took the fire-whiskey bottle out of his hands and took a swig. I sat beside him, leaning on his bed, while he was leaning against his drawers. Enzo came in, with a shirt, and sat next to me against the bed. I handed him the bottle.

"You sure?" I nudged him.

"Oh just drink." He laughed.

"Fill me in." Enzo and I faced Theo.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"I feel left out, what was that about?"

"Oh um, I had a bet that Enzo would try to make move on me if he had a drink." It was partly true.

"Oh that's a guarantee."

"I am sitting right here."

"We can see you buddy," Theo said and I just laughed. Me and Enzo's eyes met and we smiled at the inside joke. 

"So, we all have matching tattoos now huh," I said, and we all looked at the same point of our arms and stared.

"Not the one I thought we'd get as matching ones but hey, shit happens," Theo said.

"I wonder why it was just us that had to get it, and why that noseless wanker made me give it to three of you."

"I have got no clue. It is strange though," Enzo said.

"It's just been bugging me, why he started stuff up again and why it's just students, well me and my close friends."

"I've been thinking about it too, but I just come up with nothing," Enzo said and Theo grabbed the bottle from him, not saying anything.

"You good Theo?" I joked on purpose. He met my eyes.

"I don't think it means anything but it was kind of odd that my father mentioned you." Now there's something, or potentially nothing

"That is odd, because we've never met, he only knew my parents, well father." I said and then I went on, "what'd he say?"

"He's always been a nutter ever since I could remember, probably because of Margaret, but the other day he came home for all of two hours and he drank like 3 bottles of bourbon in a matter of 10 minutes. But he kept rambling on about some brunette girl with emerald eyes, and how he doesn't understand why Voldemort is so obsessed with her, and I knew he was talking about you." He took another gulp. 

Margaret was his mother's name, she died giving birth hence why he calls her by her name and not 'mother' because she never really got to be his mother.

"I guess that explains why you're the centre of all this," Enzo said and I nodded.

I am back where I started. It's about me, but why?

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"Hey, what matching tattoos did you want to get?" I mumbled.

"Oh, three snakes crossing over each other, you know to represent each other. Because we're a trio." Theo drunkenly explained. "Oh hey, there's a little bit left, I'll finish it off." He said picking up our third bottle. 

"No I think I should have the rest," Enzo said taking the bottle from Theo and running out of the room.

"Oh, damn he got away, I can't run, I'm so wobbly," He giggled, trying to stand and I laughed as I watched him fall into bed. "By Davina, thanks for seeing me, you are my favourite girl you know." 

I laughed and got up, trying to find balance. He was knocked out in an instant and so I left his room heading over to Enzo's.

"You didn't even ask me if I wanted it." I wobbled into his room, as it spun around me.

"Oh I'm sorry." He said looking at me, "no I'm not, you're too drunk." He walked over to me, which was lucky because I fell and he caught me. "My point exactly."

"I didn't drink that much."

"Yes you did, and I'm curious as to why? There's always a reason for you."

"I just want to let go of all my sadness and anxiety. I want to be free!" I yelled and jumped back on his bed is a starfish position. He laughed down at me, and then his eyes widened. 

"What the fuck is that Davina?" He grabbed my hands and lifted me to a sitting position and he sat next to me. His fingers touching around my throat.

"Oh no, my magic isn't working because I'm drunk."

"Who did that to you?"

"It's nothing, it happened a couple days ago it should be starting to go away." I rambled, waving my arms about while I spoke. He turned my chin to face him. 

"Davina, who the fuck did that to you?"

"Silly Lorenzo, I wasn't myself, you see, I was being another person, a very very bad person, and Draco didn't know it was me so yeah," I muddled.

"Malfoy did this to you?" He said, absolutely baffled. 

"No, no, I'm trying to explain but I can't do English right now." He deep breathed and then laid me down and got me under the covers in his bed and I started to giggle.

"Ha! You're touching me, see I told you you shouldn't drink." He laughed, shaking his head.

"I'm getting you into bed, you wouldn't be giggling if I was actually touching you." I gulped. "I shouldn't have said that, I'm sorry."

"It's okay," I blurted shrugging my shoulders, "I won't remember." 

"True."

"I can't sleep like this," I moaned, annoyed at my clothes. I started taking off my bra, and Enzo grabbed my hands.

"Woah, hey, what are you doing?"

"I'm talking off my bra and my pants."

"Okay but just... wait. Here I'll help you, because you're going to flash me."

"Oh, you've seen them."

"Yes but I'm not allowed to see them again. Your orders." 

He took off the straps, making sure to hold down my top. Then he rolled me onto my side and unclipped the back. He then pulled out my bra from underneath, his fingers grazing on my stomach. He dropped them on the floor then he went to his dresser and grabbed a pair of shorts.

"No I don't need those, this t-shirt is like a dress, it's Mat's."

"Oh, how convenient." He came over and handed me the shorts. "Take your pants off underneath the covers and put these on."

"Didn't you hear, I said this t-shirt is like a dress."

"Put the shorts on Davina, come on." I unclipped my pants and threw them away and I took his shorts and put them on. I had to tighten the drawstring as they were loose on me. Then my eyes closed and I was falling asleep trying to ignore the fact that I just saw two of him.

"Just go to sleep." I felt him lie down on the other side of the bed so I turned over to face him. He was leaning on his headboard, arms crossed and on top of the duvet while I laid beneath.

"Why aren't you under the covers?"

"I'm not sleeping."

"Why not?"

"Not tired," he lied. 

"You're scared, you love me!" I yelled and he looked down at me and smiled.

"Too much, just close your eyes Claire," he said.

"Don't call me that, you called me that when it was just you who liked me in our friendship." He darted his head down at me and it made my eyes hurt to witness the fast movement. 

"Just me, what do you mean? What does that mean?" He babbled. I groaned as I was falling asleep. "Davina, what do you mean just me?" He asked, trying to talk to me before I was unconscious. My head started to pound.

"Because now it's not just you, I like you too silly. Silly Lorenzo, silly, silly, silly." 

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I yawned and my hands were immediately rubbing my temples.

"Here I got you some painkillers and a glass of water, it'll help with the headache." He said as he lifted me up so that I was leaning on the headboard. 

"Thank you," I said and he sat next to me.

"So how was your sleep?" He seemed... different, I just couldn't pinpoint it. 

"It was fine, I don't really remember falling asleep."

"Oh yeah, right, you were drunk."

"Mhm, I was." I looked at him suspiciously. "Are you okay Enzo?"

"Just peachy Claire."

"Don't call me that." He smiled after I spoke.

"And why not?"

"I um, I prefer you calling me by my name."

"Uhuh, sure."

"Are you okay? You seem... weird."

"I am good, great."

"Alright," I said, skeptical. "Thanks for getting me into bed, I hope I wasn't too annoying last night."

"You were taking your bra off in front of me and your top was all the way up."

"I did what?"

"It's okay, I stopped you and did it myself so I didn't see anything."

"You took off my bra?"

"Yeah I hope that's okay, it's just that you were going to flash me and I didn't think you wanted that to happen."

"Right, thank you for that- and everything, but I should head back, I didn't tell Draco when I'd get home, he might be worried."

"Draco, right. Just before you leave I want to ask you something while you're sober." 

"What's up?" He handed me a mirror and I grabbed my wand, covering up the bruises again.

I told him everything, otherwise he wouldn't understand. "Wow."

"Yeah."

"So he has no clue it was you?"

"Yep."

"But you have those memories."

"Yep."

"You kissed him?" He said, a little grossed out.

"You see, in order for me to deal with it I look at it as if Pansy shared a memory with me and it is embedded into my brain, so no, I didn't kiss him." I said, the last part more sternly.

"Right."

"Yeah, but it's not eating him alive anymore so I'm happy, I'd do it all again if I had too."

"You are absolutely remarkable."

"Uh, thank you." He stared at me for a moment and I looked away, as I stood up off his bed.

"Your bra and jeans are on the chair over there." I walked over and grabbed the bra to put on.

"You can go in the bathroom if you want or-"

"It's okay, I can just do this," I said as I put the bra on under the shirt.

"You can keep the shorts and give them back some other time if you didn't want to put on the jeans again."

"Thanks, I'll return them soon."

"Well, I guess you're going now."

"Yeah, I'll see you, tell Theo I said bye too," I said and he came over and hugged me.

"Bye Davina. How do you know he isn't awake?"

"Please, it's not even midday." He laughed and I took out my wand. "Bye Enzo," and I apparated.